Fear spreads like a chill
It ripples over my spirit
The way the autumn wind makes my body quiver

Fear infects what heals me
Sleep turns into torment
It's sweet embrace offers shallow solace

Fear makes rest strenuous
Nightmares find my weaknesses
My soul is shredded instead of sewn

Fear caresses my madness
If I take the sweet ******
I risk finding the dwelling of my terror

Fear grapples with need
I am addicted to sleep
With more ferocity than nicotine or alcohol

Fear is strong at night
The darkness feeds it
The infinite space gives its vastness advantage

Sometimes you're happy
Sometimes you're sad
If you don't live in both of them,
You won't live in either of them

The ******* part of me
It makes sleep impossible
It craves the basic things
Feeding it is impractical

I caged all my demons
The only tomb was my body
They gnaw at their bars
Now I have heart burn

This long battle of ethics
It hasn't made me happier
I know I have honor
I fear it is worthless

I gutted my romantic
His entrails became beautiful
My logic has new wallpaper
I miss being infatuated

I cleaned up my appearance
I covered it in fallacy
That make-up is acidic
My honesty is melting

When I lay down to rest
My beast screams for freedom
I hates its captivity
It must remained chained

It's like a swarm
Of malevolent spectral butterflies
Green and black
Evil emanates
Corruption cascades
From each sickly flap
Of those tiny evil wings

It floats up
When you think you're perfectly safe
Calm and sane
Removing reason
Surmounting sensibility
At each cruel brush
Of a pair of hairy antennae

No one else
Believes there is a danger involved
Daft and Lucky
Blissful Blindness
Ignorant Innocence
Of the butterfly's bite
From its noxious proboscis

I am an honest man.
I love to be alone.

Alice whispers to me
The name of my hard-drive
With headphones in
And no sound playing
The little beeps
and fuzzy rasp
Reminds me of
Dear conversations
In a hushed murmur
About silly things

When you say,
"Do you remember that day?"
I frown and I shrug
"I recall that hug."

"Our first kiss..."
Forgotten moment of bliss.
My thoughts always lost,
The Madness's cost

"That one night..."
"Was it after a big fight?"
"You don't remember."
"Was it December?"

Not a clue
What I could possibly do
"It meant that little?"
My mind is brittle

Can't take back
Already slipped down the crack
The look in her eyes
A part of me cries

Some have memory
My mind is too slippery
I still have my soul
Despite the big hole