depression. its a battle i once faught
not really, but thats what i once thought
the truth is, its never gonna leave me, cause its always gonna need me
i still get down and always will, so when i do, its always gonna feed me
the world wants me to fight it, to beat it away
to let it know that it has no place to stay
but thats not true, cause its a part of me
and accepting thats like paying the hardest fee
so taking a pill each morning might help me see things 'the right way'
but its still gonna surface, not like each day can be the bright day
i know thats it normal, and i'm leaning to embrace it
rather than fighting and pushing, trying to replace it
cause when i get down, man i fall through the floor
i lock my heart in a room, and it breaks down the door
emotions are living, they want to spread wings and soar
and i know thats its true, cause i feel them right to my core

I've never met a person who could make me angry as quickly as you.
But when I need someone to make me laugh unexpectedly- you  do that too.
Mom always told us, when we were certain we couldn't be related,
That we'd never stop needing each other. A sibling couldn't be traded.
We often joked that hospitals switch babies all the time.
But deep down I knew, that even with your very worst parts, you were mine.
It's been quite awhile since I heard you laugh.
I find myself replaying conversations wishing they would last.
Missing all the things so uniquely you
Wishing I'd known sooner that what Mom said was true.
You're more like me than either of us could have known.
Now I see that losing you is like losing my only way home,
Because I have a connection to you unlike any other.
It was unavoidable. You're my Big brother.

When I first thought of typing these words
The message I sought to convey,
Was that without knowing the problem,
"I'm hurting" isn't easy to say.
Upon some further reflection,
I probably could articulate my upset,
But that would leave too much open for inspection.
I don't want to be told that I am mistaken,
or even that I am correct.
What if my dream is left shaken?
Instead I'll suffer without going on trial.
I'll keep my fear to myself.
Let us hope I'm not in denial.

I hate you
but you love me
and all you wanna do
is please me.

Your shaking up my head
twisting my thoughts
into tiny pieces
that can't be read.

"But i love you baby"
is all you say
Just go with it
it'll all be okay.

We waste time
like a broken clock
Tick...tock.

And when the time comes
I won't be there
Cause i've been lying too...
but you were always too drunk
to even care.

Our lies that were exchanged
never meant a thing
Especially when i used to say
"of course IM in Love with You darlING"
and you're my everything.

We get so attached
not only to ourselves
but the people
that surround us.

The time that we spend together
just can't be captured into a photograph
All the memories that we remember
won't last forever.

At some point in our lives
we have to let go
Just let the person that you love the most
slip right through your fingers
only to turn into a ghost.

What was your perfect future
is now a dark past
you never know
when it could be the last.

Whether it's a last kiss
or a last goodbye
forever and always
will you be dearly missed.

Take chances while you have them
don't let them slip away
Speak the words that you desire
'cause it'll be the last words
that I'll hear you say.

take away the war let us live in peace
make the world a happy place let the killing cease
let us love again and we can live as one
together hand in hand we can make our lives go on
cast the war aside and put it in the past
let us live in harmony and live in peace at last

love it is a nature and it lies within
when you meet that special one your love it will begin
you will feel emotions and a beating in your heart
to let you know that love is just about to start
its such a lovely feeling and there to let you know
something that you feel when love begins to grow.