2 better days
of better ways
too bigger dreams
in better words
to the express
of my renditions
in wish-less missions
to infringe in fantasy
as i write out the years
of fearless tears
and scream
in happiness
and chant
of the blasphemers
laugh
in the murmurs
of drunken
entrepreneurs
admiring
sewer structures
plucking
the sutures
of my missed maneuvers
clueless
in my bruise-less
cutsss
toofwisss
and still strutting my luck
in abrupt
catastrophes
compliant
to the clause
of impunity
to rhyme-less scrutiny
to sooth the dream
for today
bolstering
the blame
of melancholy messiahs
playing pariah
on xbox
they gonna fry ya
through savvy ****** talk
with their mouth on your ****
but their ears on the block
to fulfill the onslaught
of a distraught
goofball
in lock
about to drop
calm
in happy bombs
of debilitating
shock
you cannot
talk
when you are
smiling
you cannot galk
when you are
smiling
violently
happy
with ******
knives
fixed to enrich
the lives
of the many
i have plenty
in the trunk
just bend down
and look
ill blend in the boom
of bass
thump
ding
the second thump
closes the trunk
strap up
with me
be blunt
don't want
a ninja on the run
in the sun
of reputation
1 finger away
from
nation-less
the mostest patientest
lyrifi$t
a bu3ro$hit
to 0bl1terat3
the glUt3nou$
of thy most muTtonest
of ch0ps
i cropp3d
the plopp1ng rainb0ws
of raindrop$
and Stopped  .
thE hoPped up ho0ligaNnry
of my N1njary
in my socks
sometimes i rock
but mostly not
i wont stop
until outlined
in chalk
until the froth
from my lips
blinds me
in trips
crossed
with a 5th
into thine own
obscurity
from the groan
of maturity
and the **** flapping
of insecurity
i try lyrically
to be free
and stop rhyming
at least stop whining
just trying
to do my thing
dost thou heart not sing
when im plowed
within the silver lining
devout
with a little shining
came hither
to where the sliding turned to slithering
delivering
my ministry
of infantry
infamously
into comedy
applauding me
in my idiocy
its daunting
in simplicity
marinade me
in a massacre
or a major disaster
watch me blow my ***
in haughty claims
of clogged
alpha/beta waves
enslaved
to a pre paid card
and charged
for helping a man up
in a corrupt
city of butts
entrusting
my paychecks to the *****
of never was
im riding the short bus
until she blushed
and brushed
the *** from her mouth
im gross
a little weirder than most
i boast
in defeat
i facebook
over tweet
as if there be a choice
as i crumple
the invoice
and rejoice
in knowing
i know nothing
i'm [Esc@ping]

i dont know much but if theres one
thing i know its that the feeling i
get when im with you is something
i cant put into words no matter how hard i try
but i will try
i just hope you know that your hands around
my waist was a better antidepressant
than any doctor could prescribe
and even though the world is so big
all my thoughts are about you
theyre always about you

the first time we kissed you initiated it
you were nervous (i think)
and i.. i wanted you.
so badly
to hold your hand
to feel your heart beat
to touch your lips with mine
i hadnt kissed anyone in over 6 months
i lost count; a blur of lips
and tastes,
and people who never even mattered even then in a fruitless attempt
to find a pair that rivaled yours
about a month ago, you reappeared
the second time we kissed (after about 2 yrs) i initiated it
and. it. was. wonderful.
in the morning you asked if you could kiss me again anytime soon
if it was alright
what i said was yes
but what i meant was
in the second kiss i realized yours are the only lips i could ever want for the rest of forever

ive met love three times

the first time i met love,
i was in 8th grade
and i was 13 years old
and love used to stare at me from across the quad and
try and find me after school to attempt to kiss me goodbye
"until tomorrow, my dear"
i didnt know how i felt towards love at the time
and i was 13 years old and didnt know what to do
with the budding feelings i was growing
so i tried to push love away at first
but he wasnt going anywhere
love cared for me
and love made of my heart a home
a year and 1 month goes by and
i stepped on my love's heart
it was the dumbest thing i could have ever done
it was all my fault my first love left




2 days ago my love returned
ive been so hopeful something might happen
maybe tonight we will meet in that coffee shop [see below]

i dont know much but i do know one thing for sure and that is the feeling i get when im with you is so indescribable, and no matter how hard i try i will never be able to explain the feeling but i will try my hardest. and i will love you the best that i can even if thats not quite good enough, im just praying that it will make you feel something. my feelings fumble over every word that has ever fallen from your lips.
the night you told me you loved me again i triple backflipped off the tallest building in the country. how could i have been so naive to notice that you cant fall up. you cant jump without coming back down. now im just a crack in the sidewalk clinging to the weeds and other outcasts. they say dont step on me or you'll break your mothers back but its only because i miss the feeling of tracing your spine and ive never thought about you without tremors in my hands. i cracked my knuckles on your door and now the sky is bleeding
and im in love with you

theres something about your first love
something you will never be able to let go of
youre always going to love that person, always going to want them
theyre always going to mean something to you and
theyre always going to wake you up at 3am from a nightmare
because you were dreaming about them
dreaming about the person you let slip from your fingers
and losing that person was the worst thing you could have ever done
and you regret it every day
well that probably explains why im always waking up in the middle of the night screaming and choking on seawater
[you are my favorite nightmare]
because you reminded me of the ocean
even though your eyes are brown
i can get lost in you forever
floating in the middle of the sea (you)
and i wouldnt mind drowning in that sea because
that would mean id get to spend the rest of my life with you
id get to spend the rest of my life getting lost in your eyes
that remind me of the ocean even though they are brown
[you drive me crazy]
and thats why i always get the sudden urge to swim out to sea
and stay there forever floating and
listening to the waves youve created
but the gentle waves
the ones that i love
the ones that i believed were your way of telling me you loved me
[do you still love me?]
now i understand that the reason there was a hurricane in my heart
named after you
its because i broke yours, isnt it?
and that was your way of hurting me back, wasnt it?
[i never stopped loving you]

my love for you could move mountains and no i dont literally think it could move mountains but it would be pretty **** close. its like you have me under a spell and im not exactly complaining because it gives me a sense of belonging and it makes me feel like i have a purpose: loving you. the only thing that has me worried is that more often than not the things i think are only in my head and dont exist outside of it so im always going to be looking for reassurance that this is real and not just my mind playing a trick on me. i would move mountains to see your smile because recently its become my favorite sight to see and no i wouldnt literally move mountains but id be pretty **** close. i dont know what to do with all these feelings i have and usually i dont do anything but i dont think i should let a feeling this strong go to waste. there are always mountains that need moving and i want to be the one to move them.

youre so unlike
anything ive ever
experienced
when you look at me
everything blurs
except those brown eyes
that remind me of the ocean
im so entranced
in everything about you
but, oh god
when you say my name
the way your lips
form the letters m-i-a
oh god
i ******* love you

day3
they say lighting never strikes the same place twice but i can feel it jolt through my bones every **** time you smile at me, the pain will never feel duller but im too strong to walk away from my only source of happiness which is you i hope you know.

day 12
im in love with you and i know im young and maybe i shouldnt admit it so readily but if i had to choose between the sun and your eyes, then i guess we would have to spend the rest of our eternity together in darkness.

day 20
you tore my world apart and offered me your own, you showed me im only as precious as the world says is am and right now im standing on a flooding bridge with an entire storm raging around my neck and that storm is these strong feelings i have for you but you tell me its ok to breathe as long as i dont speak.
and then you tell me you love me

day 27
i had bruises on my body from where i was punished to feel like i was nothing. but i also had bruises from when you wrote love letters on my skin and i cant tell which are which anymore but i love yours because the bruises you made are from love. im starting to feel like hell so often i think im turning into it. but you tell me you are here now and everything is going to be ok and that you love me. and nothing is my fault and you still love me.
you love me.

I had a dream where I purged you of technology
(There was a beach at our feet)

I had  dream where I     met you\
you dissolved away in the surf—
pixel by pixel

Today I killed another of my lovers,
And drove to nowhere in particular
To taste the taste of air
When I am free.

I do it every few years -
It takes an hour or two until
I'm lost among the hills,
Then peace finds me...