I've lost count of how many times I've watched darkness turn into a light shade of sunshine from my bed.

I've lost count of how many days it has been since I last closed my eyes when it was still night out.

I've lost count of how many times I've cried into my pillow, sobbing your name and patching up broken souls.

I've lost count of how many times I've seen your smiling face upon me as I let my eyes close down, tears tainting my cheeks.

I've lost count of how many times I've lied to myself; I've fooled myself, my own heart, and my own soul, turning myself into an idiot.

I have lost count of how many sleepless nights there have been since my heart started beating out your name.