The temple bell
Silently calls my soul
Echoes, all over the deep forest
In prayers of silent lotus song
Temple
Waits
Buddha too
As the pond whispers
From the surface calm

Alone in the deep forest,
I am prostrate in devotion
And search
Before your shore's
Of love, life and living
Laboriously moving, in every steps of sigh,
Pregnant with leaves, roots and
Residual karmic earth
-Lotus pond in deep in thought-

Wondering why
The flowers have to wither and fall
Before fruits can burst forth; in living
Why love and loss results, only in the end,
An acceptance,
Cowering in depths of empty soul?
Why
Life regains calm,
Only, after
It has flowered through pain
And bonds?

Why
Lotus can only flower
After breaking through
-The sludge of senses,
In the depths of love
From the depths of pond
The laughing Buddha
Smiles
With laughter in His heart

Pond, all alone, in the darkness of night
Softly sighs
Goes back to living
On the temple’s Shore

Yet!
The silent Buddha
Is not so silent, you see
Just listen with laughter in your heart
The lotuses do sing
The beautiful life's love song

Pond is agitated
Lost its calm
My thoughts are no skipping stone

Pond waits for ripples to calm down
Before reflecting the dark clouds of pain
Back to the bleeding sky

Sitting by the river
Drawing dreams with bleeding fingers
Memories escape riding those ripples

Your thoughts transform
From heart to eyes
Pearls in my lap

The least you can do
Is to let my existence fade peacefully
Soul mate, everything else is already dead

Each day brings me
Hope
Always an imposter
________
@Shashi 25th Oct - 31st Oct, 2010

Life in little steps of love
Falling, leaving, goodbyes and then denial
Happiness bleeds in little steps

You really know what love is
When you loose her
In few words

She was half playing
The game of love
But I lost completely

Too intense
Too insufficient
Loving has been painful to me

Her voice over phone
Simple, sweet and friendly
Isolates my love

The thin line of longing
That ties us
Cut me apart

Some words are so effective
Before you realise
They **** the happiness out of life

Your burden of being the only thing
That makes me happy
Is killing me softly

Broken heart beats silently
Fears to wake up mind
See, I told you so!

Can not say, what is harder
Breaking Heart or
Heart Break
__
@Shashi
25th Oct - 31st Oct 2010

Pain is
When you feel like
Stopping the sunrise

Words were timed perfectly
I was in pain
Primed to bleed

Your parting words are like meditation
I keep chanting them
To numb my pain

Sunset is clouded by pain
Hides behind
Lost happiness

The loneliness of beauty
Lies in the pain
It gives her love

Those fleeting nights
Swiftly passing days
Now stand still in my tearing pain

Our difference in feelings
So different
Pain and Happiness looks same
__
@Shashi 25th Oct - 31st Oct 2010

The laughing Buddha
Mocks every one
But the one with laughter in heart

The silent Buddha
Is not so silent, you see
Just listen from heart

The temple bell
Silently called my soul
Echoes in my prayers

Lotus pond
Waits silently
Petals too

River meanders
In deep forest, Slowly
Pregnant with leaves, roots and earth

ॐ नमः शिवाय
Om Namah Shivaya
Twitter: @VerseEveryDay
Blog: http://shadowdancingwithmind.blogspot.com

A warmness
Thats spread on the bed
A passion that is fully cupped in
Palms
A hot liquid flows in the hug
And bit by bit
You are spooned in love
_____
@Shashi 27th April, 2010

She walked out
In her small tottering steps
From behind the wall
Looked at me and smiled
She actually remembered me, my darling
Even after so many months,
After so many miles away from her thoughts.

Her hug is like a long lost love
Her smile is as fresh as dew drops
And she hangs on to me like the early morning rays
From the rain drenched tree tops
And I could not hold her attention any longer
And she moves on to her
New plays and new sights and sounds.

Her eyes catch up suddenly
The pen in my pocket
The twinkle in her eyes
Also catch up the mouth freshener
That I got in the aircraft.
Another play in the making
And she just wraps me around her fingers
And I get lost in her love
And her hugs
Again and again
___
Anumeha is my younger brothers 1 year old daughter, who I met her after many months, that day.

A bell tolls
Friends join in to walk
With me to the end of the path
Carrying on heavy shoulders,
All that last journey, and
All that was not said
And all that silences
Which will echo forever in our hearts.

Some where
Silence waits for the desert spaces
To speak up
And break our lives
Into small grains of sand
Which pours within the Hour Glass
Of our togetherness

Some where - a blast-off to distant stars
In the cloud of dust
In the drum beats of
Shiva's Tandav* dance.

Some where, Love alone
Worships the intensity of the togetherness
Or
Truthfulness of belongingness.
Or
Remains
A mute spectator to the Tandav* of emotions

Silence some time does sound
In, Our lives
And
A bell tolls forever
Calling in lost soul
Or soul mates
To be in the valley of lost flower stars.
_________
Tandav is the eternal dance of Lord Shiva, a dance of destruction as well as creation...

You focus on intense words
And me, on the silence within
You shackle your thoughts
With your language
And I free them,
With my need for space within

But you know
I will and you may not
Walk all the way along

As you, my love, will
Fall out, out of rhythm
And a total burn out
Chained to the memories of past

Some of my daily verses on twitter....

I am shedding memories
Like leaves in autumn
Did I loose you, in between my thoughts?

The brook flowing
Over the round pebbles and soft drops
Sound of music running in my heart

FAR, FAR AWAY
Lips interlocked
Hearts entangled
Entwined, we stay in our own desert spaces, alone

I dream of her
She dreams of togetherness
I hope its me

NEW DAWN
Night cap
Morning dew
I am having a hang over between the two.

The tree walks out of a dream, yawning
Rakes up the sky
Clouds break into a rain dance

Morning mist filters the rays
Flower filters the rain
A heart lives in the happiness of deep blue sea
How pure the sun rise can be

THE NEW DAY
The morning escaped
From the dark clutches of Lonely night
A sun rise in the end.

LOVE DAWNS
After exhausting night
Moon slips back into the dream part II
And sun walks out
Tiptoeing naked on the dew

THE SEED IS PLANTED
The morning dew drops
Settle softly on the lips
Of evening star, love flowers

The moments of our togetherness
Last night, got pregnant with love
It rained in the morning
And I woke up - Wet

LOVERS
Sea shore and waves
Pulsating rhythm - high and low
An endless coming together

Between me and the sky
Sea sets its foot down
In rain

Small brush with feelings
Takes a long time to fade and dry,
On the wet lips or on the memories of life

She throws her leg over me
Unwrapping
Dreams in the morning

Fresh lime day
****** Mary Sunset
Lets paint the town, tonight, red

  
The music notes from the flute
Lingers in the feelings
Love dance and the Bamboo shoot

The ringing bell echoes in my mind
The scent of incense stick lingers in my heart
Sun rise hangs a happy day in front
____
Om Namah Shivaya

She reached out, as I poured a bleeding heart on paper
"Don't ever write to me", with a ****
Black letters, scatter all over my green love


I slept, dreaming of animal cries
Seeds engaged in birthing
Woke up with a cosmic tree growing all over a belly

  
Desert spaces in my heart, too heavy to
drown in the sea, on the wings of my longing
So I walked and did

Love showers
Happiness, togetherness, Bonds
And Sorrow


As the sun rushes into the night
The sea reaches out hold him
In depths of her love

___
Everyday and Night I write one verse and share with my friends and here is few of them... I hope you will enjoy them.

Om Namah Shivaya

The sound keep melting in me
The sound of silence
The sound of conch
The sound of devotees
Dancing in circle
Till I was no longer me


I swirled with my hand outstretched
Like the old mystic's and Sufi's
Floated in the group
Went high and higher in thoughts
and then merged
In the overall consciousness
Of you and of me
In the Universe
That got small enough to be with in me
And the circle of dance.

She took me in her arms
and went away to the stars
A long silver thread followed
From the manifestations
Of Her
Which was still dancing down in the circular group
Singers still singing your songs


I woke up in the dew
That was hanging at the grass blade
Till sun knocked
With morning rays
And I woke in your love
Lying still among the chants.
________
@Shashi 2005
ॐ नमः शिवाय
Om Namah Shivaya

Its sad
To know that some one is burning bridges
Even before my heart could smell
The acrid smoke of neglect
The bridge is already burnt down
While the water passes under it.

Heart tries hard to keep
The fire going on in heart
Seeing her face, turned away
In the flicker of light
In the bits of food, that one feeds to
One's dying love, but fails at last.

Made of blood, as foolish as it sounds;
Letters Drop, oozing out from a squeezed heart
Her name is cast again and again
On the sands of time
And waves upon waves
Sea wipes the effort, in vain, again and again

Why do I write
Why do I write on the sands
As I know it will be wiped out
In no time, but still I do
As I know she is oriented
Towards Sea - the sea of humanity and of love

I still have not burned my bridges...

Waiting for the sun to move up more
Lights to fall in full force
On the day
I take my few steps
On worn out path of office goers.

As the life moves on
In the rustle of traffic Jams
Honking of cars
The roads have grown roots
Along with tree lined path

A bright smile
Stretches across in yellow line
A line of school kids
Walk the Zebra cross
in front of my large smile

A new day
Flowering
Traffic Light by traffic lights
As the office blocks looms large
My thoughts reach out to hold hands

Like a woman, Sea gathered her skirt

The waves moved away from the shore

And I thought she will fly


Some followed her on the open sea bed

Lured as she tentatively revealed her naked thighs

and then she unleashed her fury


A big wall of rage swept across her naked terror

A few survived the surge but then many died inside

Engulfed in her passionate cries


Few days later, I found a little girl curled up on the beach

Small hands holding some sea shells

as waves lapped her dead smile....
________
The villagers told us that before the waves hit, the sea receded almost 100 mts into the sea self and then came up....

When memories die out...
When passions run dry

When the dreams lay shattered on the sands of time

When the Hope
Becomes nothing but
An Imposter

Then my dear, old is
Time to lay down your arms
Bury yourself
Under 6 feet of earth
And lie down and die

An angel told me yesterday
To live
One has to die first
And I did


Now is this life
Where my thoughts corrode
My innerself
And mind takes over
My Senses
And finds no solace
The Chaos balancing two opposites
Continues to lives in past
Looks upto future
But never stays
In
The present


Is this life
Where all one does
Is to pay for
Past
Karma as they call
While one does not even know
How much balance one still has
To pay


How can I live my life
When
Whenever I ask the angels
They let me die
Another death.

How lonely
Every moment
Can be

When the silence
Is stalked
By pain

Veiled behind the night
The trees are dancing
In the winter mist

Just away...
Far away from pain
In rain

It pained to know
That I am dead
I searched within
For the prana and pulse
It was dead too.


But why did it pain?
When senses were dead too
And who is this talking about it now?
Me?
Who is dead!


Or is it me
The unknown
The unraveled
The one that can never be dead
Unattached, untouched and unscathed

Sitting by the river
Having a chat
While I draw out one of my dreams
From my thoughts
She gave me some drops of water
And I went about brushing off my dreams
Stroke by stroke
From the plains of my heart


Spread all over the sky
With many dark clouds
- Floating like doubts
My memories stretch
My imagination
To the last life line of strand
Before it breaks with a twang
She looks up
Did you say something
I said
No! I just broke another dream
Shattered another past.


And she flowed silently away
Looking back till her last bend
Around the corner
Where the tree
Leaned over to hug her
Kiss her
How I wish
I could have been that tree again
Rooted to the spot
In her embrace
While she said her goodbye
And my dreams trace
Another break from Past
How I wish I should have not been that tree
Rooted to the spot.


How I wish
Cut myself in pieces of logs
Thrown in the river
To float silently
In her self
Till she ends it
By jumpingIn the sea
And I hang around
Eternally
Searching for her
In that universal consciousness
That I am lost.

Nine is divine
One is one
Humbled in collective pain
We stand in silence
while the world calls 911

Even before eyes could find the door
Sunrise knocked
I stumbled in my cobwebs of sleep
Walked out of the door
In the full glory of a smile

The blanket I wear on all occasions
Is gathering patches of pain by day
And every night when I throw it off
It moves on from the night sky to dawn
Gathering more patches of pain.

Some times stars
Sprinkle their desires on the rough pattern
That my blanket carries
Some times
Dawn, leave traces of dew drops
In the wild passionate love
That the night makes in the cosmic fabric.

Some times, the Sun disowns the love
It has for night and its stars
Some times, love does not even know
when its lost in the passions of physical pounding,
Loving, cries being merged on a negative staff.
Some times loving, the being
Does not know whether its an insect
Or a butterfly, thats lost among the lotus pond.

One by one
All desires
Are stripped
Plucked one by one
From the roots to the sprouting leaves
And leave the imposter hope
naked.
Where are you, I am lost in wishes
Soft, and neutral self.

Two small verses about nature.
_
Sunset
Sets the day
And rest
_

Between me and sky
Sea sets its foot down
In rain

The water fought hard with the waves
Trying to hold its own reality
On the surface
Waves won


Deep inside
Lake withdrew deeper
Left the waves to play
With the air, earth, water
and
Fire


Suddenly there was a splash
A rock solid thought
Plunged deeper
Calming senses with its force
The waves, the water, the earth
And the fire


Lake opened itself
Felt the rock sebmerged within
Unlocked the deepest desire
And merged within the consciousness
The space within the thought

Lake
Water
Earth
Air
Fire
and
its own deepest desire

There is a very thin line
Between love and lust
Between sea and sky
Between me and you

Such a fine line
That I can see
Touch it from
Here
Enclosed in the high rise monster
(That mostly dot the sea face, all around the sea in Mumbai)
reaching out to be.

From here
-Where silence is whispering to the sea
Waves percolating through my window
Where darkness of my ****** thoughts
Seep in through the night's gateway
A window with three glass frames
Barred, framed and up-curtained
Unveiled and naked.
From here I see it all bared


I can actually reach out
And separate them
The love and the lust
The entangled Sea with the sky
Create a divide between them
With my desire
To BE

Some times I just want to BE
Some times Sea in all its thrashing about
With waves and tsunami's just want to BE too
Some times the sky
With its dark cloud and their silver linings
Just wanna BE, you see?

Some times all of us want to
Reach out
Separate love from lust
And desire just to BE
Just to BE in love
Pure, undiluted, undefined, unnamed
Unbinding, untagged
Just Love,
LOVE,
I Love to BE

She sits across, in the restaurant
In the green corner of God's own country
Sea waves wet the beach
And the sunset
Moist her eyes
As she looked *******
A fresh face, across the tables...

As I watch in the light
From beyond Horizon
Her Old memories
A tug of war
between life's triumphs
And lost battles
How life exchanges moments
Silently between them

A young story
An old memories
The sun sets over
One shore
On the other side
Its a new sunrise.

I lie on the stones
Dying
The eagles circle around in the cloudless sky
With stones in their claws
Ready to drop
On my soul
Crunching my senses with the final blow
I wait for death

A traveler passes by
And I request him
To stop me
From drying up
I have lost my love
My will to fight
The overhead circling death and harsh sun

And...
“how can he stop me from drying up"
In this harsh heat of hate and lost love
Even the cold earth is no longer cold
Baked up sand, and wilted love
Form the fabric of my deathbed

The stone leaves the claw
Rushing down to the heart
I raise myself a little more
Trying to meet half way
The Hell of pain
To liberating soul
And it missed
And in the mist of drummed up sadness
And of churned up dust
A voice reverberates
“Take the drop of water to the sea
To keep it from ever drying up"

The eternal
Is in sea of love
In the arms of lover
In the heat of love
Love survives
In the hearts of soul
Who belongs to one

Life's magical moments
Lets you play with the fire again
And singe
Again and again
And let's you... Ask
Why?

Maybe
To let you know
That there is no way
If one leaves an empty space
That can not be filled
Drop by drop
Moment by moment
Something will....
Some one will....
May be on a different plane?

And some emotions gets stretched
Taut strings
Across the lonely guitar
Tighter
To play the life's note
As
One by one
Each string breaks
Raising a melodious song
To reverbrate in the future
Thrashing on some threshold

May be there will not be any more notes left
To play any more
May be
The notes will play
Alone again
Naturally.

The touch that lingers
Like phantoms in my mind
The feelings
Sieves out of passionate warmth
Hold me closer
Than your body scent
That lives within my thoughts

The more passionate - thoughts
Coils my mind all around
The more pain,
Breaks out in my heart
Like the grip of your slender legs
Squeezes out pleasure
Till
My last drops

How can I hold you more firmly?
In my thoughts
When your passions
Flutter with winds
A storm that comes along,
Leaving behind
Just some shattered dreams

The whole pain
Precipitated from the night sky
In the morning rain
Chiding me for love exposed
Now lying wasted in the drenched soil
Uncared and little

How I love?
A question that needs answer
Only to those who don't
And it etches like
A newly acquired scab
I just don’t know
How?

What I know
Is this feeling in me
Growing explosively silent by each space
You put in between
It brought me down on my knees
Feeling the greatness that was
To smallness that is
Now

Meanwhile the Rain
Continue lashing my car windows
Feels like high speed punishment cell
And
Love lashes within
Whipping up a storm

And I call you up
And say "how lovely is the weather
Around,
Wake Up"

The overcast sky hung over

Opperessing my soul

I walked across raging sea

To reach out

And shake the rains free

Moment by moment
Life drips out
And empties the soul
Of living

Full and contented
Living is not meant to be
Each moment passes by
Bringing its own emptying-ness
Scouring another few bits of happiness
To dump it in the trash of memories
And experiences
To live on

While life is being wasted
On living
In and out of belongingness

The sound of Bells
Echoes on and on
And
Spaces closes in
On me
I feel far
Far away
The sea crashes
On empty beach

The sound of a crash
Lives on and on
The door still bears
Some angry steps
Every day
A seat
Lives on emptily
Enclosed in walls
Empty like me

How to go about
Living on and on
Submerged
In a sleepless dream
How long can one
Hold on to
A touch
A Smile
And
A moment of bliss

Where is my
Time
In space
Or
Where is my
Space
In time

I am still
Waiting
On and on
On empty dreams

I FEEL FAR

Far away
The sea crashes
On empty beach

THE LAST SUPPER

Between bites
Her eyes find me
I reach out to remove a crumb from her lips

SHE SLEEPS

She throws her leg over
Unwrapping
My dreams

LIFE'S TOUCH

Sweet chocolate
Melts
Life seeps in birthdays

THE MIST

White shroud Covers
What leaves, leave behind
Naked

THE FALL SEASON
The tree strechted to scour the sky
Entiwined within your arms
The love snowed warmth in my heart

LIFE GONE BY
Small brush with feelings
Takes a long time to fade,
On the lips or on the memories of life