you became the moon,
the stars
the sun
you became the universe

when the universe suddenly says goodbye
all life dies
including mine.

i was in a lowercase kind of mood

s.s

what do you do when you can't do anything right
when you try so hard to be that flawless being
that one person everyone adores
but you only seem to mess everything up
and hurt people you love

what do you do
when the one thing you want
is so unattainable
and your passions in life
are too unrealistic

what do you do
when you only let people down
like a setting sun that never rises
like a shot just shy of the target

what do you do when you are close
but never quite there
always just a second choice
never the priority
because i can't do it anymore
and there only seems to be one option
out

s.s

im sorry
but i love him
although it's not what you want to hear
that boy
to me
is ever so dear

s.s

maybe being honest
is always so tough
because to you
my everything
is never good enough

s.s

i caught your stare

it would have hurt less
if you had stabbed me in the stomach
and twisted hard
letting warm blood seep through my clothes

at least then
i would have been warm

because your glance
sent chills through my body
and i sat there
unable to move
paralyzed by ice blue
dizzy on forgotten love fumes

all because
i caught your stare

s.s

death is terrifying
but only because it is the unknown
we are always afraid of what we don't know

maybe that's why i can't bring myself to ask you
if you still care
or maybe that's why i can't swallow
these little round tickets to freedom
sitting in my hand

because it is unknown

and it is terrifying

but in all honesty
the unknown
of living without you
is so much worse
and it is unknown
what i will do next
because the one thing i do know

is that i can't do this

s.s