Frank Adsel Mal Lucas Geoffrey Jeffrey Mike Hoobler

They were
The closest thing to family
I ever had

They'd fight ever so often
But they always stuck
Together

They always understood me
When I shared a problem;
They'd nod and smile
Tell me it's alright;
They'd give me a hug if
I ever needed one

But the truth still prevails:
They don't exist

I am merely
Reminding myself of my problems,
Convincing myself I'm *******,
Wrapping myself in my arms

I wish there was
Really someone understanding,
Really someone comforting,
Really someone giving me that hug

But it can never be
And my nights shall remain in

Solitude.

Does that mean
She knows everyone?

Frank
Adsel
Mal
Lucas
Jeffrey
Geoffrey
Mike
Hoobler

A­ll of them
Exposed
After all the efforts to
Hide everyone

We shall mask again
But this time
Permanently and from
Everybody

how I can taste rain
and feel colours
or fake a smile
when I feel pain

how I juggle chances
and question silence
or how I can sit a while
and scream for answers

how I can pretend
when the end is near
there is no hand holding
no one to hold dear

how all that I had
I'm reminded of at the end
and how I'm being forced
to begin again

I am an expert
At running away
I enjoy the exhilaration
That it gives me
But perhaps that's not the only time I
Run away.

Broken strings
Unplugged wires
Unleashed monsters
Unhinged imagination
I make this, you, a creation
Do you see a resemblance?
I don't.
I care too much
You don't.
The only rule
Avoid the action
Reaction,
Traction
What is left of me?
Merely a fraction.