I have been sitting here
Trying to think of all the reasons why I think you love me
I have been sitting here in this confused air
Trying to figure out if its hot or cold
Oh big bright sun in the middle of these winter african skies

Not a sound,not a laughter,not a wispher
Nobody is here except me and these 5 little birds
Chirping and singing,flying about in this quiet place
It feels so safe, at last that monster won't come and wispher in my head

This beauty
So serene
Just the wind moving
Trees dancing as he moves by
Joining in the party of liberty
One more day to live and breathe
Oh big bright Sun in the middle of these African winter skies....

Try breathing when every ***** is begging that you hold your breath to stop the pain
Try standing between love and hate
and screaming that they both leave you coz you don't want to feel
Try chasing away anger and bitterness coz u know they'll drag you to destruction
Try thinking about him when you know you are the furthest thing from his mind
Try sleeping when voices of guilt,shame and depression keep singing and having a party in your head, locking away your peace..
dawn,
morning colors,
dark circled eyes,
half a smile
coz u tried...

You took it from my hand
Dragged it through the mud
All the while I was standing there
Vision blurred by tears

For a moment there I couldn't breathe
My small frail body hurting all over
Trust shattered
Despair
Pain
Yearning for your old self again
But you where nowhere to be found
Only a two faced liar stood there

She was there too
Playing mender
Smiling at you behind my back

You dropped it
You took out your
Put it on a silver platter
Walked right past my miserable numb body
And you gave it to her
You chose her...