He swept me off my feet
I am drowned
Forever buried
Deep down in the Indian Ocean
Never to be found...
No debris... No signal...
Nothing..

It isn't just one ordinary car
It isn't just a useless transportation
No one dares to touch it
No one cares to drive it
They wanted to sell it
for practical reason
I wanted to preserve it
For sentimental reason
Its my dead brother's car anyway
You people never knew how proud
he was when I signed the papers
and grinned.. that  brand new car is yours bro..
Fine then... let go of that old machine
and vanish all the bitter sweet memories
Never... ever.. talk again about him
infront of me...
Yes.. I am being irrational , irrelevant
but I loved my brother
and everything about him
is my sentimental value...

A weak smile
A tired gesture
He acknowledged my presence
I knew he would..

His eyes were fixed on my face
as if..
He wanted to say Thank You
as if...
He wanted to say Good Bye
as if..
He wanted to say Please.. HELP ME NOW

I couldn't avoid his longing looks
I just knew it..
He wouldn't last
another day..
He was too tired with
all these strict treatments
and medications he had to consume
on this cold, cold hospital bed...

He wanted to rest
Desperately needed a break
from the needles
and nurses in white uniforms
He hated the doctors
He wanted to go...

He screamed my name
I was too shocked
Sister I am sick of this life
But I am reluctant to die...
Please... he grabbed my hands
and whispered...
let me die at home
don't let me go in this way...
He closed his eyes and
and let my hands go
He let go of my hands forever..........

He sleeps on my lap
and breathes my name
O my sweet darling
Will not let anything
hurt you, disturb you

I don't sleep a wink
The whole night
I am delightful
by just watching my angel sleeps

My precious diamond
I can't lose you again
Let me sacrifice my sleep tonight
Just to be the person
who witness your first smile
tomorrow at dawn....
before you breathe my name the last
and leave me forever......

O ALLAH,
Make my love for you,
The most beloved thing to me.
And my fear for you,
The most fearful thing to me.
And remove from me,
All worldly needs and wants
by instilling a passion for meeting you
And when you have given the people of the world
The pleasures of their world,
Make the coolness of my eyes,
Calmness in my heart
Pure pleasure in worshipping you!

Love speaks the loudest at heart
and feelings control its volume...

Waking up on a beautiful morning
Whistling while making the bed
Humming sweet songs while in shower
Outside the birds are..
... singing melodious songs
Oh my
The birds are not seen anywhere
on a bark of a tree
Instead they happily sit
on electric cable infront of my house
I stop humming...
What a beautiful scene I thought
Living in this concrete jungle...
I need to breathe...
I need the real nature!!!