I write to get my emotions out, to ease the pain, to help me get rid of disgustingly strong feelings for people, to reflect on certain situations and remind myself that I deserve more than what I got in the past. I spent so long, thinking it was wrong to fall hard, when in reality, it was wrong to settle for nothing but cheap words and ******* promises. Love is never wrong, unless you're falling for the one who won't bother catching you. That's a heartbreaking thing to realize, and to accept, especially when it's a person who easily affects you in every aspect.
Never settle for less than you deserve. Love the one who loves you. Don't make the same mistake I did.

One kiss was enough
To leave me hooked
For a lifetime
Just the way you smiled
When your hand held mine
I thought love was complete
The attraction was discreet
Yet perfectly displayed
I remember the first date
The night we kissed
The day we spent
Organizing plans
Holding hands
Drinking, talking
I also recall
The first time
We made love
That was a special moment for us
At least I thought it was
You were my first
But I wasn't your last
Our connection
Turned into dust

Memories fall apart
Like an angel in the dark
(She's clinging onto life)

Memories cut you from inside
They bleed you out until you're dry
(Love kills people every night)

Such a lovely disaster
Nightmare, such a blunder
We used to be such lovers
Until we broke each other
And became perfect strangers

Take my heart,
I don't want it back

Take my love,
I'll get through it

Heartbreak shows us
Never love and never trust
(Unless you wanna die inside)

People will heal you
Then they'll leave you
(It's all a game, alright)

People will deceive you
Then wonder why
It's breaking you
They never care
Until they see you happier
With someone that isn't them
Only then, they'll want you near
Wanna know every detail

(No, go to hell and stay there)

Taking a moment to breathe
Reminding myself
Of the reason
I have strength
I will not break
Even though it's late
And my heart is bruised
Damaged and used
And left by you
To rot and die
Left myself asking why
Why am I more dead
Than alive?
You left a hole
I can't fill
I can never be whole
You have my soul
Wish I gave it to the devil
At least he'd use it well
Unlike you, my dear
You left me in fear
Of love and life
I am dead inside
My feelings collide
And I lose my grip
I let my dignity slip
Into the cracks
Of sadness
You saved me
But left me
Feeling
Even more
Alone and empty
Than I was before
Before you entered
That faulty door
Now I feel despair
The love is here
But you aren't near

It's funny how you're happy for me
A little too late to be saying it, honey
You left me longing for you
For years on end
But now, I'm through
No more wasting time
Because now I know
That you never cared

Only when I'm with someone new
Do you approach
Asking for details
Like it's a big deal to you
It just brings me down
Because you never loved me
Otherwise you wouldn't have left
Left me on the cold hard ground
I was a lost girl but now I'm found

I found someone who treats me nice
Someone who assures me all the time
Someone who's there when I'm fine
Someone who's there when I am not
I can honestly say that
You're my worst ex
You failed the test
The test of love
I don't wish you luck
Nor the best
Because I was the best
That you took for granted
And you lost

so far away
but near too
I can almost feel you

I can feel your hands
on my waist
I can feel your hot breath
on my gentle neck

I can imagine your lips
slowly touch mine
a feeling so warm
yet it sends sweet chills
down my spine

emotion is high
but you take me higher
no one else makes me feel so alive
except you, my dear lover