Frozen,
I am trapped
In this desert of snow
The thought of you
keeps me going
I drag my feet
searching for direction
I fall on my feet
I weep in frustration...
A sudden movement I feel
underneath..
in the thickest snow...
I can't believe
I feel you move...
under my feet
I hear you whisper
words of love
I stop and listen
True... You are breathing my name...
telling me to be strong..
pleading me to move on...
instantly I stand
to brave the crazy snow storm
a gush of icy cold wind slaps softly
on my cheeks..
Yes I will brave myself..
Cause I know at the end of this
tunnel of hardship
there is you..
standing with an open arm...

The moment we shook hands
I just knew what I've gotten myself into
In dark circle I lived in
Lurking with the devil
the devil in you....
For some ****** years
I have been missing in action
You held me tight
Trapped me and painted me in black
I hated those days
when I was in love
with the devil........

If I ever had a chance
to meet you once again
I would really love to ask
Have you completely erased me from your memory?
every seconds, every minutes, every hours, every days that you used to think of me?
Have you forgotten the weeks, the months, the years, the seasons?
that we cherished our love together?
I would really really love to know?
Do you still remember the reasons that you loved me?

I would really love to know, I would love to know..
Have you found someone else?
Someone who could make you a lot happier than I ever did?
Someone who would give you what I could never give?
Have you found her? Have you?

I am neither jealous nor that I am planning a revenge..
I just wanted to say..
Thank you for not saying good bye..
You left me without a word..
It was hell I had to admit..
Without you I have lost all that I need…
You couldn’t imagine the turmoil I had been through…
It was like I died.. a hundred years..
I was alive but I was dead…

But today I just hope that I will see you again
Please remember me once more.
Come begging at my door…
Not that I am going to spit or curse on you..
I just wanted to gladly say..
Thank you for the pain…
I was dead before but I survived..
I am still alive and please listen here..
Thank you for remembering me once more
But I don’t need your false love anymore…
Thank you

Dear poets
Do not shed a tear,
Your time is never wasted,
Please do not fear,
your words onto an empty page,
in ink, is mixed into a rage,
it brings a passion, emotion to life,
lost love, a hurt, unfaithful wife,
it touches others, so they may know,
the sorrow, the grief, caused tear to flow,
and they will feel the feelings, clear,
for every poet, who sheds a tear.

Today is gone
What's done is done
Dream again all night,
a bigger dream, a stronger you..
Embrace tomorrow, another day
a new challenge , a new way..
A new day will come with a whole new light..

A blind Rabbit hops
Life may not be a bed of roses
In heaven
Rabbit lavish itself ...
...in heaven of carrots

No matter whether you are young or old
Everybody needs a hand to hold
On rainy days , when the weather is too cold
you just need someone to hold
Feel secure with someone's hand you hold
You'll feel complete, you'll feel whole...
When there is a hand to hold

I lazily closed my eyes...
My heavy paws on my head..
Stretching my body
Trying to relax and sleep
The world is covered from my view...
Let me dream please...
of my birth place in Africa...
Sick of people coming to see me
I am not a toy for display...
Today I am just a sleeping tiger...

It was only a dream
Empty promises of
diamonds and golds
Words were made in dreams
Sinful tongue,
Crooked teeth.
Witnessed the lies..
Lasted for few seconds
Then... suddenly...
He Vanished in the thin air
Meaningless Words broken into alphabets
The glittering diamonds and golds
Disappeared!!!  
Wake up PRINCESS!!
A dream it was

Forgive me for being me
A romantic freak of the century
Just cant let the words bury
Alphabets upside down in my heart I carry...

Dont worry about me
Dont also feel sorry
I am just writing my story
Hello poetry is enough for me...

My teacher wears her usual stern face
Struts into the lecture theatre
Looking so stiff and aloof..
She is untouchable I knew
Well what could I do?

She writes some vague words
On the board...
And talks and talks and talks
Almost non stop
When she does stop finally
That is only to check on us
Whether we are listening
Whether we are dreaming
And she will start screaming...

We are always scared to disagree
Always agree... Always say yes
Yes teacher we nod..
We fake our understandings mostly

And she writes another big word
And talks to the entire universe
So in love with the echo of her voice...

We cant wait for recess
Or else we will die out of boredom
I just pray that our teacher
Would atleast allow us
To also talk sometimes..
To also write sometimes...
She cant always be doing
The chalk and talk...
The entire time
Can she?

Its gloomy outside
Staying indoors most of the hours
As if to mourn the death of healthy atmosphere
Hazy weather
The air is thin and crispy
The sunshine is frosty
light mist  and hot air
almost difficult to inhale..
Look up !
the sky is almost invisible
Dusty ... Visibility...
Having trouble even to see clearly...

Everything I see is white
My rooftop is white
My lawn is white
The backyard is white
My garden is white
The snowman is white
The field nearby is silky white
Standing outside the house ,
what a cold breeze..
Countless  snowflakes falling on my head
turned me to snow white...

No Laughter, No Joy,
No Joy, No Love.
No Love, No Happiness,
No Happiness, No Memories,
No Memories, No Loss,
No Loss, No Win,
No Win, No Gain,
No Gain, No Ambition
No Ambition, No Goals,
No Goals, No Life,
No Life, No Point.

In your strong arms I melted
When we embraced each other
Our Love combined
and melted together..
In your hug,
my head on your chest..
our hearts beat the same love song
only one love we breathed
Your love and mine...
Our body touched ... a magic sensation
till we lost our breaths..
gasping for more air
Love melted us in one desire
When we held each other tight
Never letting go...
In this sweet love we stay..
inseparable...in this one honored
place.. in your hug...in your arms..
My heaven forever...
Our sweet romance..

A poem  tattooed on her body
Declaration of love
In the most sacred place
Her betrothed's name written with love...

I walk miles to the nearest school
Barefooted, no breakfast, no money
Mom said go to school,  I won't be poor
Hopelessly poor like my old father

So I can't b like my poor father
I brave myself sitting in the last row
at a corner in the class
always with my head hold down
hardly my eyes meet my teacher's eyes
My teacher's voice
only echoes in my heart

I sweat I smell I am stupid
I am different
My teacher never comes near me
She said I have a pungent smell
Always telling me to take a bath
and shampoo my hair
Smelly ,***** she scolds
She cannot bear my ugly face

Other kids barely talk to me
I am of no importance they say
One smelly Semai boy I am
yet...
Strange I still walk down the valleys
cross the rivers and walk barefooted
I  come to school infact everyday
to face all the strange looks I received
just because I can't be poor
like my useless old father
who once was the famous hunter
the Semai tribe's warrior....

Here I am daydreaming
with my bow and arrow
Ready for my hunting mission
All these time I have been thinking....
How could I be like father
A great Semai warrior
If I have to stand outside  the class all day?

The teachers screams my name
SERMO!!! SERMO!!!
I don't even care to look
I throw my books
My instinct tells me...
The forest.. the forest..
Its where I do belong......

If I could cry my heart out
You would  see nothing else
except for rivers
the river of my tears...

If I could cry my heart out
You would hear nothing else
except for the rhythms of my sobs
a sad orchestra all through the night

If I could cry my heart out
You would feel nothing else
except for empathy, compassion...
perhaps a little love
rather than keep wondering...
why and why she ever did cry?

A diamond ring...
A perfect gift ..
from the Lord of the ring..
Now how do I look ?
blink! blink!
Shine like a diamond ring....

Mirror mirror on the wall...
Good morning my dear
my voice within...
my evil critiques
Do not tease and lie, Please behave
show me the best reflection
that will make my day
soon I'd be 44 my body is getting old
still I smile like a little girl
and laugh and laugh at every jokes you told
don't be cynical, be honest this time
tell me if my skin glows
and my eyes shine
and I look the most radiant
of all....

What are you scared of?
The monster under your bed?
The skeleton in your closet?
The real monster
never hide or run
They exist..
yes they do..
They only sleep in your head..

You jumped
I jumped
You died
I didn't
I wished
I died with my betrothed
but I survived , I lived...
God had chosen me
to live
to tell about
this greatest love of us
The epic romantic disaster
a love saga
between Jack and Rose
and the mystery of Titanic
the famous sinking ship
in history....

I wish upon the stars that tonight will never end…
I wish I could stay with you just by holding your hands
I wish I could tell you all that is on my mind
I wish I could also read everything that you keep in mind.

I wish that I could really make you see
I wish you know how much you mean to me
I wish you would never desert me
I wish you would always care and love me

I wish you don’t only exist tonight
I wish you would still be here tomorrow
I wish the world will not make us depart
I wish that I can be yours and you, mine forever

I wish and I wish to hold you tight
I wish you won’t ever let me go
I wish that one fine day, I’d meet you
I wish you would kneel down and ask me to marry you

I wish not to dream tonight
I wish I am awake all night
I wish tomorrow there will be sun shining so bright
I wish to see you smile again as you lay next to me night after night…

I smile a sunny smile...
Good morning love...
and You smile back...
whispers I LOVE YOU...
all of a sudden...
Your ****** language
discovers love...
warm love...
written all over
your handsome face
sweet love...
like peanut butter jelly
spread all over your cheeks
and nose too
our laughter fills the room...
sweet love....

She stood there alone
silent, still
with a curve on her lips
ready to ****
with a tilt on her hips
she smiled
shy, reserved
as she turned to look away
as abruptly as champagne was served
the crowd filled in
she didn't wait nor stay
She went away
as swiftly...
she 's like the wind...

It doesn't interest me
If you are telling a lie
You said your...
Heart is broken into pieces
Play marbles with them
You said you died
Cold-blooded ******
Shivering in despair
Blood refuses to flow
Numbness everywhere
If the story you are telling is true
I want to know
If you can disappoint another
Just to raise a little sympathy
With your blatant lies...

Feeling lost in the crowd
In the downpour of love
Caresses and kisses
What is right?
How can I say what is wrong
according to you is right
When actually it is all wrong...
Feeling lost among rights and wrongs
Still wild explorations leads me on
Atleast I am true to myself to my faith

Continue to betray another
if not betray your own soul....

A reflect upon my journey of life
Still...
I dont understand a thing
Still
It doesn't make any sense
Still
Searching for who I am... really

I focus on my reflection
On the journeys I took
On the roads not taken
On my behaviors and actions
Over the years...... of my life
I should bow in shame...
The shameless me still standing
between my countless sins
and few good deeds
Should bury my face in the ground instead

Lets run away for a second I thought
Reality *****...
I am nothing but a sinful soul...
but...There's this voice
keep banging in my head
from nowhere it comes
so close to my ears
there is this magnetic pull
pulling me closer
closer to reality...
I am running running
but I am still here...
In this circle of life

I ask my self every single day
Hoping for a clue or two
Voices in my head is clear
Telling me what to do
Sometimes I agree sometimes I dont
My brain says yes
my heart says a different thing
Incongruence, incoherence...
chaos my heart and mind
why? why? I keep on asking.....
Why am I so uncertain
Why am I still doubting?

Keep on searching high and low
Every second and Every minutes
And endless search for identity
If I cant really know the real me
How possible is it for me...
To even  know or meet my creator
In eternity...

If I am not old
I must be gold..
I may not be nice
But I am wise
Every now and then ... I  need to spell check
please read my poems with due respect...

If the best thing to do
is to hide
Why must you stay
any longer
Why must you make
empty promises
It is impossible this year
It may be impossible next year
Impossible...
Perhaps a year later,
and many more years to come...
The impossible remains...
Impossible...

a snake slipped
slowly glides its slippery body
his eyes  in between the green green grass..
hissing fiercely..
looking for prey...

The beauty in silence...
Only heart that beats
The words and speeches we keep
In the deepest heart they drum
Heart that speaks the loudest
Let them not spill the words
If they 'd only irritate others...
The beauty of silence is in your heart
The words remain...
...safe and sound.

Like a zombie I walk
All in a different direction
Lifting my bleeding feet...
A heavy walk
Heading to a ****** den
awful corpses and bones
which one do I belong to
My body was ripped
My skeleton unknown
My soul Hears the howls
from anywhere,
from nowhere,
should it blends
with other zombies
in the den...

the scent of a woman
the best perfume
perfect garden of roses

What if...
I write to him
but there is no reply?
What if...
I call him
but he wouldn't answer?
What if...
I text him
but he will ignore?
What if?
I try to look for him
but he isn't looking anymore?
What if....
I tell him how I feel
but he simply laugh
and leave me standing...
to die in huge embarrassment?
of his total rejection?
what if....
what if...
I am so glad I decided to  ignore
WHAT IF....
so I won this man and married him at last..
Happy ending...

love that has no limitations
It asks for nothing in return
You genuinely love people for who they are
For their true and honest selves
Raw and unfiltered
this magical love runs deep
through your every waking moment of your life
And those whom you give it to
should feel truly lucky
to experience your love in their lives!

She met a stranger
Took the offer for a ride
Stopped for a couple of drinks
at a really cheap bar
over a plate of a free meal
her modesty was stripped,
didn't  seem to care
too much alcohol
drugs overdosed
stranger upon stranger
cut her open
her dignity on her feet
life is too cheap
for a lady like her
who just wanted to be called
nothing but  a "CHICK".

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight

If it's wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't let me right

Cause I've drowned in you
And I won't pull through
Without you by my side

I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you


I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine

Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight

Baby can you feel me
Imagining I'm looking in your eyes

I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind

And yet you're so far
Like a distant star
I'm wishing on tonight

I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you

I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine

Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song

I'd give my all for your love tonight
I'd give my all to have

Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel

Your body next to mine
Cause I can't go on

Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight

Give my all for your loveTonight

Hire me please...
hard earn money
to feed my love
Hire me!
Desperately dedicated
working even on store closing day.

Love is blind but the feeling is real
I cannot have you but I love you still
From the moment I saw you my mind was made up
You are the one I cant live without

Why are you so blind
Decided to leave me behind
Blaming Love for being blind
Just your heart and mind...
Love,  is it too blind to bind?

Love is dumb... Just Cupid's disguise
Love is ******...it's a stupid's paradise..
Love is blind!

Mirror…mirror
I look at myself into the mirror
Am I still the little girl I used to be?
My mom calls me her sweet innocent child
She adores me the moment she wakes up
She loves me still until the end of day
I am growing so fast,
It makes me scared
Sometimes when I used to play tantrums
Am I still my mom’s sweet child?
Sometimes when I hurt her little
Am I still an innocent child?
Mirror, mirror, please tell….

Poor blind rabbit
Hops in the forest wide
To get his share of its morning treat...
BREAKFAST!
He hops too fast to the open space
In the field where there is nowhere to hide..
An eagle is fast to ****** its prey..
A blind rabbit..
a feast...
Eagles party!

She doesn't look strange
Not at all dangerous
She's all sweet and smiles
So fragile looking
Could break her upon a scold..

Her body...
As light as a feather
Her moves...
As graceful as a dancer
Her face...
As innocent as a saint
So what is she doing in here?

In this freaking cold old cell
Surrounded with unfriendly walls
The lock as big as a bull's head
Total darkness during the day and night...
Nothing but paralysis in here..

What has she done so wrong?
to deserve this hell on earth?
She doesn't look harmful to me
She looks sincere and genuine..
Have I... have I been deceived by her sweet looks?
No..
I have this strong feeling
Something must have gone so wrong
Unless the prosecutors could prove me wrong
I bet this pretty woman in your prison
is more right that wrong....
Tell me what could turn
a purely innocent..
a sweet woman like her
into a brutal monster?

Life is a journey,
and we are all travelers
looking to make that great trip
with someone....who deserves..
to be our trusted companion
and we travel along the winding road
and sometimes we stop awhile to breathe
at each great destination we reached
till...
we come to the final destination...
HEAVEN...

Its the rule of a game
An excited winner
A frustrated loser
but winning isn't everything
and losing is not the end....

Summer is the perfect season
Wake up every morning
The warm sunshine shining through my window
My red and yellow roses smile in the garden
Little sparrows sit on a tree and sing
Good morning! Rise and shine!
Time to freshen up and start my day
Toasted bread and hot cup of coffee for breakfast
Say Hi to friendly neighbors...
Drive to work on a warm summer's day...
What a perfect summer's day...

Awaiting for your warm embrace,
Subtle kisses began the mating game,
As an innocent cuddle tums out to be something else.
Wild imaginations become real indulgence of temptations,
Hands exploring treasures that were kept hidden,
breathing deep with emotion.. two souls become one.
burning in the flame of love.
desire upon desire... i breathe your name...
you breathe mine..
Melting away in ecstasy,
We paint ourselves on the canvas of love

The roses died

Oh my roses
All torn and dried out
Oh my roses died today
The garden looks so gloomy
Dried leaves on the ground
Colorless flowers thrown apart
Oh my garden of roses
a Killing field
a mourning place

The plants bowing and mourning
The smell of death
is everywhere...

All of a sudden
heavy rain falls from the sky
Clears aways the evidences
of terror...
Like nothing has ever happened

in my garden of roses
It wasn't a suicide
I plotted the death
A brilliant plan
I denied their rights to live

The rain washed away
all the debris...
The truth is forever hidden

Tomorrow...
I have a new plant
A new garden to be praised
and soon they will  forget  the roses...

Here I am, cold and numb
Sitting, Standing, rocking back and forth in the dark,
My bedroom seems smaller and smaller

Difficult to breathe, I almost choked
Drinking salty tears,
Grieving my own death..
Where do I go now?
What have I done?
My shadow is spinning around..

Topsy turvy, my life is upside down..
What a mess, just spinning around..
Round and round...
swirling around in the moonlight

Hate my face, hate my life, spin around...sheer madness!
Repeated defeats,my dooms day is here...
I can’t run..I can’t hide, I spin around...

Meaningless, fate is spinning around
I am spinning around with a sad smile on my face
Nothing left... even the moon is shying away

I am standing, spinning, dancing my own death... pure madness!
I have no fear, I am just Spinning around, around, around....

I plead you to hold me
Please hold me tight
I feel dizzy, I feel like falling
Dont let me fall, hold me instead
I feel so weak thinking of falling
of falling backward,
of falling forward,
I might be paralysed
I might be dead
I am too scared to fall
so i plead you again to hold me
try try dont let me fall
Let me stay
Only In your arms
hold me tight
I will not fall.

Pretty colored flowers
That are orange, red and yellow
In the Spring air
Flowers are the sweetest things
god ever made...
Magnificent!