You are darkness
You are light
You are a menace
You are a delight
You mock me
You shock me
You motivate me
You captivate me
Fantasy's child
Lust personified
Deadly nightmare
Beautiful meteorite
Poisonous kryptonite
You are the sun that keeps me warm
You are the cold wind that freezes my spirit
You make me smile
You make me cry
You are courage
You are fear
You are destruction
You are ressurection
You are life
You are death
You are the beginning
You are the end
What are you?
A dream
A nightmare
An illusion
A reality
A mirage
A conundrum
Are you the answer to my tired and lonely soul?
Are you the one who will complete me?
It's hard to live with you
And even harder to live without you

We are all prisoners of our fears,doubts and insecurities
And we have two options with regards to them-
1)Either we can choose to do nothing and stay imprisoned
2)Or we can fight and find a way to escape
And believe me when i say this
The longer we choose to stick to the former option
The longer we will suffer

It was an extremely chilly morning
I was on my morning run
There was barely a soul in sight
I saw an old man sitting by the lake
He was shivering
I went up to him and asked him if he was okay
He said he was fine
I then proceeded on my run again
After completing my rounds i went up to him and asked him as to why he had come out on such a cold day
And he answered as follows:-
'It doesn't matter if it's rainy,chilly or too hot..when i sit here amongst the trees,the lake,the blades of grass,watch the birds and listen to their sweet melodies..it reassures me that i'm not alone..and to be honest at this stage of my life..i need that..my wife died many years ago..my children have long left me and gone away..coming here and sitting amidst nature gives me the courage to make it through to the next day...I like sitting here,listening to the sounds and just taking it all in...it's therapy for my soul.'

His answer just blew me away and i started conversing with him and since that day the man has become one of my closest friends,confidante and guide.He turned 80 this year and is still physically active.I meet up with him everyday and the time that i spend with him is so enlightening.I keep learning something new almost everyday.

And he keeps telling me that **the greatest gift a man can get in the winter of his life is the gift of friendship.

If you got a second chance to meet a person for the first time
Would you want it to be different?
...I know i would

She had tears in her eyes
She slammed the door on her way out
And left me
Never to return again
And i was left to rue over what could've been
I had someone special who cared for me
I had something good in my life
But i just couldn't appreciate it
I took it for granted
And i lost it all
I am my own destructor
No one else is to blame

Dear life....
...just for a day i don't wish to be misunderstood
...just for a day i don't wish to be judged
...just for a day i don't wish to be backstabbed
...just for a day i wish to be loved
...just for a day i wish to forget about my problems
...just for a day i wish to experience some moments of happiness
...just for a day i wish to feel at peace with myself
...just for a day i wish to truly live
Do you think you could grant me all of these wishes?
Or is it too much to ask?

I have always loved you
Even at times when i hated you
Even during the times when i was upset with you
You would always wander around in my mind
Teasing me
Playing with my head
Running wild like a kid on his first run
We fight so often
We have had our moments of doubts
We have had tough times
But inspite of that..it's hard to imagine my existence without you
You are the constant flow of blood rushing through my veins
The beat of my heart
The force that keeps me going
The inspiration that helps me to fight
And if were to lose you
Then i would lose myself
We have made it this far
And i believe we will make it till the end of time
I promise to never leave your hand
Just hold on to me

Although i had just met her
But from the moment i saw her
And later when i interacted with her
I knew i'd never meet anyone like her ever again
She was one of a kind...
...full of life
....a positive attitude towards life
....very helpful and kind in nature
...always with a smile on her face
....and mentally very strong
She didn't just capture my eyes,heart and mind
She took over my soul
With her i was having the best time of my life
For the first time i had actually met this guy named 'happiness'
It was all going well
And then one fine day
She just vanished
Left without a trace
I looked for her in every single place i could
But i just never saw her again
She left such a strong impression upon me that i don't think i'll ever forget her
And till this very day she resides in every part of my existence
I miss her really bad
She taught me to live life in the real sense
Life doesn't feel right without her
I wish she'd come back to me
Without her my heart feels like this huge vacant space of nothingness
There is such a big hole in my soul
I don't feel like living
But i don't wish to die without seeing her again

We are inseparable by love
Insatiable by night
Holding you in my arms and kissing you
Is such a delight

Feeling your skin against mine
Is a feeling so divine
When i'm with you
There is no relevance of time
'Coz it just stops

When the moonlight pierces through the window and shines upon your **** form
It just makes my whole body go warm
I want to taste every inch of you
I hope you wanna do the same too

Your sweet lips
Your beautiful hips
They are all driving me crazy
Your beauty is surreal
Your *** appeal is unreal
What can i say?...
...I simply cannot help but sin
When i see your naked skin

When you tell me that you love me
My heart skips a thousand beats
And i feel a gazillion times stronger

When you kiss me
I feel this incredible rush of energy surging through my veins

When you make love to me
I feel more alive than ever before

When you hold me in your arms
I feel more safer than anywhere else

When i look into your eyes
I can see the galaxy personified

You are my sun
You are my moon
You are my comfort pillow
You are my consoling shoulder
And no matter what
We'll always be one

When i look at kids all around
It constantly reminds me
As to what a good person i once was
Untainted by the filth of society
Uncorrupted mind
Free mind
A mind which didn't think or analyse too much
A mind which didn't try to make sense of everything
Soul intact
Then like everyone else i underwent the metamorphorsis...
...i grew up
And things were no longer the same
The society had pulled me into its ***** mess
I had lost my sense of innocence
The purity of my soul was tarnished
The devil got a big chunk of it
I was no longer a fan of light
Darkness is what started to like
Perhaps when i saw the dark side of life
It affected me adversely
And i've been trying to recover ever since
I keep telling myself that i'm better than this
But somehow i just can't seem to find my old self..
...The 'me' who had goodness in him
I'm fighting the world
I'm fighting my inner demons
But i seem to be failing
With every passing day i can feel myself falling into this abyss of chaos and hopelessness
The pressures of society
The burden of expectations
I'm a grown up
I'm expected to do the right things
I'm supposed to be sensible
I'm constantly judged
I honestly don't know how i've made it through the jungle of life and reached this far
Seems only like yesterday
When i was a small boy
Enjoying life
Not worrying about nothing
And here i am today
With a bruised and battered soul
And a fragile body
Life has virtually drained me out
I mean...have you seen the world lately?
It's a freaking circus
A heartless monster
The competition is unreal
People will do almost anything for the sake of success
Even betray and backstab you
When i was a kid i always thought that life was all good and happy
And the world was such a beautiful place
And then when i grew up...
....i realized how heartless both life and the world can be at times
At times when i look at kids
I envy them
They are in such a good phase of their lives
Sometimes i wish i never grew up
I was better off as a kid

We are no longer together
I know i've lost you forever
And even though it hurts like hell
There is something that i want to tell-

"In the years that we were together
I didn't just find love
I found myself
And that's the most important thing that i will have ever found
So thank you for that.."

I admit that i will miss you
Oh...how i still want to kiss you
I wish you were here to hold me on those lonely nights
But then you've made up your mind
You don't wish to rewind
Just one last request.....
.....can i have just this one last dance?
....one final moment of feeling your hands around my waist
....and your eyes looking into mine
....just this one final moment of togetherness before the sun finally sets
...while we listen to James Blunt singing...

... 'Goodbye my lover,goodbye my friend
I guess this is it...this is the end
And as you move on,remember me
Remember us and all that we used to be '

If you put a low price tag upon yourself
How do you expect others to value you?

Once the sea said to the well-
'Look at me..i'm so big and powerful..i'm grand while you're small...don't you sometimes wish that you were a sea?'

The well replied-
'It is true that you are big and powerful...but i think i'd rather remain small and stay sweet than get big and become salty.'

I was pretty sure that i was gonna lose myself in the chaos and mess of the world
Fortunately i found you
And got something better to get lost in
And truth is...
....ever since you've become my world
The world seems like a much better place
Thanks to you
My entire existence now feels fresh and brand new
My perspective towards life in general has changed
I can now see the beauty all around
I am much more positive
I've now learnt to focus on the good
I find a sense of joy in everything i do

I sometimes visualize the day of my burial
Covered with white cloth
Ready to be taken to the burial ground
There lies my dead body
Only if my soul could tell how it feels right now
Some genuinely grieve for me
Others are there just as a formality
No sooner am i dead
People start dissecting my life
They start analyzing me
Discussing what i did while i lived
Some say-'look at him..he never did no good deed...it looks like he is going to hell.'
Some are kind and say-'no he wasn't a bad person...may be he might get a little place in heaven...God is merciful.'
Some say-'This guy never did anything substantial in his life...he didn't have many friends...no woman in his life...he was lonely and cut-off from the world...all he did was write and give advice.'
And then when i'm finally buried
They talk about me for a day or two
And then they all carry on with their lives as if nothing ever happened(Exception to this will be a few close persons in my life.)
For many...i will be just another addition to the dead persons column of the world
I never did mean anything to them
And that's ok
As long as i have a few persons who will genuinely miss me...
And remember me for the right reasons...
...I'm good

The desert hadn't witnessed rain for ages
The camels,the bedouins,every grain of sand
...they no longer hoped for any miracle
However there was something different about today
As i was making my way across the vast dunes of sand
I could feel a certain amount of excitement in the air
I could see the skies were bringing their 'A' game on
Dark and black...
...that's the look they had
It seemed as if after ages the skies had finally woken up
And decided that today wasn't going to be just another day in the desert
Today was going to be different
Today was going to be special
Then i saw the lightning
This was followed by shrieks of thunder
And finally the skies poured their heart out
And as the first drop kissed the desert
I could feel every single grain of sand dancing with joy
The desert hadn't tasted such happiness for many years
Today i had become a part of something special
Prior to this experience i had never believed in miracles
Today as i experienced the most magnificent miracle ever
I couldn't help but think to myself-
'Sometimes miracles do occur.'

Two things about me which probably make me a candidate fit for the mental asylum:-
1)I suffer from a compulsive book buying disorder..i.e. every single time i step into a book store,i simply have to buy a book..i just cannot leave empty-handed.
2)Since the year 2006,i've kept a record in my diary of every single movie i've watched in a movie theatre.

Sometimes you realize the importance of a person in your life only when you need that person the most or when that person is gone from your life or when that person is no longer alive...that person had been there in front of you all the time..supporting you,loving you,always being there for you...all that person wanted was a little love and some of your time..but you just overlooked that person the entire time...later you feel remorseful...but sometimes it's just too late.

I sit and count the hours
Waiting for my final time to come
I ask myself-
'Have i done any good deeds?'
I'm not sure...may be some
I've mostly lived a life of sin
All i wanted was at any cost to win
I cheated
I betrayed
I stooped so low
That no longer my face i could show
It's never too late to change they said
Unfortunately when i took that decision i was virtually dead
Death was already on it's way
Now i no longer have no say
If only i had realized earlier that i was on the wrong path
Alas!...it's too late now
I shall have to face the aftermath..
...of my bad deeds
As my eyes prepare to close one final time
I just wish i had a little more time

If love were to be measured in monetary terms
Then i've been a beggar for many years now
I've tried playing lottery
But so far no luck
In fact it's mostly gone south
I've lost more than i've got
So i've now decided to enjoy the serenity of isolation
If something good comes my way.....great
If not....
...then it'll just be me,nature and my best friend loneliness...
...till the end of time

In order to experience joy and fully understand it's value
You must taste sorrow
Remember if it's sorrow today
It will be joy tomorrow

In order to understand the true meaning of success
You must fail
Remember if you're struggling to swim today
Someday on a magnificent ship...
...you will proudly sail

They say as you age you grow wiser
Things become much more clearer to you
Well..i'm not sure
In fact with every passing year i seem to be getting more confused
Where am i going?
What do i want?
Who's with with me?
Still so many unanswered questions like the above
The more i'm trying to grasp life
The more it seems to be slipping out
However amidst all the chaos and confusion...
...two changes have occured in me of which i'm pretty proud...
1)I'm a much more calmer person now..i don't usually react to any sort of provocation or unfair criticism..in fact i generally do not get angry unless and until really pushed
2)I'm now good(or at least try to be)to the people i strongly detest..it's not like they are my friends...but i certainly don't treat them like enemies

Sometimes the attitude of some people towards single persons baffles me...it's like being single is a crime!!!....The notion that a single person is a lonely person is a misconception...just because you're alone doesn't mean you're lonely or unhappy..There's certain good things in being alone.You get time to do the things you want to do, like study and plan...discover yourself....figure out what you want to do..sure you can’t have romantic candle-lit dinners or hold hands and take a walk or be physical with a person, I mean beyond a flirtationship...i'm not saying that one doesn't want a special somebody in their lives...having a special someone who loves you and supports you is indeed an incredible feeling..but it's not like a single person is doomed...believe it or not he too has some great moments in his life...may be his time for love hasn't arrived yet...and i always believe that it is better to be with no one than to be with the wrong one...a lonely night is far better than a morning of heartbreak and tears.

It's about 4 a.m.
The early morning sky is painted orange
Man...it's magical!!!
I just can't take my eyes off it
There is just that little ray of light
But the birds ain't waitin'
They have already started their morning flight
A nice cool breeze is blowing all across
Barely anyone on the streets
The beauty and energy all around makes feel so very positive
I stretch my arms and legs
Then close my eyes and take in all of the serene offerings of the early morning
And a little later i walk up to the mosque and offer my morning salah
It's one of the best mornings i've ever seen
I must admit...
...i'm not usually a morning person
But there are certain priceless joys attached to waking up early

Every night i slip through the sands of time
And escape to the world of dreams
Only to be rudely pushed back into the harsh world of reality the next morning
And i just hate it

You say that you love me
So why don't your actions suggest the same?
All you do is make me cry
And yet you put on me the blame

I don't want no gifts
I don't want no fancy stuff
All i want is a little respect
I think that's not too much to expect

Mean what you say
With my heart...don't just play
You keep hurting me every other day
And make it so difficult for me to stay....
...in this relationship

So please stop hurting me
Love me like you used to
You weren't like this before
Baby...what's wrong with you?

I had dreamed of this day for many years
I didn't think it would happen
But i secretly hoped that it would
At last...We are finally together!!!
You ask me as to when did i start loving you
Truth be told...
...It's not just now,Darling
I've loved you since the beginning of time
I have taken many a glances at you
I have admired you
I have always kept you in my prayers
We met on a few ocassions
I often saw you at the market place
You were never really noticed me
But it's not your fault
Perhaps i wasn't competent enough to express my love for you
You see...i was apprehensive of the outcome
I didn't think i'd be able to take a rejection
What if i lost my respect in your eyes?
All these thoughts constantly discouraged me from expressing my feelings for you
But then one day i somehow gathered some courage and poured my heart out in front of you
And it worked!!!
Now that we are together...
...i feel so blessed and happy
I can't thank God enough for bringing you into my life
You are the best thing that has ever happened to me
I know i can be a bit of a ***** at times
But thanks for bearing with me and sticking by me
I would be nowhere without you

It's been close to 6 months
I'm trying so hard to forget you
But i just can't
Your memories are stuck to my mind like a strong web
And the more i explore those areas the more it hurts
You reside in every part of my existence
And every effort to delete you from my memory is met with strong resistance
What do i do?
I simply don't seem to have no clue
I wish there was a way to ease the pain
Slowly but surely i'm going insane
I've tried medication
I've tried drinking
I even visited a shrink
But my mind just keeps wandering towards thoughts of you
Wherever go i just keep seeing you
I'm begging you
Please just leave my mind
Please leave me alone
I don't want you anywhere near me
I don't want to have nothing to do with you
Just release me from these shackles of your thoughts
Please....i beg you

You said we can't be together
Do me a favour then
Just every now and then...
..pay me a visit in my dreams
Sure,i wouldn't be able to love you in reality
But just the thought of loving you...
...would be comforting
'Coz in my thoughts you are the beginning,the middle and the end

Happiness and sadness...both are equally powerful sources of inspiration for writing
Some are good with happiness
While some are champions at sadness
Of course there are those who are good with both...
...but they are a bit rare
I haven't seen or met a lot of them
But whenever i do meet someone like them, i must say...i kinda' envy them
But not in a bad way
They actually inspire me

They all said he'd fail
Never gave him a chance
And look at them now
All queuing up like thirsty crows
Just to be a part of his success dance

Funny how some people's perception of you changes once you succeed
They start treating you differently
Up until the point you are succeeding ... i.e. your struggle period
They don't even give a **** about you
And then post your success they start acting like they're your best friends!

2 points i want to highlight i here:-
1)Never let anyone's negativity stop you from you achieving your goals..those haters can say all they want...just shut them out and focus on your goals.
2)Those who are with you during your bad times are your real friends and not those chameleons who start gathering around you when you succeed.

Grandmas are all about warm hugs,loving talks and great advice
And they invariably can cook the most amazing of meals
Growing up,i used to look forward to the weekends
For weekends were all about visiting grandma's place and having an absolute blast
Grandmas truly are special
Sometimes i feel that a person can learn more from his grandparents than he can from his parents

The May rains are coming down
A smile has replaced my ugly frown
The smell of fresh earth is hovering in the air
I'm experiencing a feeling so serene and rare
What a relief from the sweltering heat!
Ah!...look a rainbow has come out to greet
The birds are taking shelter in my window sill
In a beautiful weather like this all i want to do is close my eyes,take in all of the magic around me and just chill

My room is a kingdom of mess
I've been told many times to clean it up
But truth be told...
...my life isn't any different from my room
Messy,chaotic and way too much stuff going on
So now i don't really bother much with all that cleaning up
I hope that things will improve
I do yearn for moments of happiness
But with every passing day all the good things just seem like a distant dream
And slowly but surely i feel myself drifting away into a state of oblivion
I can feel myself getting ****** into a blackhole of nothingness
Each and every day i'm dying a little
I'm not sure how much more stress the old ticker can take
My mind is the verge of an explosion
I won't lie...
...of late i so crave death
But it just doesn't come
One more breath
One more day of walking on fire
One more day of being misunderstood
One more day of being hated
One more day of loneliness
One more day of my hopes being crushed
Death, are you listening?...
...have some mercy on me
You can take me to hell
I'm ready to suffer there
I have no good deeds to show
So i probably deserve it
But please take me from this world
I dread waking up now

Listening to your voice gives me an 'eargasm'
Being touched by you gives me an '******' (and not just my body but also my soul)
Thinking about you gives me a 'mindgasm'
Sometimes i can't decide as to which feeling i like the best

I've always been a night owl
Never really been a morning lark
The daytime just doesn't do it for me
The night on the other hand fills me with spark
My mind works better
My soul feels safer
All i need is a cup of tea,a good movie to watch
And a bag of vanilla flavoured wafer


When i look at the moon and stars in the night sky
It gives me a different kinda' high
The stillness and silence of the night
Just the moonlight to guide you
Man..it's so serene and haunting
Magical almost...
Looking at the post-midnight empty streets...
I'm sometimes reminded of the emptiness in my life
But then again even the darkest and gloomiest of night skies has at least that one star shining in it
So that does fill me with hope
May be not now
But somewhere in the future
This introvert soul might get someone to love
'Coz nobody wants to be lonely
And i ain't no exception

Time is so weird
I've often found it to be a bit heartless
It flashes past you when you're enjoying
And just seems to stretch when you're suffering!

We might be separated by miles of space
But everytime i close my eyes, i only see your face
Our time zones are different...the distance is vast
But i'm sure we'll make it through...for our love is meant to last
My room feels empty without you
But your aroma still lingers on
I can feel you all around me
It's like you were never gone
It's been two years
Just a few months more
I can't wait to hold you in my arms again
Without you my heart's been so sore
Be whatever you want to be
You achieving your dreams is all i want to see
I'll always support you in whatever you do
Just keep loving and supporting me too

Almighty has bestowed us with so many gifts
The oceans,the seas,the rivers
The mountains,the valleys
Trees,flowers and fruits
The sun,moon and stars
An insane variety of birds
An array of seasons
Just an incredible abundance of flora and fauna
And yet they all pale in comparison to the most incredible gift God has given us....'Mother'
...there never was and there will be anyone like her
The epitome of love and sacrifice
Selflessness personified
Greatest friend
Biggest inspiration
Words fall short in trying to describe her magnificence

In Islam we believe that beneath one's mothers's feet lies the road to paradise....while i haven't done much to deserve that road(but i'm trying everyday)...all i want is just good things for my mother...if i can do the best i can for my mother..keep her happy and healthy...i think that would be for me the real success...i will feel as though i have done something meaningful in life.

I saw you the other day
With another guy
How quickly you've moved on
How quickly you said goodbye
Don't you ever go back in time
And remember those days
Days when we lived for each other
Days when we breathed each other's name
Days when distance didn't matter
Days when the bed was our favourite companion
Days when the constellations were our sheets
Days when our dreams were our guiding force
It's barely been a month..
..since you deserted me
And you seem to be totally unaffected
It's like you're having the time of your life
It hurts me to see you this way
I can't think of living a day without you
But now seeing you with somebody else
Makes me wish i'd never met you in the first place

While i'm not particularly superstitious
Just needed to get the previous number(total number of poems-666...off my mind)
Hence this crap
Don't mind me

Say something good about me tonight
Even if you don't mean it
Love me a little tonight
Even if you don't mean it
It's been a while since i've experienced either of those
My soul feels so empty and burnt out
I just want to rest my head in your arms
And forget about everything
Sing me a lullaby please
I want to escape from this chaos
And just find some elusive moments of peace
Hold me in your arms please
I'm longing for a loving touch
The emptiness of my bed
And the loneliness of my existence just eats me up
I can't take it no more
I feel like i'm going insane
Be with me tonight
I don't want to be alone

My night is not complete till i have tasted your lips
You see you are like that sweet dessert
The delicious kind
The tempting kind
The mesmerizing kind
The intoxicating kind
The kind that drives a man wild
The kind that makes a man lose control
The kind the taste of which stays in your mouth long after you've tasted it
No matter how much of you i might've had..
...i always have a little room for your dessert
Our lips touching and biting
Tongues exploring each other
Passions overflowing
Hormones going crazy
Till we can't stop
And finally give in to our fever of ectasy
And as we lie naked on the bed
With the stars and the moon as witness
The more i look at you...
....the more i appreciate the magnificence of the female form
It's sheer perfection
It's subtleties
It's flavours
It's aura
It's magic
It's mystery
It's power
Each and everytime i look at you
Each and everytime we make love
I discover a new side of you
I feel more enlightened and alive
Sometimes i just don't want to close my eyes
I just wanna keep looking at you
Taking in every bit of you
So i'll give you every ounce of love that i have in me
I was reborn by your touch
And together we shall die

I tried
I failed

I tried again
I failed again

I stopped trying
I have definitely failed

There is no shame in failing as there is in not trying.When you are going through a constant phase of failure..people around you(sometimes even your near and dear ones) will tell you to quit...don't listen to them...work towards what you want to achieve and no matter how long it takes... **Never Quit

I eagerly look forward to the night
For that is when everything feels right
That is when my mind takes flight
It takes me on a journey of the unknown
The unseen
The unheard
I see faces i never thought i'd see
I see places i never thought i'd visit
You see...the night just has so much to offer
An array of dreams and memories to choose from
I whisper to myself...
...'Dear soul...this is your time
make the most of it'
With my eyes closed..
..i try and explore the deep recesses of my mind
Fast forward...then rewind...and pause
That's the one right there
That's one of my favourite memories
Relive it a bit
Ok...done
Let's move ahead
My mind now starts to dwell beyond the realms of reality
Oh man!...there's so much beauty here
All kinds of dreams
All kinds of possibilities
And as long as i'm there i have a blast
Alas...only for a few hours does it last
For there comes the morning light
Oh...this is so not right!
I was having such a good time
Alas now i shall have to wait again for the sun to set
Goodbye night
But don't you worry...
...I'll see you tonight