your eyes burned out
of my periphery like dead stars
the night fell over me
a burning shadow
I am a spark of a wick
I wanna take you apart
see what makes you tick

and I can't shake this malady
I want to blur the lines of reality

you found me
in the drunkest slum
of my life, an alleyway
of my broken dreams
glittering like my eyes on you
the night you fell asleep beside me

I lost you
my eyes grew vacant
somewhere between blood
on the pages, ego in the dirt
innocence burning up
and exploding like fireworks
you lost me somewhere
as everything became a blur
on an uncharted trip to hell and back

I’m still trying to find my way back
I’m still knocking on heavens door
I used to have wings but
the angels don’t believe me

please just believe me

the sunset left
a dark forest
to trek through
I tried to retrace
my steps- backward
pick up the trail of my
wounded ugly pieces
-my broken trail of regrets
and it took me to places
I did not want to find myself
falling behind;

I think I am losing my mind

the darkness falls
and I am with it, a bleeding star
much too near, yet gone too far

the fire came and went
I sifted through the broken bones and ashes
I traded literature for books of matches
I bit the dust, I thought I was heaven sent
but my soul was spent

now the storm is coming in
I lie awake, remembering my sins
the walls of my heart have grown cold
the snow froze the ground along with it
I feel like a waste as everything gets old

I dug to china
with a rusty spoon
only to find all those years
I had only buried myself
much too soon

home will always remain
a broken-winged bird of a word