We were hopeful fools
To think that your broken could heal mine
To want eachother to be our reason for life
To explore the ruins of our souls
And try to turn ashes into treasure
We were infatuated with the geography of our scars
How truly delirious we were
To try and make them a gallery of art
There are wounds inside of us
Far more painful than anything that ever bleeds
We have shadows that cling to our skins
Like a rotten stench
Yet here we sit
Like flies
King of the dump
Scuttling in search of happy endings

Don't look back
And give me false hope my beloved
Don't pity that
Which you are leaving behind
Don't leave my heart floating
Don't leave me mid air
Drown me
Bury me
Smash me to smithereens
Tell me it's over
Over for good
Be brutal
Be wild
Be merciless
So it's final
I want it solid
Don't call me when it gets lonely
Don't tell me that you miss me
How you still want us to be friends
Cut me off
And throw me far away
Somewhere where neither of us can find the other
To **** to ruins once again

When I chose you
They tried to persuade me with words
Threatened to cut me off
Then told me to *******
And never look back
They stared me in the eye
And said for them I had died
How easy it was for them
To break all ties
As though my heart was not enough
To keep you all in it
They decided that I was not to be shared
It became all or nothing
So I chose you
Made you my whole world
And everything in it

You pulled me towards you
And I came undone
Like I was waiting all my life
For the calling of your heartbeat
I came scattered
Went against the world
And pulled pieces of myself away
But to you I arrived whole
And you waited like a body without a soul
Like you always knew
My destination would always be you

Once I went to a place
Where the sky was azure
And the water a turquoise jewel
Botanical trees so lush and green
A calming breeze soothed across the skin
Like a blanket of peace
And I wondered if this is on Earth
A landscape of this world
Then what must paradise be like?
It is said to be beyond what anyone can imagine
Dear Almighty
Let heaven not forsake me
Let it not forbid me
Nor spit me out
Reject me after the trials of my life are over
Let me not reach the end of this tunnel
To never enter the light
It is You who knows best my Lord
For if heaven was easy to enter
There would be littered bodies
Of willing sacrifice
To sit along the rivers of wine
And enjoy eternal youth and beauty
Where there is no thirst nor hunger
To be amongst the company of Angels
And the best of nations, tribes, people and tongues
Standing before Thy throne
Where Messiahs have awaited
Enjoying eternal salvation

Hour by hour
She checks her Insta
Posts a new picture
With a Snapchat filter
If it doesn't receive any compliments
It's not good enough
Every morsel is captured
For her followers
Praised by the likes
And screenshots
Wouldn't be seen dead
Without her makeup
Clothing
It's got to be designer
Membership at the gym
To show off her trainers
Trails through pages
Like a maniac
Can't help but compare
And want what she's got
Her house is big
Her boyfriend is handsome
Her friends are cool
Her family supportive
She needs a new car
The latest Apple product
A holiday
To an exotic location
The trolls are cruel
She can't be seen with you
Her lips too thin
Her nose too big
Searching for surgeries to fix the double chin
Without the screen
Her life is meaningless
She's addicted to social media
Depressed and anxious
Jealous and bitter
She's too deep under water
To see you trying to save her

Fajr passed by as I slept on
Zuhr was lost in a day's work
Asr got skipped as I sipped my tea
Maghrib flew by as I photographed the sunset
Isha was added to the forgotten list
And there I lay at night tossing and turning
Wondering why peace escapes me?