And you’ll rot
In some
Dead end town
At some
Dead end job
With an okay house
Maybe you’ll have “things”

And I’ll forget you
I’ll forget everything about you
And your
Little life
with your
Little family
I’ll have my own
Big life
There won’t be space for
You.

I don’t trust you
Not as far as I can
Throw you
Which wouldn’t be far
On a account of your being
6”3
and my being
5”4
But I miss you
I miss your arms
And the way you scooped me up
I miss you longer than the longest
Days or nights
Every poem is about
Missing
You

So it goes
The same song
Repeating
Repeating
Repeating
In my head

I forget it
I forget you
White noise

I stared at my phone today,
Thinking I might call you,
But I never did
I’m too scared

Hear ye
Hear ye
Two sham marriages
Instead of one happy one

It’s sunday
I still miss you
I keep waiting for it
To go away

And in the end
We will both do
What we need to
To keep our families together  
Never letting our lives
Intertwine again
But oh my soul,
Baby,
Never again will I
Feel so whole

“You’ve been done
So *****
So many times”

You did me the filthiest
Didn’t you
You absolutely *******
Wrecked me

You know how it feels without me
How can you live with this
Don’t you miss my voice
Don’t you miss my laugh
I miss you
I get so lost in you
Please
Please
Don’t tell me I’ll
Never
Feel like you made me feel
Again

I can beat you
At your own
Little game
Happy family
Happy life
Who can be happier without the other
Why are we doing this
Come back home

How’s making it work
Going for you

And
If you are reading these
Why don’t you just call me
I miss you

I’ll never know
The dance
We would have danced

You won’t say it
You won’t let me know
But I know
You are thinking of me too

Dillan
I miss you today
I miss you every day

I hope when you wash your hair
Fleeting moments radiate through the air
Your hand up my thigh
A passionate kiss
I hope they never leave your head
I hope you wish and wish
That she were me
And you realize
You let me be

Today
I hope you and her
Drive each other
Bat **** crazy
I hope even in small happiness
There is emptiness
Today I am wishing
You get everything you deserve

I want to forget April
I want to erase May
June can also go away
I knew it
I knew it Dillan
I knew you’d never ever
Stay

Dillan, I can’t stop thinking about you
I just want to hear from you

How do you not feel this way
Anymore
How did you just close the
Door?

We were doomed from the start
But I love you
I love you still

I dreamt about you
I looked at you
And said
I don’t care what it takes
I just want to be happy
With you

And we will both
Wither and fade
Time eroding away
But I,
I will miss you forever
I will love you forever

Do you ever think about me?

I’m trying so hard, not to think about you

It’s five am
And I know you’re sleeping
I’m wide awake
Memories of you dancing
In my head
Making love
Laughing
Feeling so whole
I miss you Dillan

I miss you more
Than
The day before

I can safely say
If you picked up the phone
And you called me
Today
Tomorrow
Whenever
I would be so ******* weak

A boy asked me to dinner today
And I said no
I said no
I’m still not over Dillan
He’s all I think about
He’s all I want to be around

Call me

It’s at night when the full glass
Tips over the edge
Spilling and spreading out
Every thought of you
Dillan

Wedding bells
Wedding bells
I can’t stop thinking about
How you put me and her
Through absolute hell

Orange filled the trees
Climbing through the trellis
Rain drops kissing petals
A day of happiness
A day of rejoice

Secret eyes meet
Pick one soft
Honeysuckle
Forbidden sweet
Kissed my lips

Left empty
Smooshed on wet pavement
Stepping stepping
Many feet

I keep thinking about how
It felt like
You
And
Me.

Give me one day of peace
One day where you don’t
Cross my mind

You ****

You will always stop
Time
For me

Lie in your bed
Alone but
Never alone
Lie in it

I can feel you
Thinking about me
I assume
This is the only place
You still see
Maybe not
Maybe I’m crazy

Please
He said
Stop calling me

I am this close
To paying the 36 dollars
To change my number

His words played
Over and over and over

I just missed you
I missed you
So much I can’t breathe

Oh
You
Hate me

I got a tattoo
Of a honeysuckle today
To remind me of you
And that
Rainy
April Day

Pick up the phone
Call me
Please

I miss you

I hope it all makes it’s way to you
Some way
Some how

Don’t you miss me
Isn’t it unbearable
How are you happy
Can I be happy too
Please
Can I be happy too

I still have trouble
Believing
Every moment
Every warm moment
Wrapped in ecstasy
They were all
Lies

You could have said
You don’t want me
And don’t flatter yourself
I didn’t do what I did
Because of you

You are a
liar, coward, cheat

Why did you speak to me?

Was I light reading for the morning
Was I even that anymore
Or did you just erase me
Get rid of me

I really really
Just want you to be happy
I want you to be happy
For the rest of your life
I hope I see you again
Before we die

You can always
Message me here
I’ve blocked you
In every single place you’ve blocked me
I’ve made it to where no one can see
My new phone number
I don’t think you’ll read these
email me
One day
Some day
I will miss you every day
I will try not to
I will wait endlessly to hear from you
Again one day
I will try not to
I’m confused
I want to know why
I want to know what happened
I wish you would have told me
I wish you would have said
Goodbye

I just wanted to know
Why