He liked her but she told him she was busy. He got the hint and kept a distance. Someone was always mad or holding a grudge trying to turn him into someone he's not.
Be this way or you'll get treated different. Or you're this way so let me treat you bad. Trying to justify their misconduct. In your business instead of tending to theirs. They'd rather push you out destroy your happiness than be accepting allowing you to grow.
He'd smile they'd stare at him with intense anger and hatred. He preferred to be alone sick of others assuming rather than just asking. Trying to narrate his behavior dictate his mood. He wanted them to stay, but it's easier; if they just left.
Becoming emotional detached was more common than getting your hopes up. Tiredof being disappointed and let down by people he thought cared about him.