We built a sand castle
Strong waves washed it away
The castle collapsed..
so did our dreams...
Buried in the ocean deep...

Cycled home after Mr Edward’s class
His stern face still vivid in my memory
Placed the end of term report card
On the dining table
Lost my appetite I hid in my room
Miserable....
mom and dad would be so angry
Dad called “ Christopher” my name as expected
He frowned he wasn’t looking so glad
Mom looked worried as she sat
Across the table...
Upset ...
“My intelligent boy,”
she said as she hugged me
What do you really want to be?
Extremely mad , dad told me to improve
And gave me a serious threat
“No more camping in the Summer for you”
My heart sanked, I shrugged and left
My angry dad, a manager of a shoe factory
Not at all an inspring job for me
I asked myself so repeatedly,
Am I meaningful to this world?
wish I could make my parents happy,
but it seems to be beyond me
school is a bore  and classes are dull...
In Aylesworth Forest.....
Let me solve the puzzle....

Couldn’t sleep well last night,
Decided to ride to Aylesworth Forest
My favourite place
Two miles from my Barkshire home
I needed to be alone
what I wanted to do...
What I wanted to be...
In this peaceful and beautiful land
Of oak trees , flowers and wild plants
Perhaps by thinking deep under a tree
I may find the answers...

Brought my lunch, a picnic alone...
I met a team of gardeners on my way here
Cutting grass and old branches of trees
For a second I thought,
I would want to be gardener too...
Plant tulips and colorful flowers on a flowerbed
Its cool to stay outside all day and watch things grow...
Hey... I don’t need to be so clever at school too!

Here it is... my hiding place ... the forest
The chirping of the birds on the trees
Grey squirrels chasing one another and
Once I even saw a fox too...

But today I am alarmed to discover
This forest has been invaded by strangers
Braved myself I approached the men
Who claimed to be land surveyors
I am devastated now , upon this knowledge
My precious forest is to be turned into a concrete jungle

Trees will be cut down in two weeks time
Blocks of Flat houses will replace my oak trees and wild plants
I feel even depressed now..
This isn't fair!
Where will the animals go?
I lost my appetite for lunch
I must save this forest! I must do something!
This problem is even bigger than mine...
Slowly I turned and walked away...

I am in despair
Couldn't find you anywhere
Aren't you goin to say something?

I am searching for direction
Been lost ... need some motivation
Aren't you goin to say something?

I am so confused
Feeling so abused and used
Aren't you goin to say something?

I am so depressed
Must have been so stressed..
Aren't you goin to say something?

All the time
I seem to be awake
Too scared to close my eyes
Put myself to sleep
a threat, unpredictable fear...

All the time
I hear laughters,
and I giggle...
I hear someone cries
and I weep non stop
I hear
shouts and screams
at inappropriate times
I hear whispers
Telling me to sleep
Telling me to wake up
I must have gone insane

All the time,
I can't get hold of myself
I must have looked silly
I must have fooled myself
I cant stop  people from staring...
Judging me in their heart

All the time
I hate myself
For this disability
Such a mental torture
A lifetime displeasure
When I  lost to Schizophrenia...

Why do I need to seek you?
You are there always
Never leaving me
Never forgetting me
Never once you desert me

Do I deserve your love?
I am ashamed to reflect
Looking down inside me...
The faith I am holding on to...

God is loving
God is forgiving
Even if you don't seek him
Even if you don't love him..
He never deny your quests or thirst...

Have faith...
Keep believing in god...
Never will he let you down...

Seek god...

Zooming in your inner self
Self reflection
a mandatory
Self realization
to know whats best
To realize your weakness
To reveal your mistakes
So you'd be wiser
as you experience
progress in the life journey

a quiet moment for yourself
for once....
the clock ticks slow...
in the wee  hours of  silence
the night is getting cold
You weep yourself
as you put your head down
your forehead touches the praying mat
say your prayers between your breath
asking god to forgive your sins...
hoping god to listen...
begging god to fulfill your wishes
drench with honest tears..
tears is soul purification
tears can cleanse your soul...
to make it as pure as gold..
again..

It isn't just one ordinary car
It isn't just a useless transportation
No one dares to touch it
No one cares to drive it
They wanted to sell it
for practical reason
I wanted to preserve it
For sentimental reason
Its my dead brother's car anyway
You people never knew how proud
he was when I signed the papers
and grinned.. that  brand new car is yours bro..
Fine then... let go of that old machine
and vanish all the bitter sweet memories
Never... ever.. talk again about him
infront of me...
Yes.. I am being irrational , irrelevant
but I loved my brother
and everything about him
is my sentimental value...

She wears Prada from head to toe
All eyes on her when she steps in..
She...
breathtakingly a beautiful goddess
She...
Femininely revealing ....
Provocatively showing...
Her Silky white flesh hidden and revealed...
Is it the dress?
No..
Is it the face?
No
Its the body
No
Is it the *** appeal?
No and Yes I guess
So help to define **** please....

**** is not always beautiful
Being beautiful is ****...
**** in your eyes
Pretty ugly in mine
**** is hard to define
isn't it?

****** me not
with your **** pair of eyes
****** me not
with your gentle charming smile
****** me not
with your heavenly lip
You need not fool me
That you are not even real
You need not fool me
That you are not even trying...
By just standing there
looking godly...
you've bared it all...

let me be your worshipper
praise your beauty in silent
breathing but pretending to be dead
afraid if the feelings show

ashamed ... a simple guy like me
an enchanting beauty like you
will you even glance at me?
when countless pairs of eyes are on you?

let me be your follower on Twitter
let me be your stalker on facebook
let me be the reader of your status updates
Cause I will never ask you for a date

shame on me, a poor coward soul
i love your every moves
i am afraid to make my own move
for my ego is big..
rejection I am so afraid..

a fool like me how do i know?
if i never take a stand..
perhaps i should just shout your name..
tell the world how i feel?

fear of humiliation..
i dare not try...
shame on me...
when i bring you flowers today
you are with another guy..

She stood there alone
silent, still
with a curve on her lips
ready to ****
with a tilt on her hips
she smiled
shy, reserved
as she turned to look away
as abruptly as champagne was served
the crowd filled in
she didn't wait nor stay
She went away
as swiftly...
she 's like the wind...

Should I trust your hands
When you are mad
they keep pushing me away
Should I trust your hands
When you are sad
They keep hugging me close
Should I trust your hands
When you are happy
They keep holding me
Should I trust your hands
When you are loving me
They keep cuddling me
Should I trust my hands instead?
When you are sleeping
They keep writing poetry....

Afternoon nap, a siesta!
the spectacular view,
but eyes are told to shut
the sound of the ocean waves,
but ears are made to close
Perfect siesta!
The mind is dancing with the ocean waves..
The sea breeze is massaging the tired skin..
Dreams of heaven in my mind
Far off places, far away from this life
Relaxing...
The body, the mind and the soul...

A complete silence...
Like the silence of a sleeping child,
Like the silence of wilting roses,
Like the silence of deep oceans,
Whatever it is,
It is a real pleasure,
The silence between you and me,
The silence bringing us closer,
And closer,
All the unspoken words,
All the unexpressed emotions,
Are thankful to this silence,
The beautiful silence...
The deadly silence...

Silence...
A form of rebel
A hidden emotion
A strategy for revenge
A silent cry
A deep thought provoking
An evil thought
A cold treatment to a lover
A boring partner
Indeed
Not all silence is golden

Hungry kisses
Gentle touches
Tender love
Laughter was joy
Magnificent were the days
Intimate moments shared
Precious time spent
Sudden Tsunami
Love was torn apart
Silence was goodbye
I understood it well

You feel numb
Your nervous system is dead
You don't feel a thing
You are dead while you are awake
your eyes wide open
your brain does not function
the silent killer attacks
It kills you slowly
It kills you suddenly
You'd never know...
Till you're dead...

A little girl is bored
Hugging a Teddy bear as tall as her
At the airport the flight is delayed
Teddy and girl are glued together
Very intimate relationship
between the girl and her Teddy..
Couldn't help myself to ask
"Do you love your teddy?"
"So much" She answered hiding her face
in between Teddy's ears...
" How much love" I asked again
and offered her ice-cream
She took the ice-cream..
hid her face in Teddy's belly
and shouted Very! Very!
I smiled at her and asked again
Wanted to know her concept of love
"Does Teddy loves you?"
YES! she said spontaneously and NO! she said after a second
"I dont know" she said now...
"Teddy never said he loves me"
Then how do you know he loves you?
Provoked this little girl's thinking...
She did give a deeper thought
when lastly she said...
"Teddy doesn't say he loves me
but Teddy stays"
"Teddy is silent
so I will love him more.."
So Teddy 's love is silent?
She nodded and kissed her Teddy...
I am amazed ....
of this little girl's brilliant thinking..
She understands love so much..
Love is love, you don't even need to say..
Your presence says... Your loyalty counts...
in this little girl's eyes
Teddy's Love is always there ..
you don't have to shout it loud..
I LOVE YOU is tender word
say it in silent...

He sits so near
I can hear his heart pumping
He turns around, moving closer
I can hear his breathing, so hard
He touches my veil
I shyly avoid his hungry eyes
He removes my head gear
I hold my head down
He lifts up my chin
I can now see the man...
for the first time...
He plants a kiss on my forehead
nervously , eagerly
So...
He is the so called husband
I am the so called wife...
To him... obey I should
To him I surrender my innocence?

In complete silence
A new episode begins
The crumpled silky bed sheet
stained with ******'s blood
Did I hurt myself?
Should I stay silent?
Show me
The evidence
We are married ....

It really doesn't matter if you love a human or an animal
If only that love is sincere
And love can be expressed
In many different forms
Like patiently waiting for mommy to come back from work...
like listening to all her grievances even if you don't
Understand a thing...
Even if it means
One day you have
to say good bye...
Love is queer in many ways
In happiness comes sadness...
In pain is sweetness...
Bitter and sweet
Part and parcel of life
And letting go
Is inner peace...

Once and for all
Shall I call it a quit ? say " Thanks to all"
Life is not permanent after all
Let me sit and stare at my wall

What do I want, have I achieved?
Sticking my tongue out, I laugh in mischief
Can't just sit and stare at my wall
Help me please...once and for all...

My beautiful little Princess
I wonder as I am...
Watching you sleep in the silent night
What travels in the mind of a sleeping child?

There’s a smile at the corner of your lips
Are you having a sweet dream?
Are you playing with angels in heaven?
Are you dancing barefooted in the garden of angels?

If I could I beat the time…
And travel back through the time tunnel
I wish to be born again
To be a sleeping child just like you

If I should trade my life
To be that sleeping child again
I would….
Sleep my little princess
Sleep peacefully through the night..

He sleeps on my lap
and breathes my name
O my sweet darling
Will not let anything
hurt you, disturb you

I don't sleep a wink
The whole night
I am delightful
by just watching my angel sleeps

My precious diamond
I can't lose you again
Let me sacrifice my sleep tonight
Just to be the person
who witness your first smile
tomorrow at dawn....
before you breathe my name the last
and leave me forever......

What does quality time together mean
When everybody's glued to their smartphones
Mom and dad buy new gadgets
and forget each other... again.

Meals are left cold on the dining table
Nobody pays attention
to homecooked meals anymore
Food is rather thrown in the bin
or reheat again and again...
What is the value of mom's kitchen
when Domino's Pizza can be ordered via online?

The magicof smartphones...
Homes aren't cozy place for us anymore
Everybody enjoys secrecy... privacy...
Living far  apart
but breathing under the same roof....

Dear daughter comes home in tears
Dinner date a sheer disaster, she said...
He checks his Whatsapp notifications
every now and then...and smiling
reading his messages..,
A total shame...

Technology is meant for convinience sake
Same time rapidly ruins our everyday life
What has happenened to real conversations?
Hiding behind the sophisticated gadgets
What good is that?
Get rid of of your latest Samsung
and show your true face...

KNOCK! KNOCK!
Madam we are at your door
No worries... of the body odor
We took your advice we went outdoor
At the mall  bought a bottle of Jadour..
Fresh smell we are Paris Hilton, Britney Spears and Miss Taylor
Do increase consultation time by 15 minutes or more...
Okay now open the door...
Take your turn but stand at the door...
Hey! now don't you cheat
Fresh looking nice and neat
but still I smell... your smelly feet...
Out you go and wash your feet!!

In the garden of heaven
You bloom...
magnificent..
Your fragrance I adore
Wanted to pluck you
But I became a devotee
In your graceful smile
forbidden you are...
not forgotten...

Dad woke us up in sheer excitement
Brought our attention to the window...
Listen he said, “to the sound of the wind”,
“The wind is blowing in the same bare place”
Look! he said...its snowing...

Beautiful white pearls.. “look outside”.
my brother shouted with joy!!
Snow! Snow! The snowflakes are falling from the sky...
Winter! Snow time!! We hugged and danced in the freezing night..

We boys ran down to the lawn..
Carpeted with satin smooth snow..
Lets do it bro.. a snowman just right here..

Do not to think of any misery
Of the piercing cold wind...
That bites the skin ...
Violent cold of winter that eats our flesh and bones..
Did we care?

In a few hours or so..
There stood our snowman..
We both laughed while we shivered..
Funny looking SNOWMAN...
scattered about the ground,
in the white landscape,
wet and cold and waiting
This FUNNY Snowman we remember the most...

There is a planet called earth
Where Snow White lives  
cared by the seven little men called dwarfs
Away from the jealous eyes of a wicked queen...

Tears of the seven dwarfs
Drowned the casket made of glass
Where Snow White lies lifeless...

Prayers of the seven dwarfs
Ordered god to stop the time
Be it a hundred years
We'd wait for Snow to open her eyes...

Tears of the seven dwarfs
Drowned the casket made of glass
Where Snow White lies lifeless...

Prayers of the seven dwarfs
Ordered god to stop the time
Be it a hundred years
They'd wait for Snow to open her eyes..

Patience of the seven dwarfs
endless prayers, tears, wishes and hopes
In a  casket made of glass
lies the most beautiful princess
who gently moves her fingers
her hand slowly touches a dwarf...

Tears, Prayers and Patience of the seven dwarfs
Snow White comes back to life...

Sombre is the night
The moon is lazy to shine
The stars are hiding the lights
The sky is the darkest
The night is the coldest
Everything looks frozen and cold
Gone are the nights of joy and laughter
Now just nights of sad sombre moods

somebody special
somebody who?
somebody smiles
thinking he is the who.
if he is the who.
and his smiles come
through.
then he is very special
this is the truth.
if you speak of me
or you speak of you
all will be revealed
then this will be the
truth .
open hearts ,and open
minds i think we both are
the who and the who's who
your special who
and my special who..

I said he's just somebody that I used to know.
You asked me to explain it and you wouldn't stop.
I said well he's just somebody that I used to know.
You asked me once again and wouldn't let it drop.

I said it's an old story from an older time.
But then you found his name engraved upon my heart.
The main character  in a  tale of my life
been keeping it as a secret till...
I find myself and yourself standing far apart.
I tried to make it better but it didn't work,
and promises once broken can't be made again.
The end of our relationship came with a ****.
The end of something special brings a special pain.
And still the worst part of this sorry tale of woe -
is that he's just somebody that I used to know.
meet and met
like and  liked
know and knew
love and  loved
He ain't somebody you know
He is just somebody that I used to know...

Some Days that I am counting the stars
Hoping you would  come by...
But the truth is
You simply forget about me..
A pang of sadness
Teardrops on the pillow
How could you forget
to remember me...
My Frustration
My anger
a perfect mixture
Somedays that I remember
the wide ocean in between
Neither you nor me have the guts
To brave the strong waves
or the angry sea...
Yet we called ourselves LOVERS...
shamelessly
Some Days that I realize the fact that
You are the SUN and I am the MOON.....
Our roles don’t fit
Our time doesn’t meet
Just forget the love we keep...

Will someone like you
Love someone like me?
I am laughing like a fool
Will someone like you
Leaving someone like me?
Again I am laughing like a fool.
Will someone like me
loving someone like you?
Unsure whether to laugh or cry
Will someone like me
Leaving someone like you?
Perhaps I am...
LAUGHING LIKE A FOOL
Thinking of how foolish I am..
To ever ever think..
of loving someone like you..
just a foolish thought....

Sometimes I feel like running
How far could I run?
Sometimes I feel like chasing?
How fast could I be?
Sometimes I feel like hiding?
How small the world is?
To wish you could never find me?

Sometimes I feel like disappearing?
How could I live without you beside me?
Sometimes my heart ponder
Do you  feel the same way too?

Sometimes my feeling shatters
Why are you keeping silent for days?
Sometimes when I miss you
are you missing me as much as I do you?

Sometimes I don’t trust myself when I am with you
Sometimes I hate to be alone without you
Sometimes I just want to vanish in the thin air with you..
Sometimes I wish what I wish is true….

I am sitting in my chair.
All my thoughts are slow and brown
Singing again a sorrow song…
Life is torn in two
Heart is broken to pieces
Deep wounded heart
Isn't easy to heal...
Sorrow is a silent pain
Hurts your heart, kills your brain
Sorrow is like a ceaseless rain
Silent scream, heart bleeds once again…
You hope to die as you twist and turn
Wish the sorrow ends as you scream in pain
The day stood still,
at dawn, you are alive again
Endure the same pain again and again…
Endless song of sorrow…
When will this end?
This sorrowful heart has neither wax nor wane,
     Neither stop nor begin...
Tell me...
How and When will this sorrow comes to an end?

Sorry...
is a magical word
is a cliche
is a defense mechanism
is fake tears ,hypocrisy , insincere...
but say sorry for any single mistakes
cover your face with a steel mask and say sorry....

I am shivering on my bed
I am hearing The whispers once again
Ohh lord the evil is coming again..
The footsteps get closer, nearer
It stops at my door....
I know its full moon and you love my blood
But I am keeping its fresh for the flood victims
Go **** the blood of bats..
I'll keep mine for the needy..
certainly not you...

My soul flies to you
In your Heart I stay
My wonderful heaven
my home and your home
Always...
Our souls meet
again...
We walk and
dance on the moon
We laugh and cry
We fight and make up
happy all the way
aren't we the happiest?
Even when our souls
traveling so far away...
searching... hoping... seeking

sad when sometimes
our souls seeking one another
yet they only linger
in our minds...
a never ending fantasy
a dream unfulfilled...

shouldn't we be blessed
that our souls finally meet?
Soulmates, aren't we?

Sitting by the window, fidgeting and thinking...
At this late hour, what would you be doing?
Outside... the smell is sweet,The wind is blowing,
I couldn’t sleep a wink, my heart is beating,
There is a saying....
If you cant seem to be sleeping..
In someone’s dream you are waking...
and can you,
really can you help me now
your soul interwined with mine
and never a second letting me free..
carry my soul with you to a hidden paradise,
somewhere strange it may seems.. but happy
looking in your eyes is soaring through heaven for all eternity,
how do I know this is you my soul mates,
oh I see it is the way the birds sing harmoniously when they see your face,
it is the way the stars shine brightly as if they were the sun,
it is the way my soul longs for you so,
you are here for me,
my soul mate,
listen to my night call,
Listen, Listen,
Can you hear me calling,
Can you follow it's sound?

Here I am, cold and numb
Sitting, Standing, rocking back and forth in the dark,
My bedroom seems smaller and smaller

Difficult to breathe, I almost choked
Drinking salty tears,
Grieving my own death..
Where do I go now?
What have I done?
My shadow is spinning around..

Topsy turvy, my life is upside down..
What a mess, just spinning around..
Round and round...
swirling around in the moonlight

Hate my face, hate my life, spin around...sheer madness!
Repeated defeats,my dooms day is here...
I can’t run..I can’t hide, I spin around...

Meaningless, fate is spinning around
I am spinning around with a sad smile on my face
Nothing left... even the moon is shying away

I am standing, spinning, dancing my own death... pure madness!
I have no fear, I am just Spinning around, around, around....

You stabbed me in the heart
Pierced the veil
I am now left exposed to the raging storm,
The scalding sun,
The slashing tongues
You stabbed me in the heart
So deep I bled
Pained,
I stagger and sag
You stabbed me in the heart
Right there where I hid
My love secured
How was I to know?
How could I have seen?
You stabbed me in the heart
I am left alone now
Soaked in my stream of tears
The rain is falling and
I am soaked,slapped and
Beaten roughly
Standing outside the lonely
Street of life....

In times of sadnss
In times of pain and hurt
With loses and wins
You stand by me
Holding my hand through it all
With gratitude our love stays
Amazingly strong...
Even when in doubt
When hateful words and emotions
get the best of us and...
Take the unfriendly toll on our minds
You stand by me
By my side you stay
You never leave my sight
You won't ever let me go
Oh say you won't...
Our love is strong
Always in our hearts...
And in our souls
We love
We laugh
We live and cry
You stand by me.
Forever...

He stops to smile
He becomes a statue
No gestures of love
No Darling I love you...

Must be my mistake
My words , my doings,
What I did wrong?
He remains speechless
Expressionless
Dumb like a still picture
That boring face..
Sulking of course...

I'd leave you fighting
with your own emotions
I am drowning
in my own thoughts
to hack the statue of you
is there a way to break this solid rock?
is there a way to  melt
a cold hearted soul?
soon..
I'd break you
Soon I'd melt you
I would find out...
When there's a will
There's a way...

Strange Night...
Everything looks so queer
Walking on this strange land
When everything looks so unfamiliar...
Follows the heart that travels the mind...
Leading me to a strange path
Ending up in a dark alley...
With a strange someone...
So bizarre looking... so bizarre...
A dangerously looking man...
In the darkest place..
in my mind...
Strange....

An antidote to stress
Is unconditional love
From a lover to another
From a mother to her daughter
Kind and tender love...
Sweet and everlasting..

A loud cheer from a huge crowd
Anxiously waiting for their idol
listen to words of promise
An aspiring Future leader
Charismatic and strong
Loved by many hated by many
Singing his manifestos
Some agrees some are doubtful
Music to the ears... real sweet..
If only he did not sugar coat everything
He might have won....
There goes one charismatic leader
All talks but no action....