what an odd, beautiful nothing
to find a person

who makes you feel like the most significant something

there is a spark in me
welling up inside
a jump in awakeness
a burst of some sort
something special begins to fill my veins
fill my veins with
hope &  light
it's as if i have met the stars and slept on the moon
so surreal
oh how you make me feel

she kissed me pink
and on that same day
I kissed her green
in times of grey

deep inside myself I sink
bad things happen when i think
deep inside myself I crawl
I'm sorry for it all

my body is strong
but my soul is weak
  
so i don't

to escape my demons i escape myself
avoidance is how i cope
ingrained inside
"everything is alright"
behind the laugh
there is a cry refusing to be exposed
I'm coping
I'm coping the only way I know how
to avoid it because I know I am weak and will break

I am scared
and I am sad
but I laugh so i wont cry
smile so i wont die

pen and paper,
paper and pen,
I put this pen to paper
hoping for the demons in my head to waver

watching memories like cinemas
smiling
frowning
laughing
drowning
long lasting until they're over
for moments are sweetest while basking inside them