Clouds of black,
Heavy rain.

Don't come back,
Please refrain.

Over the hills,
And next to the docks.

This is the place, now open the box.

Bringing people into your life is a big responsibility
like owning a pet
you have to feed their minds
you have to exercise their limits
you have to show them affection
you have to make time for them
you have to care for them
because sometimes they can't care for themselves

Oh how I shall never forget your name
Your eyes ignite the pure bold taste of lust
A blue open stream bound by fair gold dust
Our love was spry yet it came down aflame
You plunged the sword aware of the true shame
Mine heart aches with blush blood from the low ******
Those bright, cunning, ripe eyes crushing pure trust
Our deep passion just daft like a crude game
No soul should live in such dismal black strain
Why must I feel this woe immersed in Hell
I have no heart so why do I endure
Maybe above I will forget the pain
Your acts caused me to no longer propel
Tis my death by your sly poison allure

My heavy weighted eye lids crack open,
my mind retreats from a far away place.
Dazing at the white canvas above me,
I lie motionless.
The day I first saw her,

I blink.

Our first kiss,

Two blinks.


The day she said I Love You,

Three.

Her eyes filled with torment, a scorching flame trickles down her cheek.

I am no longer motionless.
I inhale the shrapnel of my poisoned mind.
This makes the world much more beautiful I say, knowing someday you will never see it.
I exhale.

Kiss,

hug,

touch,

feel.

Nothing more than ink blotched on a peice of paper.
Blow it all away I said, for your troubles are far worse than mine. You think you are hurt?
You think you can sleep at night without dancing with the shadows of the past?
I can't, for that is I.

Look at lust directly in its eyes, look at love without any lies.
You are nothing more than a passing wind,
I was everything, why does it feel like I sinned?
But all is lossed in the morning, a shame there wasnt a warning.
The sun shining high,
There is one thing I can do, and that is say goodbye.

Walking on a path of eluded dust,
Withered down to a speck of
unwanted trust.

Licking my lips as I try and tolerate the
inconsistent void, eyes burning a
glaze, hoping to not be destroyed.

I miss the state where we used to be,
Just your hand in mine and not a worry in the world
that we could foresee.

It was nothing short of a blissful
purging explosion, tiny coloured
emotions bursting into the air after
every smile. The sparks igniting into a
flame of curiosity, slowly destroying
the dark shadows of the past. To
inhale the intoxicating dreams that
came with the cold night sky, it was
forever cemented in my mind.

We build our own path
Towards the future
Trying to learn
From the past mistakes
But sometimes we forget
Then make those same mistakes
Once again too many times

The journey through life
Where we touch so many
Through the good and bad
Sometimes we can forgive
But we can never forget
The heart can ache
Only we can make it mend

There are those we hurt
Where we did not mean to
We can only walk away
From we had done
Striding for the future
Unable to change the past
Trying to forget the present

So many comrades we find
Some remain in our lives
Some go separate paths
Their memory stays with us
We may change with the times
But something stays with us
That is the beauty of friendship

copyright Chris Smith 2012