I feel your silky hair through my rough, calloused hands
Your flawless skin softens this hardened heart
Melting away into your arms
Gentle scratches across my bare back remind me,
That I am far from alone in this cold world
I crave this beautiful touch, not between lovers
A reassuring brush of the shoulder and a deserving look
Eyes that sparkle like a priceless gem
A wise, bullied soul with a sharp wit to match
The voice that strikes fear into me, as a conscious into a person
My love, do not mistake this weary traveler for an idiot

It’s so hard, my love
Hard to say, hard to tell
With you it’s something of a tale
Hard to say, hard to tell
The story of us
Hard to say, hard to tell
Sometimes I wish you could forget about me so you didn’t have to tell the stories
Hard to say, hard to tell
The stories that bring a slight twinge to your ears and eyes
Hard to say, hard to tell
I apologize that I’m difficult to get rid of
Hard to say, hard to tell

It’s simple... isn’t it?
The way it was supposed to be, right?
Following protocol and finishing orders.

Let’s break the rules.
Let’s be different.
Let’s stop living in everyone else’s eyes

and be us.

You catch on quickly, dear.  
Glad I found someone who likes to break the rules just as much as I do.

Today at work
     I was having a really weird day
          One of those... “I really wish I wasn’t here but instead with you, sleeping” day

I had this really rude customer come up to the service desk
     And after being there for 6 hours, you can imagine how tired I was already
          It isn’t my fault that you are not only illiterate but also a waste of my valuable minimum wage time

I put my head in my hands for a brief moment
     And this smell.  This glorious, indescribably, amazing, memory purging, beautiful smell came to me
          This smell made me think of three things.

My new salute
     The taste that my lips carried throughout the night
          And the ruby of your cheeks that matched the softest and most irresistible lips mine have ever touched

It must’ve been at least a five minute daydream
     That poor customer must’ve been so confused
          But ****, it was completely worth it

I can’t apologize enough for your situation
Hillary Swank is definitely not one of my favorite actors.
Michael Buble hasn’t met you yet apparently either
River can’t wait for you to get home and neither can I
Does it get tiring reading poems about you?
Can’t help it, but I’ll try my hardest dear
If you were a Jedi, your lightsaber would be green
One O’ Clock isn’t my best time

This is a just war we’re fighting together
Somewhat of an accurate estimate of how we feel about each other
But still, we act naturally
Such a calm storm in the making
I mean, we are clearly confused, right?
I get that you’re simply defensively striking
Is there a random pattern here that I’m missing?
Or am I simply one of your deliberate mistakes?
It’s ok, I’ve come to a preliminary conclusion
Sweetheart we are the definition of typically unusual
And I will gladly **confirm the rumor

I believe in you, yes I do
I believe in Mountain Dew
I can’t quite say how or why
I can’t quite do it or I’ll die
You want me here but I can’t stay
I know for a fact I’m a really good lay
Take your drink to the other room
Or else my ego will spell your doom
Go **** around with your new guy friend
I’m no longer going to race or contend
I’m drunk right now, as you can see
So please be nice when I cease to be

I draw on your back, you play with my hair
I take a shower, you stretch endlessly on the bed
I try not to look, but **** girl
I can’t exactly hide this ****-eating grin on my face
It’s a good thing you don’t notice... ****.
Oh well, back to the old drawing board
I come out, you stretch again
All I see is pure... beauty.
Staring me in the face.
You like when I notice that.
Star Wars shirt before I go to work with no underwear on?
******.
Now you’re just trying to **** my **** up ...
And today I’ll be at work...
Thinking...
About how hot of a roommate I have...
and ******* STAR WARS.

For once I met someone as clumsy as me.
I am always falling.. Tripping even.
But I was too clumsy this time
and so were you.
You stumbled over my past,
And I fumbled into your mind.
I stepped into your soul
And you slipped into my life.
You tripped over my presence,
And we collapsed into each others' hearts.

I'm glad you're as clumsy as me.

My kitten is asleep right next to my lap
So I turn right over to take a nap
Can’t do that now because you’re in bed
So I turn right over and shake my head
“Can I have some cold water please?”
So I turn right over and put on a sleeve
The morning light shines bright in my head
So I turn right over and fall out of bed
You laugh at my stupidity, me the floor
So I turn right over and walk to the door
I hear your laughter throughout the house
So I turn right over and stay quiet as a mouse
You think that I could quite possibly be dead
So I turn right over and get my *** back in bed
I really need to take a steaming hot shower
So I turn right over and to you, pretty as a flower
I can’t seem to say exactly what it was about this morning
So I turn right over and laugh cause you look stupid as hell when you try to pretend that you don’t notice it when I get in the shower with you with my shorts still on because I was so distracted by how beautiful you are and completely forgot that clothes were what divided the space between my AXE shampoo and the razor that you stole from the pack that I bought because I actually borrowed your razors the other week because I was out and really needed to shave because I thought I was going to get laid later on the night but I didn’t so it’s all good.

FLASH
“Blame it on my ADD baby...”
My fingers graze from the brim of your jeans and drag from the crevice
between your upper thigh and stomach to your batman bellybutton ring and pull
your skin between your cleavage to the base of your neck while my teeth
drag along your bare chest, laid out before me.

FLASH
“Learn to take your **** with a big-*** smile...”
I’m shooing the dogs out so you can get ready for work and I can stand back
like I always to do take in every inch of you while I can.  The smoothness of your
flawless skin, your beautiful back that seems to greet me more often now, that
adorable smile, and most of all the eyes that made the world stop.  Well, mine hasn’t
started back since.

FLASH
“I’m half the man that you think that I have been...”
Driving.  More.  You’re telling me a story about this band that you like and
I listen like a little child because your stories, no matter the subject, always capture
my full attention.

FLASH
****, I need to get some sleep before I never sleep again, because I’m thinking
of everything I love about you.

I never have really like coffee shop love stories anyway
So it’s a good thing that this isn’t that
Who are we kidding?  
This is a four-way hexagon CIA basement with black lights love story
People see right through us, and me, sorry I can’t help that
If only there was someone there to reassure me that you actually care
I mean, I know you do, but ****** it’s too good to be true
You are too good to be true
I get it, but just for my sanity
Tell me who I am?
I’m wandering through the basement with the two others and the hexagon is completed
The CIA is about to kick me out so please hurry and tell me
I need to know
I normally don’t call favors
But you owe me that much dear

You didn’t ground me, I’m just hitting a “social speed bump”
The room we share together isn’t messy, it just has “restrictive passage”
You weren’t late coming into my life, you just had a “rescheduled arrival time”
When I lean down to kiss you it isn’t because I’m tall, I’m simply “vertically enhanced”
You aren’t shy, you’re just “conversationally selective”
As much as I say you nag me, you don’t.  You’re just “verbally repetitive”
Yeah I need directions because I don’t get lost, I just “investigate alternate directions”
Yeah I’m falling for you, I think to be politically correct it’s “I love you"

The music sails across my ears, not in.
Sail.
Blame it on my ADD baby.
Odd is what this is.
I went in the kitchen looking for Papa Johns.
And you.
I only found a closed computer and empty counter.
I guess you heard the music too?

Night number ... ****.
I get it, I’m done for in your eyes.
Please stop doing this to me.
I’m serious.
Don’t drag me along through everything.
This isn’t how I want this to end.
Sleepless night number ... ****.
Why?
Why?


******* why?

When I think of that night
I have a sour taste in my mouth
You want me here and there but I can only take so much
I can only be here and only take so many punches
BUT
Sweetheart I’m no Superman

I wish I was invincible so we could be together
Maybe it’s best that we aren’t
I wish that I could fight like you do
BUT
Sweetheart I’m no Superman

You say you care and you say you love
But I can’t see past your wall of mistrust
You want me to be a hero but that’s a wall I can’t get through
BECAUSE
Sweetheart I’m no Superman

I’ve dealt and stayed for as long as I could
This can’t be the end for us
I don’t want to say this and I can’t believe I am
BUT
Sweetheart I’m no Superman

I’m loved and wanted now, needed
Cared for and let in to help like I should
I wanted you so bad
BUT NOW
Sweetheart, I’m her Superman

You see this secret side of me
Something I was never meant to be

With you I tried so hard to save this sacred place
But never getting there is my disgrace

Sometimes I feel like you’re watching me move
In and out but always and never to soothe

I wish I were lazy enough to do what I want
But alas I can never catch the ‘punt’

Syllabus to dexterous minus the outstanding wit
Equals my life with you and why I have this need to quit

You’re my Calvin and I’m your Hobbes
You lead me to adventures that will change our lives as we know it
I follow, the faithful companion, always ready to assist in any way
During the day we plot the Yukon and sail the seven deadly seas
At night we fend off terrible monsters under the bed and the adults who try to ruin us
I never leave your side, and if I do you very well know where I am
Best friend no matter what, guardian until the bitter end
We stand tall together and have each others’ back
We are two of the best friends in the universe
No one has anything on us
The child at heart and the tiger in spirit
You think we’ll ever break apart?
Yeah... me either.

My taste in music *****
Some days I can’t get through Warriors of Rock
Sometimes I can’t even cook the Ramen right,
    you still interested?
I have a hole in the right ***-cheek of my favorite shorts
Family Guy is my favorite show
I hog the blankets when I cuddle
     still interested?
I don’t get angry, instead I get super passive aggressive
I think that the law is over-rated but I follow it regardless
Sometimes I zone out so bad that I miss entire conversations
     you sure you still interested?
I love watching musicals and independent films
I work in retail and make minimum wage
Some days I want to ****.  A lot.
     haven’t run away yet?  Wow.
Other days I like to just curl into a ball and pretend to fall asleep
I think you’re sexiest without make-up
Although, I don’t mind it on you at all
     I can’t believe you’re still here...
I use AXE shower gel and wash my hair daily
I’m insane.  Literally.
I think Star Wars is the ****.  If you don’t, we aren’t meant to be
     Oh, you stepped toward the door...
I don’t sleep and when I do I think of her
I wear my heart and my mind on my sleeve
And I can’t seem to let go
     yeah... I didn’t think you’d stay.

I asked you a question...
Something like,
“Will you marry me and cook for me every day?”
You replied.
“No. I will not cook for you every day.”
With a hell yeah and a smirk on my face
I’ll take that as well

Adventure **!  Allons-y!
Come on dear, follow me.

I don’t have a TARDIS, that I regret
But I beg you don’t give up on me yet

I can take you low, and I can take you far
Closer to your destiny, come out of the dark

Time and space are closer than you think
But please dear God, don’t ever blink

You might miss something of importance, you know
Just keep remembering that one day I'll show

My sonic screwdriver will guide the way
To a life for us, a life of play

I may not be The Doctor but dear there’s nothing we can’t do
My companion you’ll be, on the dark side of our moon

High and low, to travel to stay
I can’t ever forget that face

You and I are connected, please tell me you see
The Doctor and Companion, you and me

A look can tell you a lot of things.
Between lover and haters... or even those maybe laters
Suffocate or dislocate, procreate or...
Not.

Is life really that simple?
The literal hammer-time or a coke with lime
Friendly fire or boy for hire to do your...
Dishes.

Not complicated at all.
Can we really look into the eyes of our lover and see all that we wish to happen?
Or is it a simple diversion, conversion into...
Nothingness.

I tend to see it simply.
I care about you, we like to **** and otherwise **** on...
Lollipops.

Take out of it what you will, but I’m not going to change or leave
I like it here, hunting deer, and smelling fear in
Love.

Daddy,
     I caught this fish just like you showed me.
Daddy,
     I can do it by myself... oh wait... ok maybe not.  Thanks for helping me.
Daddy,
     I’m nine, so that means I can get 15 dollars for my chores and not 10... right?
Daddy,
     I love my puppy.  I think I’ll name him Champ.  Cause he’s my Champion just like you.
Daddy,
     I’m not crying cause it hurt... ok... maybe I am.  You can hug me as long as you want.
Daddy,
     Thanks for taking me to get my license.   Don’t worry I won’t drive too much.  Today.
Daddy,
     I know my Drum Major uniform is expensive... thanks for buying it anyway.
Daddy,
     I know he broke up with me but you can call off your buddies from his house.  You’re the only man in my life.
Daddy,
     Thanks for helping me learn how to change the oil in my car.
Daddy,
     I’ll be home around midnight.  Don’t worry about me, I’ll be with Paige.  Thanks for the extra movie money.
Daddy,
     I’m sorry I can’t stay in this house with mom.  She’s going to be the death of me.  Oh... you too?
Daddy,
     I found a great place to live and you’ve always liked Paige... she’s me roommate.  Love you too.
Daddy,
     Thanks for getting the rest of my stuff together.  I’ll come see you soon and rescue you from mom like you always rescued me from the monsters in my closet.
Daddy,
     What do you mean you don’t remember me moving out?
Daddy,
      Please... please don’t leave me alone in this world.

That stupid hat.

I can't believe I brought it.
What am I, 12?

But I have to thank that stupid hat,
it brought me to you.

I really don't get it, honestly
How could you even stand to be around me?
But all in good time, you've made me understand
That this is going all according to plan.

You liked me, he loved me, he hated me, and I was ...
CONFUSED.

Should I blame you?
No.
Am I blaming you?
Yeah.

If it weren't for you I'd still have that **** hat.

Red light
Far too bright for my taste
Captain and Coke
Far too light for my taste
Ion oscillating fan
Far too cold for my taste
My raggedy car
Far too old for my taste
Battlefield 3 in action
Far too gamer for my taste
My thoughts of you
Far too ... Perfect

Smiling from ear to ear
One dimple and all

Yeah, it’s completely your fault


And you like it.

I brought a nice girl over, you see
Multi this and that but not for me

It made you cringe at the slightest thought
Another look from me you outright sought

Embarrassed was I to look at you
Without that look you already knew

Why this nice girl was in my bed
Not nice words you would have said

We toss and turn, no not you and I
But that thought constantly crossed your mind

How far did I get and how stupid I am
You’re my Shepard and me the lamb

My tongue did not go where you thought it did
The bathroom I did go, my five minute bid

That should have been your sign for you to know
My lips did not cross and my fingers didn’t go

Please forgive me love, I really am sorry for this
For Shallow is my middle name.

To take this tortured, tangled test
Makes me mock my many marks
Leaving loathsome love letters
You yearn, yet yielded your yelping
Words with warnings wearing weapons
Lips like lovely lakes leading lowly leaves
Down doorways, driving dreary dreams
Away and abdicating abrasive accusations
Breaking but bowing breezes bark beatitudes
Simple songs sail seemingly softer seeing such symmetry
Carnage can’t conceal captivating culprits
Even eager enemies envy enormous egos
Fake falling faster from frightening fails
Having heart helps heroes
Greater gears going give gifts
Just jeer, justified

Because none of this makes sense to you anyway.

A simple spot
On the dot

Hoity-toity
Love me never

Can’t give up
Don’t give a ****

Who you are
Or how far

Crazy duck
Tiny ****

Big cats
Last naps

Women floor
Who’s the *****?

Music to me
Death to bees

Can’t tell
Got mail?

Fall through grass
Nice ***

How to tell
Dude, it’s a Dell

Apple time
Tile grime

Falling faster
Lonely *******

Stop the flow?
You stubbed your toe

And the clouds moved more like smoke in the wind
than actual clouds

They painted my wordless emotions across a starry night
only to tell my untold story

My eyes traced their subtle patterns across the sky
and I realized that they traveled longer than I

Each burst of stars further than the one before it
and far more familiar than the first

For in this starry night I saw your starry eyes
and I came to the conclusion I wouldn’t have noticed this without you

Thank you for making me see my starry night
and I will repay you with my nighttime soul of this starry wanderer

The moon does in fact, hang as high as it used to.
I meet eyes with Orion and I take a glance and the dipper.
Each to their own I said to myself, each to their own.
Flat ball.
******.
Need to buy and actual soccer ball.
I have a feeling this won’t be the first of these long nights.
The ground is wet, I didn’t make the goal.
Not that I was good at soccer anyway, or at least the active part of soccer.
Oh, well maybe if I spend countless days on the couch I’ll fade away.
Not that you’d notice.
Never.
Laughing while I was gone in misery, eh?
I will make second base my home.
Anywhere away from this madness.

This will be the last time.
The last time you’ll be reminded of us.
Of what we had, did, and wanted to do.
It’s quite bitter now, and for that I apologize.
I should have left it alone when I had the chance.

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t regret us.
Not for one ******* second.

I regret that I wasn’t the one that could make you happy.
I regret that I wasn’t the one who could brighten your day with one smile.
I regret that I couldn’t bring you to where you needed to be.
After all, you did all that for me.

Regardless of miles or paths, I will never regret you, or us.
I will never regret our **** days in your bed being playful.
I will never regret the kisses and hugs that brought my world back into focus.
And I will never regret you.

I removed the necklace and rings for one reason.
I can’t live with the constant reminder that I lost the best part of my life.

Truly, I will miss you.
But you need more than just me.

So fly and be free from this cage of moral incompetency.
Now, I give you permission.

Permission to live freely.

Now, go.
And please don’t forget me, or the time I spent by your side.
For I will never truly be completely gone from there.
Only temporarily misplaced, and ready for when you may need me once again.

What is happening to me?
My lips tingle in anticipation
and my stomach has butterflies, as usual.
My eyes wander, but not very far
and I slip into a thoughtful coma about how good this will taste.
Oh, hot wings.  I love you.

Fingers slide through my short, damp hair and
Grab.
A slight twinge of revenge comes with a grasping of your ribcage
Air is in short supply in this room because you’re gasping for it
Your bare skin is intoxicating and flawless as my mouth sails across it
Ruby lips, soft and wet embrace my neck as your teeth join in
I pull your warm body closer so I can have complete control as I wrap my arms and surround you
Your bare chest is so inviting, so my mouth meets them in a slow, seductive motion
Gasp.
My tongue moves farther down yet to your beautiful smooth stomach that I oh so enjoy nibbling
Backs are rolling, hips are shifting because you know my next stop
I open your pale thighs and start at the knee where my lips slowly kiss every inch of you
I have settle between your powerful legs that jokingly attempt to choke me out
Elbows down, head down as well
Nails scrape my bare skin and I move in deeper, as if that were possible
Grab and gasp.
My neck makes a perfect target for your hands because they thought of nothing else to grab
The gasps become more frequent as do the grabs and scrapes
Next target
I slide in ever so easily because my work is evident
Grab.
You pull me in for a kiss so you’ll be quiet because there are guests in the house
It’s funny to see you try so hard
You wrap those strong legs around my waist and your arms around my burly neck to hold on for dear life
Bursts of ecstasy and desire flow through the room and we can’t stop for anything or anyone
As you turn over I can’t help but notice your beautiful and captivating....
eyes.
Through the dark room they beg me not to stop
Once again my task of pleasing you is far from over
Your smooth and graceful back is staring at me so I lean down to meet it with lips and teeth
More gasping and those glorious sounds escape from your mouth which let me know of my next target
Breathing is still flowing, however blood is not
You’re in your own high little world and our rocking motion becomes more fierce
Profanities and carbon dioxide escape your mouth as you collapse under me
I undress and slide into bed with you, our bare bodies as one
My fingers intertwined in yours, steady and calm
I wrap my arm around your waist but only for a few minutes before I can’t resist drawing on your back
First a house, then a tree, then I wrote my name, and then yours
Your steady breathing indicates you are asleep so I curl my arm back under yours and listen to the heartbeat of the mystery woman which sounds somewhat familiar
But I can’t place it
Oh well

Your friends love to ‘protect’ me
It’s sad that I don’t need ‘protecting’
If I did need ‘protection’

I would have bought a ******.

Inhale.
Exhale.
Inhale.
Exhale.

Blurs above me
Blurs within me
Fur behind my leg
Leaves against my arm

I get this feeling that
This is how it was meant to be