And
If you are reading these
Why don’t you just call me
I miss you

I’ll never know
The dance
We would have danced

You won’t say it
You won’t let me know
But I know
You are thinking of me too

Dillan
I miss you today
I miss you every day

I hope when you wash your hair
Fleeting moments radiate through the air
Your hand up my thigh
A passionate kiss
I hope they never leave your head
I hope you wish and wish
That she were me
And you realize
You let me be

Today
I hope you and her
Drive each other
Bat **** crazy
I hope even in small happiness
There is emptiness
Today I am wishing
You get everything you deserve

I want to forget April
I want to erase May
June can also go away
I knew it
I knew it Dillan
I knew you’d never ever
Stay

Dillan, I can’t stop thinking about you
I just want to hear from you

How do you not feel this way
Anymore
How did you just close the
Door?

We were doomed from the start
But I love you
I love you still

I dreamt about you
I looked at you
And said
I don’t care what it takes
I just want to be happy
With you

And we will both
Wither and fade
Time eroding away
But I,
I will miss you forever
I will love you forever

Do you ever think about me?

I’m trying so hard, not to think about you

It’s five am
And I know you’re sleeping
I’m wide awake
Memories of you dancing
In my head
Making love
Laughing
Feeling so whole
I miss you Dillan

I miss you more
Than
The day before

I can safely say
If you picked up the phone
And you called me
Today
Tomorrow
Whenever
I would be so ******* weak

A boy asked me to dinner today
And I said no
I said no
I’m still not over Dillan
He’s all I think about
He’s all I want to be around

Call me

It’s at night when the full glass
Tips over the edge
Spilling and spreading out
Every thought of you
Dillan

Wedding bells
Wedding bells
I can’t stop thinking about
How you put me and her
Through absolute hell

Orange filled the trees
Climbing through the trellis
Rain drops kissing petals
A day of happiness
A day of rejoice

Secret eyes meet
Pick one soft
Honeysuckle
Forbidden sweet
Kissed my lips

Left empty
Smooshed on wet pavement
Stepping stepping
Many feet

I keep thinking about how
It felt like
You
And
Me.

Give me one day of peace
One day where you don’t
Cross my mind

You ****

You will always stop
Time
For me

Lie in your bed
Alone but
Never alone
Lie in it

I can feel you
Thinking about me
I assume
This is the only place
You still see
Maybe not
Maybe I’m crazy

Please
He said
Stop calling me

I am this close
To paying the 36 dollars
To change my number

His words played
Over and over and over

I just missed you
I missed you
So much I can’t breathe

Oh
You
Hate me

I got a tattoo
Of a honeysuckle today
To remind me of you
And that
Rainy
April Day

Pick up the phone
Call me
Please

I miss you

I hope it all makes it’s way to you
Some way
Some how

Don’t you miss me
Isn’t it unbearable
How are you happy
Can I be happy too
Please
Can I be happy too

I still have trouble
Believing
Every moment
Every warm moment
Wrapped in ecstasy
They were all
Lies

You could have said
You don’t want me
And don’t flatter yourself
I didn’t do what I did
Because of you

You are a
liar, coward, cheat

Why did you speak to me?

Was I light reading for the morning
Was I even that anymore
Or did you just erase me
Get rid of me

I really really
Just want you to be happy
I want you to be happy
For the rest of your life
I hope I see you again
Before we die

You can always
Message me here
I’ve blocked you
In every single place you’ve blocked me
I’ve made it to where no one can see
My new phone number
I don’t think you’ll read these
email me
One day
Some day
I will miss you every day
I will try not to
I will wait endlessly to hear from you
Again one day
I will try not to
I’m confused
I want to know why
I want to know what happened
I wish you would have told me
I wish you would have said
Goodbye

I just wanted to know
Why

I hope you think about me
Every
Single
Day

Dear God,
If you have any mercy
Please
I don’t want to think about him anymore
I want to forget his voice
His eyes
His laugh
His smell
Help me let him go
Help me heal
Please show me
I won’t feel this way forever
That he wasn’t the one
That I can get over him

I will get married again.
I will have children again.
I will have a family.
I will grow old without you.
And you.
You will never know what you want.
You will become an old story I tell,
When my grandchildren ask me,
About life
And love.

I loved you.
I loved you.
And
I will never know, what would be.

You are lucky.
Lucky I’m willing to crawl back into my safety
Away from you.
Lucky I haven’t told her everything again.
You are lucky.

Dillan,
You are a coward
I will
Never
Ever
Forgive you.

I cry so deep
I feel the river flowing through
My chest
Deep, white water, ripping through me

I can’t believe you did this
You did this again

You are less like a machine
More like a garden

More water some days
More sun on others

He’s lying next to her
While dreaming of me
And
My bed is cold

I just want to know
Why I wait
Wait wait
In this life
Too

Don’t you see
I’m so in
Love with you
Listen,
I can’t live without you
And I wish you were
Near me now

It’s 9 pm
The tide rolls in
The thoughts of you
You and me
Between these sheets
Hands against my hands

I miss the way you smell
I think of the last time
I buried my face in your chest
That’s when you left

I miss the way you taste
I think of the last time
My lips met your lips

Suddenly time seems like a
Long long hallway
Only extending more and more
The more I walk it

I ******* miss you
And I didn’t want to wait
I didn’t want to wait
To see you
To feel you
To taste you

I want to beg you
On my hands
And my knees
Please
Please