In the winter of my life
I don't miss my youthful body
As much as i miss my youthful spirit
I was full of life those days
Oh...what days they were!
Hanging out with friends
Going on roadtrips
Discovering,exploring
Constantly on the move
Boredom and loneliness were alien to me
My confidence was sky high
Sometimes i felt like there was nothing that i couldn't do
I had the courage to try new things
And now as i look at myself
Fragile bones
Grey hair
Sans teeth
Wrinkled face
Tired soul
Tired mind
I wonder-'what's happened to me?'
I have been told that it's all a part of the natural ageing process
But i still find it so hard to accept
I've tried to live the best i could
Sure i have regrets
But some moments of pride as well
I've seen the many facets of life
The many colours that it offers
I've seen the highs
I've experienced the lows
I've seen friends turn foes
I've seen war
I've felt love
I've seen days on the street
And nights on park benches
But i was strong then
I had the courage and the will to fight
Nothing deterred me or bogged me down
I've lost that strength now
Life has taken it's toll on me
I feel i can't go any further
What i miss most now is the joy of company
It's just me and the four walls
Sitting alone in my room
I wait for my time
I don't keep much news of the outside world now
I've virtually lost every connection
You see loneliness is new to me
And i'm not quite sure as to how to deal with it
So i guess i'll just be patient
If you notice you'll see that when you reach the winter of your life
The circle of your life is complete
In effect you are back to where you started
You become a child once again
It's like a man is reborn before he dies
While it's exciting to reach that stage
At times it's so scary
But then such is the journey of life
And i guess that's what makes it such an incredible experience

The stars have descended on the ground tonight
They say they want to meet the source of their inspiration
Darling...they are talking about you

I had met tears by chance
I can't recall how or when it all started
My heart felt sick
My eyes just surrendered to this weird feeling
Water coming out
Slowly rolling down my cheeks
Gently caressing them
A little bit of it seeping through into my mouth
At first it kinda' stung me
A salty taste settling on my tongue
After a while though i got used to it
But little had i imagined at that point of time that these tears....
....these precious little diamonds would become my best friends
Now they have become more than friends
We are in fact soulmates now
Destined to be together
Whenever i need them they are always there for me...
....without fail they always come to my rescue
Whenever the strain on my soul gets too much
More often than not my eyes just let loose
And i give in to this weird and yet powerful feeling

Among the many inummerable qualities i admire about women...the one quality which really strikes me the most is that they are such good listeners...they always give you a patient hearing.They always hear what you have to say and understand or at least make an effort to understand what you're trying to express.I feel a certain sense of safety with women...i feel i can talk to them about anything without being judged or mocked or taunted.The real strength lies not in the body but in the mind and when it comes to that i have absolutely no qualms in admitting that women are country miles ahead.A woman can bear the greatest of pains and fight the biggest of battles.Each and everytime i interact with a woman i keep discovering a quality or a trait which i want to imbibe in myself.I want to be as strong and as compassionate as a woman...i want to be as selfless and as forgiving as a  woman...i want to inculcate within me every single quality which makes a woman unique and deserving of all the respect and admiration.Women are by far God's greatest creation...they enrich our lives in various forms...sometimes as a mother,sometimes as a wife,sometimes as a daughter,sometimes as a sister and so on.Honestly it is the presence of women which makes this planet so much more liveable.

When i listen to the music of today(not all of it but most of it)..the following thought comes to my mind:-

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I am what keeps you burning
I am what keeps you running
I make you see fancy dreams
I make you greedy
I make you make push your boundaries
I am what keeps you strong
I am what breaks your heart
I am what dangles the carrot in front of you and teases you
I am beautiful
I am necessary
But i'm also evil
'Coz i feed off the soul
I Am HOPE.....

Why we as a couple didn't work?..will always remain to me a bit of a mystery
We explored anatomy
We understood each other's psyche
But never could build no chemistry
No wonder now we are history
I thought we were perhaps meant for each other
Destined to be together
I guess destiny didn't see us that way
After a year or so
We have gone our separate ways
Our paths don't cross that much now
But each and everytime they do...
...it hurts
'Coz i keep pondering over what could've been
You know...sometimes i wish that i was the director of my life and could've written each and every scene
**** it!...at times life is just so mean

I am an empty canvas waiting to be filled with the colours of love
For ages i've been sitting on that wooden frame with a sense of hope in my eyes
A hope that someday some artist will pay attention to me
And fill me up with the most exquisite of colours
And the curse of my emptiness will be broken
I want to be someone's masterpiece
But the years just keep rolling by
Alas!...no one even takes a look at me
I was and still continue to remain empty
So dear fate....i ask you very humbly
Please look into your crystal ball and tell me
Will anyone ever care to paint me?
Will anyone ever fill me up with her colours?
I have been white for far too long
It's time i felt some colours
I don't want to end up as just another empty painting
So dear fate please help me out here
Just talk to that guy named 'love'
And please try and arrange something
'Coz honestly I'm dying out here

It's summer
A silent night
Not a soul in sight
An absolute clear sky
Not a patch of cloud in it
The stillness of the night is just so haunting
I'm on the terrace
The moonlight is shining upon the tree leaves
A nice gentle breeze is blowing all across
The moonlight falling upon the tree leaves starts to shimmer
Gradually the wind starts to pick up
I can hear the rustling sound of the winds now
And as this cool breeze touches me
Almost sensually
Blowing across my face
Playing with my hair
Enveloping all of me
Caressing each and every inch of skin
Blowing through my shirt
Teasing my body with it's seductive touch
Pulling me in into it's magic
Virtually having me under it's spell
I just closed my eyes and took it all in
I swear i could feel my soul having an ******
And not just once...
...it was having bouts of it
One after the other...
By the end of it all i just felt this sense of serenity within me
It was as if i was somewhere else
For that brief period i actually forgot about the miseries of my life
I can't recall as to when was the last time i had felt so much at peace
I now crave for more inspiring and amazing experiences like this

I haven't really been acquainted with happiness
Pain and suffering is what i've mostly felt
In fact....truth be told
It is grief that has kept me alive
My existence is pretty much defined by it
And yet somewhere inside of me there still resides this little hope
A hope that things will improve
A hope that my life will get better
A hope that i will get to taste happiness before i die
And it is hope that doesn't let me die
You see hope is a pretty powerful source of motivation
But it is an equally dangerous thing
For when hope dies
A part of your soul dies
But the heart is too naive to understand all these things
Like an adamant fighter it continues to hope

Earlier i could bask in the sun
And feel the magic of the winds
In the past few years many high-rise buildings have come up near my house
And as a result i've now been to some extent robbed of my share of the sun and the winds

Bari muddaton kay baad tera chehra dekhna naseeb hua
Meray rooh ko jaisay nayi zindagi milgayi
Teri muskarahat ko dekha
Teri dil ki aahat ko suna
Toh aisa laga kay baray dino baad meray aankhon aur kaano ka sahi maino may istimaal hua hai
(Urdu and Hindi)

English Translation

After a long time i got to see your face
My soul it seems has got a new lease of life now
When i saw your smile
When i heard the sound of your heart
It seemed that after many days i used my eyes and ears in the proper and true sense

In your eyes I can see the fury of the sun
Never ever do they fail to stun
In your eyes I can see the beauty of the moon
When I look at them I just swoon
In your eyes  I can see the magic of the stars
Tonight it feels like I’m on mars!!!
In your eyes I can see the magic of spring
Your eyes they have that spark..that special thing
In your eyes I have seen the cool shade in summer
A day without you is a total ******
In your eyes I have felt the festive spirit of winter
Baby you make my heart run like a sprinter
In your eyes I have seen the dreams of a lifetime
In your eyes I have seen that love sublime
Your eyes….what do I say more?
That depth
That passion
That magic
That sensuality
They command attention
And deserve adulation
Your eyes are the kind which sometimes scares me
‘Coz they are the kind I can never lie to
And should I ever falter in my steps
I’d never be able to look you in the eye
I hope that I die before that day arrives

I will love you in sickness
I will love you in health
Money don't matter to me baby
For you are my real wealth

I promise to be faithful
I promise to be sincere
I will respect you and always be there for you
I won't let any trouble deter me
Till the very end i shall persevere

You give me a reason to smile
You give me a reason to live
Every ounce of love that i have in me...
...that to you i shall give

I promise to be your man
I'll never ever leave your hand
I will make you proud my dear wife
For you truly complete my life

Sometimes i feel like i'm destined to be lonely
Loneliness it seems has seduced me and got me under it's spell
It follows me all around
I now seem to prefer solitude over company
I guess being a shy person by nature i connected well with loneliness
The time that i spend with myself...
...it just helps me think and plan better
It gives a better perspective of things
But i'll admit though that there are times when i dread being lonely
At times it kills me
I have this theory when it comes to loneliness
I believe that one needs to maintain a middle path relationship with loneliness i.e.
Don't be too close of friends with loneliness 'coz you might reach a point where you will no longer be able to enjoy or even stand company
And on the other hand don't be it's enemy either 'coz you never know when you might need him or have to spend time with him

I heard that the mountains have made a deal with the sun for the glaciers
So i wonder why...
...The rivers in my village are running dry

Lets sit in silence for a while
And take in the beauty of it
There's something magical about the sweet sound of silence
Its haunting and yet so beautiful and humbling
Forget about the world
Its just you and me
It's a dark a night as i've ever seen
There is the occasional sound of thunder
The sound of rain falling all around
Almost seems as if the earth is quenching its long desired thirst for fulfilment
The lights are out
The darkness all around is overwhelming
Lets hold hands and just feel the moment
Neither of us will say nothing
Try and think of your toughest times and how you overcame them
Then you will learn to embrace the dark...
...it won't intimidate you no more
I'm here for you
And I will always be there
But remember...you are strong enough to fight your own battles
You can and you will triumph every battle of your life

Home is where the heart is
And you've given it to me
I hope you stay here for the rest of your life
I hope we can decorate it together
I hope we can paint it with the colour of our love
My heart before was an unfurnished room...
...damaged and desolated
Cracks on the walls
A leaky ceiling
Broken mirrors
Faulty lights
But then you came and renovated and refurnished it in the most beautiful manner imaginable
Honestly it looks great now
And the view from the verandah is fantastic...
I love you
I treasure you
I cherish every moment spent with you
With you by my side...
...everyday is a festival

She had left this earthly world
I was missing her like crazy
Sobbing uncontrollably
They tried to console me
They told me if i closed my eyes...i could visualize her in my soul
But i wasn't convinced
So i went a step ahead
I closed my eyes permanently so that i could pay her a visit in heaven while on my way to hell

What has happened to this city?
Why is everyone afraid to live here?
Why are all the faces pale?
Why is there an eerie silence all around?
Why is there a sense of fear in the air?
The markets are empty
The schools are deserted
The fields don't have no visitors
Many people don't even have food and water
The city seems like a person wrongly
locked up in chains
Waiting to set itself free and flee for it's life
The city which was once a hub of peace and joy...
...has today become a haven for crime and violence
Each day witnessess violence
Children are killed
Women are molested
Men are shot dead
People are afraid to venture out of their homes
The police no longer protects
For it's duty has now become to oppress
Daily clashes with the public is something they are accustomed to now
In fact it scares me to think that they actually enjoy it
The government watches all of this with a blind eye
While the city continues to burn
They are busy filling up their coffers
People are afraid to speak out
And those who do speak out are silenced
Each and everyday the sun sets upon this city with a heavy heart
For it knows that in the dark the city suffers even more
Today the city is like a scared child
Afraid even of it's own shadow
The air has become polluted...
...not with smoke but with hatred
It pains me to see the city like this
I hope and wish that things change
This city deserves better
The people deserve better

For far too long i've been caught up in between the pain of the past and the fear of the future
Those dreadful memories of the past and the nightmares i keep having about the future
Are simply tearing me apart
Questions like-'will i ever find true love?'
...'will i ever have a genuine friend?'
...'will i achieve my goals?'
...'when will people stop misunderstanding me?'
Questions like these keep travelling through my head almost everyday
I think it's time i started living in the hope offered by the present
And no matter how miniscule that hope might seem
I think i'll take it
For how else am i to survive?
What else can keep my old ticker running and my blood flowing?
Even the darkest of rooms needs just a wee bit of light to feel right
I guess i'm hoping that's what the present will offer me
I've realized that there's nothing i can do about the past
So i guess i'll try and handle with care the present
So that there may be a future to look forward to

If you cut open my chest
You'll find that it contains your heart

If you look into my eyes
You'll find that they're filled with your images

If you look inside the very depths of my mind
You'll find that they're filled with your thoughts

If you take in my smell
You'll find that i reek of you

If you ******* lips
You'll find that they taste just like yours

If i could show you my soul
You'd find that your image is imprinted upon it

Baby...i'm crazy about you
I love you like i've never loved no one
You mean everything to me
I can't imagine a moment of my life without you
Tell me...do you feel the same way too?

He was tall
He was good looking
He was wealthy
But she wasn't looking for all of those things
A sincere heart and a dedicated mind...
...these are the two qualities in a person which she cherished the most

The day has the power and energy of the sun
The sweet serenade sung by the birds
The serene sound of dewdrops falling from the leaves
The freshness of the air
But the night offers a far more tempting menu...
...the beauty and grace of the moon
An army of stars
The hooting owls
The howling wolves
The chirping crickets
And above all an incredible sense of serenity and the haunting silence
I love the day
But i absolutely adore the night

When it comes to confectionary art
I simply cannot look beyond a lemon ****
It is a pure piece of absolute delight
As soon as it touches my tongue everything just feels right
The tension in my stomach seems to cease
And my mind feels at peace
Just an explosion of incredible flavours as it spreads all over my tongue
The incredible combination of sweetness and tanginess...
....oh man...it's *******!
I love chocolates
But if i had to pick one thing i could eat before i die...
....it would have to be a lemon ****
For chocolate fulfills my heart
But a lemon **** fulfills every inch of my existence

Where once lay a palatial house
Today there lies the ruins of a desolated structure
A carnival of rust and dirt
Torn and tattered
A structure which was once filled with life
Is now worse than a corpse
Cobwebs and ghosts are it's inhabitants
A place where once children used to play
And every festival was celebrated with immense joy
Where on new year's eve the entire house used to be dressed up in lights
Where once the sun used to shine bright
Today at that place even the moon doesn't come out at night
The stars have long left that place
And faded away into oblivion
It's always dark there...never will you see any trace of light
A weird smell and an eerie silence that is what defines the house now
The ocassional passerby still sometimes looks at the house and wonders--how???
How could a structure so grand be reduced to this?
Just goes to show that no matter how grand,beautiful and powerful you might be
With the advent of time everything depreciates
Time catches up with everyone and everything
And once you enter the winter of your life
Slowly but surely
The blackhole of death pulls you towards it

Air,food,water and sunshine...these keep my body alive
But you my love are much more valuable to me
For you keep my soul alive
Therefore i cherish every moment with you
For a moment spent with you is like breathing oxygen for my soul

My greatest opponent is the one i see in the mirror everyday
I wonder why he looks at me in that weird way
He never really has anything good to say
He mocks me
He criticizes me
He spits his hatred on me
But i don't allow all that negativity to affect me
For no matter what...i'm determined not to lose to this opponent

Come near
Let go of your fear
And just say those three words i so wanna hear!
Don't think
Just say it without a blink
I've already fallen for you
Please join me and make me feel brand new
My soul lusts for you
My heart thirsts for you
Please make me wait no more

If we can't be together in reality
Promise me that you'll visit me in my dreams
For at least in my dreams i wish to have someone i can call my own
Someone who shares my sorrow
And helps me deal with my loneliness
Someone who gives me hope
Someone who consoles me
Life had promised so much but offered so little
I guess love has never really had a liking for me
Every single time i had the chance to be happy
Life took it away from me
I've now lost faith in everything...
....love,life..my entire existence
Sleep evades my eyes
The eyes which were once filled with dreams
Are now overflowing with tears
Some nights i look up at the night sky
And my entire life flashes right in front of me
And all i see is a vast space filled with nothingness
My life which was once a hustling and bustling city
Is now a graveyard of buried hopes and dreams
So i humbly beg you again
Please visit me in my dreams
For how else am i to make it through the torturous night?

She was one of those unfortunate characters who never really got any attention or affection
Her family never supported her in anything
Her friends deserted her when she needed them the most
All her life she tried to mean something to someone
But she never did mean anything to anyone
I was no stranger to that feeling
And so when we met
It was no surprise that we hit it off instantly
And at that moment i knew that we were both doomed for something special
It's a feeling that we both hadn't experienced before...
...a feeling of being wanted
...a feeling of being loved
...a feeling of safety
At first it felt like unknown territory for us
But then as we got the hang of things
We started cherishing it
Today she has become my greatest source of strength and motivation
And i couldn't be more happier
I love everything about her
Truth be told...now i simply cannot function without her
She holds the highest place in my head and my heart
You know sometimes i wonder...
... 'where would a man be without a woman's good heart?'

I am a lamp and i burn bright
My work is to provide light
I'll keep going till my last spark
For i will not rest till i have dispelled the dark
Tell the wind that it's conspiracy doesn't scare me
All it's tricks and deceptions i can clearly see
And I'm confident of combating them
For now i don't depend on any ship...
....i simply believe in me

Few excerpts from an amazing short film i had watched a few years ago.The name of the film is 'The F word'(Here f stands for fat.)

Thoughts of  a woman-
'I was so angry with myself...it was one of the stupidest things i had done or tried to do apart from dating a couple of losers.I mean why was i becoming so desperate to lose weight?..Why was i suddenly so conscious of my figure?..Who was i doing it for?..Whose approval was i seeking?..The Society??...they were just a bunch of unknown people..their approval hadn't mattered to me earlier, so why should it matter now??....Just because a few friends and relatives told me that i was looking fat, i had to run to the gym..Why was i behaving in such a foolish manner??..I have never worked out in my life....i am happy with my life..i have no complaints.'

Thoughts of a guy-
'When i was in college i was in a relationship of about 2 years with a girl who was a bit fat and during the entire duration i always met her alone..i never introduced her to my friends...in fact i never even told my friends that i was dating a girl..it was as if i was embarrassed of the fact that i was dating a fat girl...so that tells you of the kind of society i've grown up in or what the society has made me.'

I just want to say this to anyone who has ever been called fat or too thin…if you’re happy with yourself then it really shouldn’t matter what anyone says.I have faced this myself and even did a few stupid things in this regard and suffered some consequences.It's really disheartening to see that even today people are categorized and in some cases even discriminated on the basis of their physicality.A person's physicality doesn't define him...it's his mentality,his words and his actions which matter...Society...GROW UP....SERIOUSLY!!!

Growing up..one of my favourite hobbies was reading the newspaper..i absolutely loved reading it..politics,sports,finanicial markets,entertainment,cartoons,crosswords....a wide array of items to choose from...however now i just dread reading it...what's the point?...all i read is depressing news...some lunatic who doesn't know and absolutely doesn't understand anything about religion spreads hate and terror in the name of religion...some women somewhere gets killed coz she refused to give in to the lustful desires of a man..someone is shot coz  of his skin colour...someone sports a beard and wears a skullcap..so the automatic assumption is that he has got to be a terrorist...someone who is seen as a huge sports icon and a role model later turns out to be a big time doper and a cheat...i mean what kind of world are we living in?...whom do we trust?...for all we know our next door neighbour could be a criminal...hell i don't even have no faith in the police...over the past year or so the events that have been taking place around the world has deeply saddened me..the world is just going from worse to worst...and it pains me even more to see lunatics distort the teachings of Islam just to fulfill their evil desires.A true Muslim..a God-fearing Muslim will never indulge in any acts of violence..I am a Muslim and i have friends from all religions.During christmas i go out with my friends...i sometimes also go to churches.Islam has always preached tolerance and those who are doing the opposite don't know anything about Islam.One of the basic teachings of Islam states that he who kills one innocent person it is as if he has killed entire humanity and he who helps one person in need it is as if he has helped entire humanity. I strongly condemn every act of terror wherever it takes place.This kind of barbarism is simply unacceptable.May Almighty offer strength to the families of the victims of terror attacks and bless entire humanity with peace.

I am a well and i'm happy being one
I have no desire to be the sea
For no matter how big and powerful the sea might be
It cannot quench a person's thirst
The way a well can

I think of death all the time
Not because i hate life
But it is because i know that death will **** me only once
For death is merciful
It gives you refuge when it sees you suffering
Alas...life is not so kind!

My dreams are getting washed away in fears
My life is drowning away in tears
Dear smile....where are you???
Why are you so elusive?
It's been ages since i've seen you
My soul is dying to meet you
My lips are dying to greet you
In fact they are aching for your touch
My eyes are dying to see you in the mirror
So please just meet me one of these days
I want to capture that elusive moment on my camera
I hope you're not too camera-conscious
Honestly...life without you seems tasteless
So wherever you are...
...please just come out and meet me
Don't feel shy now

She wondered why he didn't love her no more
It wasn't like this before
5 years of togetherness
And now all of a sudden he didn't notice her no more
What changed?
So she asked him..
...He said he is too busy with his career and work
And so he could no longer give her any more time
To be fair to her...
...she was only asking for a little bit of his attention
But he failed to see it
In fact he refused to even try and understand
For his soul was so blinded by this insatiable ambition to succeed in life..
...to earn fame and fortune
And you see the thing is that the heart cannot feel what the soul cannot see
And he had sold his soul to ambition
But it cost him a lot
He reached the pinnacle of success allright
But when he looked around he realized...
...he was lonely
In his desire to succeed he lost his most precious gift
For she was tired of waiting for him
And had long exited his life
And all he was left with was an emptiness that could never be filled

There's nothing wrong in being ambitious...but don't become so obsessed with your ambition that you lose out on the people who truly and genuinely love you.Success means nothing if you don't have anyone to share it with.

The wind in my hair
Fire in my soul
Love in my heart
Courage in my mind
Dreams in my eyes
The stars as my guide
The trees as my shade
The birds as my friends
The fields as my bed
The seas as my pool
The hills as my night-camp
The skies to watch over me
The moon to sing me a lullaby at night
The sun to fill me with energy
An insatiable appetite for exploration
And you as my companion
What more do i need?
So come with me
Let's go explore
And see what the world has to offer

The demons within me sometimes torment me
They torture my soul
There's this constant inner conflict going on in my head
Am i fit for this world?
Do i need to change myself in order to survive?
Am i a good person?
Questions like these haunt me every night...
...not allowing me to sleep
I mostly suffer in silence
Sometimes i do weep
I can't explain these things to no one
I can't share these things with no one
I sometimes feel so lost
I sometimes feel so weak and helpless
I sometimes feel alone among a multitude of people
Slowly but surely i'm going insane
With whom do i share this horrible pain
I sometimes wish i were dead
The problems
The sadness
The depression
At times it all becomes a bit too much to take
But then i realize..death would be a cowardly escape
I need to face my demons
Eliminate my self-doubts
Take my problems head-on
Fight it out
Take a few blows
But make sure that i will be the last man standing

I love childhood for it's innocence and purity
I admire youth for it's exuberance and fearlessness
But i treasure old age the most..purely for it's wisdom and experience

I'm ****** up
I'm messed up
On most days i'm mostly insane
But you see i have no reason to complain
For i need these traits to combat the chaos that i encounter on an everyday basis
You see i've realized that the world i live in is far more ****** up,messed up and insane than i am or i ever will be
And so it's pretty simple...
...you can't deal with an insane world by remaining sane
You have to adopt certain characteristics of it
Or else pretty soon you'll start to feel like an alien

Trying to find true love in this selfish and hate-filled world
Is like looking for a sea of green in an ocean of concrete
It's difficult
Almost bordering on the impossible
But i'm hopeful
For even the torrid desert has an oasis

It's just like yesterday
The dark clouds are hovering
But the rains just don't arrive
It's been like this for many days now
The rains it seems have forgotten about my village
They don't remember me no more
Earlier they'd pay me a visit regularly
Falling with such magnificence and grace
Creating a harmony so beautiful
So surreal
So inspiring
They'd meet the rivers and ponds
Play with the wind
Caress the grass
Fill the trees with joy
Fill the birds with such energy
Kiss the earth with such incredible passion
They'd fall on my terrace with such vigour
I'd bathe in it
I'd dance in it
I'd taste every bit of it's glory
It was such a soul satisfier
They'd fall on my window panes...
...writing messages of love and hope
...messages of faith and belief
They'd travel many a miles just to come and meet me
Alas!...they don't come here anymore
It's all a thing of the past now
And i just can't seem to fathom this
How could it make me a stranger in an instant???
My village is burning
My soul is yearning
Each and everyday i'm praying
Dear rain...please pay my village a visit
It needs you
I need you
You mean everything to me
I need to feel you on my skin
I need to be touched by you
My soul is but a barren land without you
So please come and meet me

No matter how many times i kiss you
I just can't seem to get enough of you
You're like this addictive drug
The more i taste you...
...the more i want you
And with time
This intoxication just keeps on increasing
I can feel it surging through my veins
Caressing every inch of me
Teasing and tormenting me like crazy
Pleasuring my senses in a way i've never felt before
Making my soul experience bouts of ******
Gosh!..you're such a turn-on!!!

Sometimes your own home can be the worst place for you to live.Personally speaking whenever i've tried to revisit in my mind the places where i've created some of the best memories of my life...4 places have always stood out in particular...
1)My maternal Grandma's place
2)My maternal Aunt's place
3)High school
4)My first workplace

But never my home...In fact whenever i think of the bad and nightmarish memories of my life..home is the first place that comes to mind!!! And i find this fact so depressing....the place which was supposed to feel like a sense of comfort..like a place of serenity and strength...has actually turned out to be my greatest source of pain and is the place i wanna run away from.

When it comes to ***...more often than not, women are the teachers and men the students.The woman shows the way..the man merely follows.The act itself is such an interesting phenomenon..it's more than just the physical part..it's mental,emotional and spiritual as well..it's an awakening of the senses so to speak..a stimulation of the body,mind and soul..a process of self-discovery..a constant learning process..a union of two bodies..two souls..two persons locked in an embrace filled with an immense heat of passion,love,trust and perhaps lust...engulfed by the flames of curiosity and an uncontrollable urge to explore..an exploration of the body..an exploration of the senses...exposing the soul and looking deep inside of it.However it's the period before the act..the foreplay and teasing that i find most fascinating...the pre-act excitement..the build-up..the anticipation...it's such an incredible experience.I have always believed that women are the best teachers when it comes to a lot of things in life..we men have much to learn from them.

On those empty lonely nights
When the city is fast asleep
And my dreams are wide awake
And there's nothing save for the moon and the stars
I often look up to the skies and wonder...
...'the stars..they watch over us every night..even on the roughest of days..there is always that one star in the sky..perhaps they have a greater purpose than what it seems..they don't come out merely to beautify the night sky...they come out to give hope..they come out to inspire'..perhaps they are saying...'hey there star-gazer look at us...we have been burning since time immemorial...every night we come out not to please your eyes but to tell you that be like us...each and everyday of your life..try and do what you do best..and we promise you...you will never regret a day in your life...even when you're enveloped by the clouds of sadness..don't give up...keep fighting..keep smiling..keep shining.'

If you can't make me a part of your life
Then please make me a part of your daily prayers
At least that way i'll have the consolation
That you think of me everyday

Dearest empress of my heart...
...Don't underestimate my love
It is resilient and equally patient
No matter what i ain't giving up on us
And i ain't never leaving your side
And have i told you that i love every bit of you...
...the flaws even more than the perfections
So please stop stressing about our future
Agreed that we haven't seen it
We don't know what it holds
But that doesn't mean that we can't work towards it
Just have faith in me
And hold my hand
I'll take care of the rest