I cry my heart out
My clothes drenched
with tears
Tears of regret

I bend and kneel
A weak follower I am
On this praying mat
I closed my eyes
I put my hands together
I am all alone... with you..

I seek your forgiveness
God look at me
I Plead "Forgive Me"
I have sinned, I have sinned...
Captivated with the world
that glitters...
Mesmerized with fatal lust
Drowned in  the darkest dungeons
Full of defeats and lies
I lost...

Forgotten Who I am
Who I belong to
How often I said your name?
I have lost the counts

I say your name again
I bow in shame
Head down...
Regrets are embarrassment...
Only you ...
only you I could turn to...

You are one
There is no other
How could I ignore?
My feelings changed all at once
I only need my Allah...
Only my god in time of despair..
Only my god in time of happiness...
I have found my soul again..

Dear God..
You've touched my heart
The deepest place
used to be empty
I fill it with you..
forever and ever I am yours
Your humble follower
God I love you
I have found myself again...

Tonight
I am standing outside
What a night...
I am...
Staring at the widest sky
My eyes are searching
for my favourite shiny thing

Its a strange night though...
I feel awkward standing right here
in my garden
Its dark... Charcoal black..
I couldn't see a thing..

Where is the moon that shines?
All of a sudden...
a soft whispers
to my ears
Am I allowed to be lazy?
Let me not shine
just for tonight..
I am tired to death...
I need the rest...
Sleep is all I need...

I don't really know my sweet moon
I can't answer on behalf...
to avoid your routine?
You'd leave me in complete darkness..
Not me but millions
in sheer black night...
They'd be blind
groping in the dark
Everybody needs a moon..
and so do I...

Hello
Do you recognize me?
I am your voice within
You hardly hear me
Always... you ignore
my pleas..

I whisper your name
I shout sometimes
Just to correct you from wrongs
Just to show you
the light... the right path
cause I am your voice within...
I am your conscience
Your caring invisible twin

How sad...
you choose to pretend
Like you are deaf
Like I don't exist
I shout and scream..
your name...
Am I wrong?
I am destined to be
Your voice within...

World, concealing and revealing
Elegant appearance
Forgetfulness of matter
At the revealing, heavenly
Dark clouds fail there
Majestic and radiant
World opens up
Spreads out wings of imagination
Worlds interact
A new world arises
My world resists to be the same
Earth resists incorporation
An embrace is welcomed
A new world opens up.

One lonely soul
Tired of life
In a small secluded cocoon
Breathing heavily in and out
Coughing constantly
Pillow stained with blood
Looking out at the window
Eyes almost closed
Counting the dried leaves fall
One by one it falls each day...
The last leaf would fall eventually..
The long wait..
Will he die?
Will he survive?

What fun it is..
He said...
to mourn in the inside
let's fantasize of the glittering world..
with colorful words

give life a cheer
give life a chance
no fun to be alone
surrounded by gloomy atmosphere..

he oftens forget...
his spiritual companion
god's eyes are watching
god's ears are listening...

I wish he'd
Call his name
Calmness in his heart
I pray he'd
Seek his assistance
His Loneliness is fulfilled...
God is true...

Feeling so empty within today
Sadness’ is settling in and taking over my mind
My soul seems so desolate and lost, Like life holds no meaning without love
No one to care about breaks my heart

  It’s such a hard feeling that’s growing inside of me
Breaking me apart from inside bit by bit
Sending me into a dark abyss of no return
Making me weep, but that won’t bring an end to this suffering

  Happiness has been replaced with sorrow some sighs
Emotions have left me, feeling like a stiff being
Leaving only darkness to engulf my life
All I can do now is hope for ray of light
That will get me out of this dark loveless place

Sun is impartial in reaching out
In sustaining life on the planet
Equal intensity everywhere
Even on the good and the evil.

Reality appears to be partial
Expectations are laughed at
A drop of water to quench my thirst
Stinginess even in abundance.

Years spend in waiting for a change
Reality never changed, continued to be
A ray of light never bends
May bend or spread out at opaque ends.

Learned the art of nishkama karma
Go on acting… for duty sake
Never expect anything in return
Duty for duty sake… life goes on.