Heavy is how you sit on my mind

Tearing through every notion

That I ever gave you up

I love you

I love you still

You might be in my bed
But
I know
I'm not the one
In your head

Why did I think I could be with
Anyone
Why did I think I deserved
Anyone
Why did I think I deserved happiness

I wouldnt live any life without, you , my boy.

I carefully shaped your gentle eyes, and your tiny nose.

I use to lie awake in the night, playing my favorite songs, wondering what kind of human you would grow to be.

It feels as if there were, no life before your little light in my life.

My eyes have changed, small things matter now, my heart is full of small pieces.

I've never known such warmth,

Such love, love, love.

Wasting your breath

There are some things

That will only change

With age

She fell in love with someone else on my birthday.

He cried about it to me later that weekend

And I cried because he had fallen in love with her

Happy birthday

Happy exsistence

Look at me,

You didnt expect me to be more vicious than you

I am an animal

It's probably better than you keep

Distance

I'll let you go this time

To save you

Mortal wounds.

I use to be a person
There is body
But no soul
I am a demon in a skin suit
Hate me

I cant love you anymore
And I dont think you would
Come back
This time if I stopped you
You still havent recovered
From my staggering wave
Of childish revenge

And I'm so sorry that I loved you so much
It turned me into something viscous

Forgive me, I forgot the meaning

Of the word

When every promise I received,

Even the ones wrapped in shiny paper,

Were empty.

I'm so depressed,
And it isnt yout fault,
Please,
Dont go,
I cant hold my head up.

Baby, I'm gone, gone
I am so gone from here.

I'm gonna spread out far to the edges and over,

I'm gonna spill out, just like that milk you always ******* cried over

I'm gonna cover the earth,
And baby I'm gone from here.

Press on

Even when you are walking through

A field of razor blades barefoot

You just

Press on, baby

Press the **** on

He called my name with love
And he touched me with
Nice, soft hands
I crumpled like paper
His gentleness far too heavy for me
I only wanted people
Who would
Wear
Me
Down

I didnt feel woman

Enough

I didnt even feel human

Enough.

Ironic

Small tokens

How many times

You quit

You gave in

You took it back

Sometimes,

Every little thing

Gets

Under

My

Skin

You spend so much chasing time

That you are wasting it

By trying to experience it

As long as we could
Behave

As long as we could
Not act like monsters;

But we were monsters

All of us.

So he is as gentle as the sun

Gentle rising

Gentle setting

And how you loved to watch him rise up

Just as you liked watching him go down

Cascade down me,

The way clouds caress,

A mountains rough edges

I tell myself you wont talk to me because it hurts that much,

But I know, you love her, you love her, you love her

What a fool I have been in this life

I remember your cinnamon smelling bed
And your computer desk right in front of it
Blue light illuminated the four white walls around us
I miss you

I like the comfort you provided me,
But passion here only existed in between big words,
I dont like you.