My nightmares of life
are slowly coming true
I can’t really tell
if I’m losing me or you

Drifting my way through
this endless days dream
Nothing is ever
as simple as it may seem

I think of you now
more than I’ve ever before
Life has something else
lay waste for me no more

Every day seems
like an endless mistake
Yet no longer
do I ne’er dread my fate

I looked to you
for more than just advice
You were my everything
and saved this simple life

I’ll think of you often
now that the days draw near
For now hope I seek
and death no more my fear

You think I dwell on the past... but I don’t because it’s behind me.  
You think I dwell on the future... but I don’t because it hasn’t happened yet.
You think I dwell on right now... you’re right.
At this moment you’re the only thing that makes sense.
You think I’d try to change my past... but I can’t do that.
You think I’d try to predict my future... but I can’t do that either.
You think I’d try to make this moment be my forever... I just did.
At this moment when my world crashed you stood above me and said, “Hey, I’m here"

I want Orion on my shoulder
He always looks so lonely up in the stars
Even the Big Dipper isn’t near him
He is surrounded by many constellations that I’m sure mock him for his position
He chased her into the night sky
He’s still chasing
Being a constellation hasn’t gotten him down
I’m not a constellation, but I know how he feels
Orion - keep going for all the lonely romantics of the world and give them hope
As you did for me
So long ago

There he is, asleep in his house
There you are, asleep on my bed
just waiting for me

I smile because the sweet fragrance
of sweet lilies and passion
that lines your neck has already
permeated the room and it hits me as soon as I walk in

I lay behind you and wrap my arms around your
far too familiar waistline that my fingers
know far better than my logic should allow

You scoot farther into me knowing I’ll protect you
Protect you from the thems, hims, and occasional hers
You know I’d never let anything harm you because
my warm body behind you tells you

I reach for my Panda and when I turn back
I come to the harsh realization
that you put Everclear in my drink last night

It’s ok, it was a good dream anyway

I just want to stick my entire body in a bottle of water
Don’t drink me
Just let me be

Let me float in its paradoxical waves
I don’t like it out here anymore

I just want to go back to normal

If I ever was, normal.

I can’t quite figure it out.
I’m standing here all alone, I’ve had approximately 5 heavy mixed drinks.
Still not drunk, just buzzed enough to notice how lonely I am.
I met eyes with the dog.
He told me it was ok.
Whether that was the alcohol or my imagination, I don’t know.
I’m glad you’re happy.
I’m not though.
It’s tough.


Being me.




Because that means I’m...








Forever alone.

Petty words for shallow thoughts
I never thought you would be to me what I am to her
Sorry love, but all you are is a pretty face in a players chase
You should know better by now
Dry your tears, because you obviously mistook me for someone who gave a ****

As for you, get me off this ******* moral pedestal
I don’t have any, but I’m glad you think well of me
Well, I love you anyway and I’ll wake you up bright and early my dearest.

With all my love
-Second party heartbreak

I’m not the first, or the last
I’m in your present, not your past
I hope that there’s a place for me
Far in the future, I can see
Dysfunctional we are indeed
No warning do we ever heed

I  
  can’t  think
or     do     like
     this     but     I
will     try     my     hardest
     to     be     what     you     need
in      life     and     such     not     so
     please     don’t    leave     me    here
alone     in     the     dark     where     I’ve  
     been     for     so     long      that     I     can’t
even     remember     who     I     really     am     anymore
     and     even     though     this     doesn’t     make     any     sense
to    you    it     makes      perfect      to     everyone     else     who     knows
     that      you     saved      me     from     everything     I     never     was     and
never     wanted     to     be      because     in      all      actuality     you     are     the
     most     important     thing     in     my     life      and     always     have     been     but
you     just     never     knew     that     because     it     doesn’t    make     sense     for      a
     beauty     like     you     to     fall     in     love     with     a     beast     like     me     but     still

I am completely, irrevocably, inescapably, conclusively, and forever in love with you and for that, I apologize.

You know that one single moment...
the one moment where you wouldn’t change anything about, well, anything?
I don’t have that moment.

That’s my life.

My thoughts float through this mystified air
It’s me not you, I solemnly swear.
Mismatched thoughts meet and greet
Your baby blues cause my heart to beat
Fingertips run through my mangled hair
Remind me that for someone so fair,

You’re extraordinary.

I feel your silky hair through my rough, calloused hands
Your flawless skin softens this hardened heart
Melting away into your arms
Gentle scratches across my bare back remind me,
That I am far from alone in this cold world
I crave this beautiful touch, not between lovers
A reassuring brush of the shoulder and a deserving look
Eyes that sparkle like a priceless gem
A wise, bullied soul with a sharp wit to match
The voice that strikes fear into me, as a conscious into a person
My love, do not mistake this weary traveler for an idiot

This is a just war we’re fighting together
Somewhat of an accurate estimate of how we feel about each other
But still, we act naturally
Such a calm storm in the making
I mean, we are clearly confused, right?
I get that you’re simply defensively striking
Is there a random pattern here that I’m missing?
Or am I simply one of your deliberate mistakes?
It’s ok, I’ve come to a preliminary conclusion
Sweetheart we are the definition of typically unusual
And I will gladly **confirm the rumor

It’s been one week since you called me
I should be happy, I guess
But I’m not
This gap in my heart is getting ever much so bigger
And I slowly realize that maybe I was wrong to let you go
We had our times that were rough
But god did we have it good
Everyone sees this terrible relationship
But on the inside it was better
Or so I thought
I guess what I’m trying to say is
I really love you
And you were definitely
My favorite mistake