Is this a lie, or just a fantasy
I wake in my dreams
I sleep on my feet
Once I was tired
In a dream that I had
I woke feeling rested
And doubted my life
Was I always so tired
Or just living a dream
Am I awake now
Or just sleeping forever
I can't answer my question
Until I find sleep
I can't sleep one wink
Until I find peace

My insanity is inconvenient
It never overtakes me
When I want to write
Or when I want to love
I stay sane when I drink
Calm when I grow angry
My brain goes double-dolphin-riding-bear-juggling-t-rex-crazy
When I try to sleep

There once was a doll
But she couldn't speak

She knew all the words
"Hello" and "Goodbye"
As well as "Thank you"
"No, thank you." and "Please"

She was silent for ever
Someone had neglected
To sew on a mouth
And she just sat there
With words in her throat,
And no way out

I wept for the waste
of beauty kept secret
She wept for the taste
of words on her tongue

You could just lie
You'd get done faster
shut up, shut up
You could just cry
They'd buy it quicker
be quiet, be quiet
You shouldn't try
You'd have free time
quit it, quit it
You might just fly
You have to jump
I can't, I can't
You just can't die
You should smash it
Leave me, Leave me
You are mine
You can't escape me
*I will, I must

******* world
I've got a new shirt
And ten dollars
My father never dreamed
I'd beat his record
Of "biggest *******"
This chip on my shoulder
Has bent my spine
And now I'm crooked
Just a con man
Like the daddy
I never knew

Every woman looks like you
And I love them for it
Brown eyes
Brown hair
There was something uncommon
Despite the mundane traits

It's like my favorite birdsong
Or the best smells from childhood
Mixed with the best tastes
You were the spring and autumn
Of my childhood, adolescence, madness

You were the summer and winter
Of my heart, my soul, my desire
Brown Eyes
Brown Hair
My Mundane, Miraculous Madonna
My joy and Sorrow

I miss you even when
I'm right beside you
Because I can feel the parting to come
It breaks my heart that I can't hold you
and kiss away the tears
But he'll do just fine
And I'll toast your health, and his
While I drink alone
Again.

On the precipice of disaster,
He waits with a smirk
"What more could you ask for?"
He's the world's biggest ****

No man knows his dark reasons
He walks without grace
"I'll die and live as the Seasons."
There's no beauty in his face.

Near to death but not yet done
He runs closer to Fate
"I live on wind, earth, and sun."
He seethes lies and hate

Adorned in stolen wits and charm
He falls into Hell
"No man or beast can do me harm."
His words a tide and swell