my problems started
the day you left me to die
with my own thoughts full of regret.
why did you leave me alone
to suffer and go through
this suffering I'm still going through.

I was broken and I still am,
can't be mended or fixed.

day by day
it gets harder to breathe
on my bed i lay
gasping for air
lungs tightening
choked by memories
regrets and a shattered heart

it's been so long since I was happy
2 years, if I recall.
it was simple, weird and cruel
but now I hate it,
more and more.

if I pursued someone else, I'd be happy.
hung up and I always fall.
I've always realised, I'm the fool
and I hate me,
more and more.

save me
from me
from what i might do
from what i will do
stop me
help me
for what i might say
for what wrong i will do

i know how it feels
to be broken in pieces.
millions of pieces.

you can't do it
you're weak

you're pathetic
always sick

you can't make it
just end your life, quick!

let the pain swallow me whole
shatter my bones and soul
break my heart and my every goal

isn't it always about love?

the solution to everything?

love...?

I know I sound like a poser
a third-rate actor
I've been known to be a liar
but attention isn't what I desire
always in situations that are dire
everyday I feel like I've been set on fire

love
was one thing
that I never seem to get

hoping that one day
when it's here
it's not something i'll regret

as I open my eyes
new problems passing
with no hope for a solution
wishing here for me to die

as I close my eyes
no problems passing
nothing else to hope for
I might have already died

anxiety
is crushing me
into tiny million pieces
making me feel not needed

unwanted