Your ******* became my freedom
My freedom, your *******
How do we make it in this cruel world, my love?
Side by side we’ve always stood
Moving from this esteemed position
I plan not to do
Change is inevitable, as it has been foretold
Your soul is beautiful
Scars, bruises, tears, and all
I look far deeper than you realize
You see far deeper than I would like to admit
I’ll drop my double-standard
If you drop your self-loathing
Sound like a deal?
I rest my scars in your hand
Not because they are your fault
But because you cared enough
I take responsibility for those nights
Not because they were my fault
But because I care for you so deeply
Lovers, we are not to each other
Soul mates and renegades, we’ve become

I should be so happy
“Should”
I have a nearly perfect life compared to others
Yet I drift from day to day in a haze
My days run together and I can’t keep track anymore
I look up at the amazing stars in the sky which I used to find beauty in
And now all I see is darkness and clouds forming a tight grip around me
I’m not even wearing a mask anymore because I don’t have the energy to put it on
Hell, I don’t even have the energy to be depressed
Each night melts into a day and a day into a night
Endlessly and slowly driving me to my imminent mental grave
Why can’t I snap out of this like I used to?
I mean, I should be really happy
“should"

Some days are better
Always me, never be

Other days are hell
Always me, never be

This is just a lie until you leave
Always me, never be

What will I do when this story has its end?
Always me, never be

Will you water the grass on my grave with your tears?
Always me, never be

Pay attention to the answers I’m giving you
Always me, never be

Sometimes life has its ways
Always me, never be

Words run through my mind and won’t leave
Always me, never be

Your silence is a deafening roar
Always me, never be

I will wander until you guide me back
Always me, never be

Why can’t this be simple
Always me, never be

Right, because it’s you
Always me, never be

I’ll stay until you see
Always me, never be

Parched lips search for lost words
Bruises and egos match just the same
Thoughts that make only single appearances
One and the same, all for one and one for all
Time falls, grips, and grasps while you watch
Seemingly not noticing one from the other
Omniscient eyes and ears know better
It’s a shame I had to eat my words
But you know deep inside I’ll forever be your shadow
Don’t be offended, I’m your shadow because you’re protecting me from everything
Dear, I could never leave my heart, soul, and shadow behind
Since you have acquired all three, you’re kind of stuck with me

Sorry...

If I were Superman
(which I am)
You would be my Lois Lane
(which you are)

If I would fight bad people
(which I do)
You’d be my reason to succeed
(which you are)

If I could have superpowers
(which I do)
You’d be the one I’d use them for
(which you are)

If I could fly
(which I can)
I’d carry you wherever you wanted to go, at night, under the moon
(which I will)

If I had super-strength
(which I do)
When we ****, I’d pick you up because I could
(which I do)

If I had super-sight and could see all
(which I can)
I’d know that you like me
(which you do)

If I had x-ray vision
(which I do)
I’d use it to see right through you
(which I can)

If I had an eidetic memory
(which I do)
I’d remember everything you’ve ever told me
(which I can)

If I were invincible
(which I am)
I’d stay with you forever
(which I will)

If I were to die somehow, someday
(which I will)
You’d be the person I’d want to see last
(which you will be)

Let’s face it dear, this Superman
(which I am)
Will always be here
(period)

Up, down.
Up, down.
Up, down.

The repetitive motion of you chopping up fruit and cheese was mesmerizing.
Not sure why, it just was.
I couldn’t help but sit there and stare at you.
Weird, right?

How did this start?
Did it start when I met this beautiful, talented, sarcastic woman
Who was engaged and had no thoughts of me other than, passing
Or did it start when I was next to you
Gently running my fingers across your tattoos
Maybe it started when you came back and kissed my cheek
And let me know that I was cute, funny, and special to you in some way
Possibly it started while I was on that couch
Hearing familiar noises from the back room, wishing it were me
Or maybe it came about when you left me, scared and alone
Even though that was the farthest of your intentions
It could've been when you came back into my backyard
And allowed me to share in the pain that momentarily defined you
Or quite possibly on that mountaintop
When I felt as if I almost lost myself inside you for all that you were
It might've been when you grabbed my hand and glided across my soul
As our clothes meshed with the carpet of that Augustian house
Or maybe when you simply stopped that one night
And put me above all else that was happening in your life
It could've been when you silently let me into your world
And lied to me saying you weren't worth it
It might have been when I let you into my world
And showed you that I don't wait forever for just anyone
Could it have been when I felt a smooth finger intertwine with mine
And we blissfully walked hand-in-hand lost in each other's world
Did it happen when you said, "Hey, I want you to listen to this song"
And I cried because it was the most beautiful thing anyone had done for me
Maybe it was when you wrote a poem about me
Describing my place under your metaphorical corset
Or was it the look in your eyes that I see almost daily
That scream to me, please, don't ever leave me

Dear, I'm not sure exactly at what point I fell in love with you,

But I do.

And I'm here to stay