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PaperclipPoems Mar 2017
I wrote of Demond's that invaded me. Demond's that corresponded with my brain and danced with my soul. Demond's that abducted my heart and blinded my eyes.

I wrote of Darla, my idealistic alter ego. The one who dreams of romance and treads passionately towards it. The other girl inside of me who forgives and cries without remorse or regret.

I wrote of heartbreak and abuse from past lovers. The torment of a fractured heart and the loneliness that was left. The neglect from my childhood and the pains of independence. The confusion of men and the unanswered question of "How will I ever heal".

I wrote of my habitual infidelity and thirst for love. My attraction to danger and lust for something more. My deepest desires and most remembered experiences. My darkest fantasies mixed with a little chaos.

In all of this, I still feel the need to say more. Somewhere deep inside I crave to tell the world what's on my mind and written in my heart. Even in knowing I'll never say it all, I will always try.
McKenna Carrig Feb 2014
there's this girl with the pink hair, she has this never ending feeling of depression and despair
She's got this smile, that outshines the whole entire sky, but no one knows she has scars that start at her wrist, and trail down her hips, and end on her thigh.
Her eyes the colour of the ocean, she's reckless and outgoing, she's got this kind of mind, and she'll stay strong in person, but at night she wants to die.
her voice is loud and gentle, it makes the blue birds sing.
she can make me laugh, with all the right words and sayings. she says she's okay but I know instead of killing all the Demond's in her mind, herself is the one she's slaying.
Ashleigh Foster Jan 2016
There's a demon that I love,
I cant stop thinking about him
I only see him once a month
He says he is busy with
Work, but demons do lie
But I believe him anyway.
There's a demon that I love,
He hasn't told me his name
He said he wants to be with
me for an eternal life.
There's a demon that I love,
No thinks he exists, my
friends laughs at me, I
Hate it.
There's a demon that I love,
I tell him all of my problems
His Response was to ****
Myself, I asked him to take
My soul but he said no.
There's a demon that I love,
I killed my self for him.
McKenna Carrig  Dec 2013
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McKenna Carrig Dec 2013
I want so badly to slit my wrists,
to give you the chance to forget I even exist.
to put myself out of this misery and finally be alright
to take the blade to my wrists and let the Demond's win this fight.
to add to the scars and marks
to make you see that I'm stuck here In the dark
to wipe this smile off my face and replace it with the look of death that seems to fit right in place
over a hundred times I've slid the blade and kissed the worries goodbye
I've let the blood drip from my arms and the tears stream down my cheeks and I've also ****** it all up in front of you, just to make you feel like you're doing something right.
I wish you knew how much you hurt me, just by glancing at her.
you don't want me anymore and I know it's true. so let me take a few more pills, maybe a few drinks of *****, hang myself up from this rope because it's the only way I know how to cope.
McKayla  Dec 2013
Safe place
McKayla Dec 2013
Art is my safe place. Each night I lay here and shed my pain on the paper. Art is my safe place. Each word I write takes me to a brand new day. Art is my safe place. The inner Demond's I fight during the day, just seem to melt away. Art is my safe place my imagination always comes to save the day
Dennis Bielanski  Mar 2014
Dad
Dennis Bielanski Mar 2014
Dad
Its been fifteen years sense I last heard your voice
Taken from all of us you didn't  have a choice
Gone from this world in just a blink of an eye
Still you had to leave us God has the reason why

You where never perfect had some human flaws
Did some heavy drinking your Demond's were the cause
But still you held your head up had integrity
Deep down you were a softie but intimidated me

And the way you taught us was harsh and never fair
But the way you loved us showed how much you cared
No one could ever read you...you were no open book
Build you up or break you down with a single look

You had the skill to make life the hardest of it all
You were always there for us all we had to do was call
You know I really miss you my heart your still part of
I know that you still love me and watch me from above
anonymous  Jun 2014
Vacancy
anonymous Jun 2014
There's a darkness grown upon me
And threw my eyes you can see
The vacancy that I must feed
With melancholy and misery

Everything I'd be has escapes me
The eveil has erased me
The Demond's
They still chase me
And my great escape is apathy
PaperclipPoems Oct 2016
Getting older, learning to burry the past
Looking for men who may heal me fast
Found myself in bad situations, the kind that wake me from my sleep
When all I ever wanted was someone to love me
Bare hands kept me silent
No matter how far I go, I can't run from it

No nightmares again he said, and we close our eyes
But still I wake at 3am fighting the Demond's in the night.
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Skarlet D Nov 2014
I'm not perfect,
I'm not perfect,
I'm not perfect,
I wish i was,
I don't know why.
Sometimes i just want someone to understand,
To understand what i see,
To understand what i hear,
Understand i feel sometimes,
Witch is pain and always will be,
I act like nothing is bothering me,
That everything is OK when it's really not,
That is have no problems and joke about everything,
I admit i act like someone i'm not, Not sometimes but all the time,
When it comes to school
Or day dreaming,
But deep inside i want to cut myself to see if i am who i am,
To see if my pain is real,
To let all the tears out,
To let the truth come out,
To show people i'm not as strong as i am,
In my world,
Sometimes i just want to let lose and run,
Run away in the woods and never stop,
Or just die,
Death pops up in my head most of the time,
But not as much as it should,
I wish i just tell people who i really am,
Or even show,
Yea a lot of people think i'm crazy,
Weird,
Strong,
Weak,
Powerful,
Worthless,
Beautiful,
Ugly,
And a million other words,
I want people to live in my shoes just for five minutes,
Only five minutes,
And see how i feel every second of my life,
It only take five minutes to want to run away into that woods and never come back,
I want to be free from my Demond's and from my angels,
Just to see how it feels to be without any sprits fight over me,
Telling me what to do,
Telling me where to go,
What i should and shouldn't do,
Than go back,
Not to my life but to another world,
But to a world where i'm surrounded by angels,
And with people who understand,
Some people think they could relate to other peoples pain,
But I tell you now you can't,
You can't,
You just CAN'T


By: Me (Jocelyn Bennett)
ZACK GRAM  Mar 2019
"ZACKAMORTIS"
ZACK GRAM Mar 2019
I WANT TO DIE SO MUCH, TOUCH LUCK IM STILL BREATHING, WISH I WASNT!!! WAS LIKE NO SHE HADN'T, WHAT'S THE MATTER? WILL I EVER FEEL BETTER? KICK THE BUCKET WITH A LETTER NEXT TO MY BED. EYES WIDE OPEN WITH ***** WRITTEN ON MY FORE-HEAD, KNOWING I WAS BETTER OFF! TRUE STORY ABOUT A WASTED LIFE-LIVING A LIFE THAT WAS A BIG WASTE, SO MANY YEARS GONE AND PASSED, STILL FEEL STUCK IN THE PAST, CANNOT GET IT TOGETHER, WILL I EVER BE A WINNER INSTEAD OF BEING A LOSER? DEATH HAUNTS ME AND IT HURT'S SO BAD, IM GOING MADD, MY MIND IS GONE, FAR FROM HAPPY I AM SAD, SO BE GLAD, MY LIFES OVER, FORGET THE FUTURE, PRESENT AND PAST, IM IN LAST, ON BLAST, HELD IN A FULL BODY CAST, LOST SOME DEEDFUL CASH, KNOWN HOW TO MASH, BUT AM AFRAID TO GOTO MASS, I WONDER WHEN I DIE WILL I GOTO HEAVEN, OR WILL I END UP IN HELL, LINED UP WITH DEMONS I SEE THEM ALREADY AN FEEL GHOSTS, I WANT TO GO HOME, LORD TAKE ME AWAY, TIRED OF BEING ALONE, BORED AND ZONED, IVE GOTTEN ******, SILLY FACT IS I LIVE 4 DEATH, THE DAY I SEEN THAT MAN DIE IS THE DAY I SEEKED REVENGE, IN THE END, I WILL SHINE OR RIDE HIGH, MAYBE OFF MYSELF, GOD KNOWS, WANTING TO DIE, WONDERING WHY I AM ALIVE, EASY AS PIE, BLAST MY HEAD OFF, ONEDAY YOU WILL SEE ME, OH BABY I CANT LIVE LIKE THIS, MY LIFE IS RUINED, SO I ASK MYSELF WHY? WHY MUST I LIVE MY LIFE WHEN IM ALWAYS SICK AN TIRED, ALWAYS LONELY, ALONE ALL NIGHTS, ITS NOT RIGHT, LORD F MY POSITION, CAN I NOT JUST DIE, I CANT BREATHE ANOTHER BREATH WHEN MY WORDS GO UN-SPOKEN, MY HEART MIGHT EXPLODE, EXPOSED, WHEN WILL MY HURTS AN LOSSES GO, HOW MORE MANY DAYS ON MY OWN, UNTIL THEN, OUR PHONE WILL NEVER EXIST, FEELING LIKE A SIMP, WISH I FELT GROWN, LET 1 THING BE KNOWN, DEATH WILL CONSUME, ITS DEPRESSING, FULL OF WASTE, LEFT FOR DEAD IN A DITCH, THINGS FELL INTO PIECES, AFTER BEING DRAGGED CHAINED TO A TRAILOR HITCH, WELL WINCH, ILL GO FIRST, NO WORRIES IT WILL NEVER STOP HURTING, ITS THE WORST, MORE PAINFUL THEN BIRTH, I HATE THE EARTH, SO I GIVE IT ALL IM WORTH, IN THE END LOVE DOESNT WORK, SO MARK MY WORDS, HEAD TO HEELS, NO REASON EVER SENUATION KING OF AN UNDERGROUND, ITS WHERE I MAKE YOU LAY, YOUR LAST DAY, OUR LAST WORDS, FRESH FLOWERS ON YOUR GRAVE, YOU PAVED THE WAY BUT TODAY WE WILL SEE, FROM HEAVEN TO THE DEEPEST DEPTHS OF THE UNIVERSE, THE WRONG SEASON SHADOWED IN DARKNESS SUCOMMING THE LOVE AROUND ME, SO HARD TO SURVIVE WITHOUT YOU, MY WIFE OR THE ONE WHO CARES, AKA ME AND MINE, THE LAST SECOND MAKING IT TO THE FINISH, I WANT YOU LADY HAVE MY BABY, IM GOING CRAZY, SPEECHLESS BUT READ MY LIPS, LET ME GO ON LIVING, CORPORATE ISSUES, ILL OFFER YOU, THIS KEYBOARD GIVING A CODE LIKE THESE PAST 5 GRAPHS, ILL TEACH YOU BASIC MATH, YOU CANT EVEN THINK, GIVE YOU WOMAN, GIVE YOU A WHIRL, A TWIRL, A SWIRL, ALL AROUND THE GLOBE, THE AK SMOKE HIT WITH A BANG, GONE THRU THE ROOF, ACE COOPSWOOP, THE LATEST NEWS, MY LIVE BLOG, CALL CNN A BADASS IS IN THE BUILDING, SHIPS AND SQUADRANTS, IM SO POWERFUL, COROSPONDENCE CONSULTING, TALKING BIG GUNS, WATCH THE BUSH, WORK FOR ME OR LOSE PLACEMENT, YOUR GREED IS TROUBLING YOUR MONEY SITUATION, MAKING PAPER BILLS FAKE, I AM A PATRIOT, SO ICY FREEZING THE GREAT LAKES, TAKING ON PIKES PEAK, FREE IN THE COLUMBIAN STREETS, DROP A BIZZLE, LIKE 80'S CUBA, DONT SAY MY NAME TWICE, I HAVE ALL THE SUPPLIES, I WILL ABIDE, YOU WILL ATTEST, THE BEST, SPEAKING FOR THE REST, A PUBLIC ANNOUNCMENT AND FAIR WARNING, LISTEN OR GO MISSING, AMW, BUILDING SKY-SKRAPERS, MINING FOR PRECIOUS ORE, BURIED, LISTEN WITH NO AMOUNT, IM WILLING IM GOING TO WE ARE GOING TO, IM WILLING WERE STUNTING, LETS HAVE IT, GIVE YOU THE BIDDINGS, THE FUNDAMENTALS, PIVOT, PACK AND SHIP, NATIONAL CHAMPION TURNED INTERNATIONAL AWARD WINNER, OUT IN THE VALLEY WOMEN BADDER THEN HALLEY, VOICE LIKE CAREY, BABY WHAT YOU WANT ILL MAKE YOU A TRILLIONAIRE, HOLD STOCKS RUN SHARES WHO CARES, SKIN BARE, THAT FINE BODY PREPPED HAIR WITH A FLASH OF GLAMOUR AN TOUCH OF GLARE, BODY WORKING, TWIRLING, I WANT, TAKE A SEAT, ALL ACROSS ALL THE LANDS, IF YOU UNHEALTHY I MIGHT HURL SO GIRL GO ON SOMEWHERE OTHERWISE, PEARL, DIAMOND, YOURE MY LOVE, OUR FORCE, NEED/WANNA MAN LIKE ME IN YOUR LIFE, COME OVER HERE I WILL DO YOU RIGHT, BODYING YOU TONIGHT, WORKING THAT TIGHT, POLITE, **** SIDE, SO BE MINE, I GOT THAT NINE, PROTECT THE LIME LIGHT, WANNA REAL G LEMME TELL YOU HOW IT IS, ALRIGHT? TRUST ME, MY FUTURE WIFE, HEART BEAT CONNECTED TO A HEART BEAT WHAT A NICE FEATURE, YOURE SOAKED, ALL THAT WATER PUT IT IN THE AIR, AYE MILLI THIS A BILLI, ONLY GONNA SAY IT ONCE, IM ALREADY GONE AND MIGHT BE DONE, SO POP IT, ANYONE ASKS YOURE MINE, MY DIME, HANDS TOGETHER, A 1 NIGHT STAND TRANSFORMED INTO A LIFE LONG RELATIONSHIP, WE MAKE LOVE, GOT ME BEGGING DONT GO, THIS THE G WITH THE SECRET TRADE, GOT PICTURES OF YOU HAND ME THE ROPE, BETTER BELIVE, FOUR-FOUR, WOOD WHEEL SWERVING, BIG RIMS SPINNING, PAINT GLISTENING, BASS BUMPING, RIDING *****, MY NAMES NOT OUT, MY NAMES ON TOP, REPPING THA NAWF, A DEATH NOTE TO END RAP IN ONE DAY, BIGGER RANK, HIP-HOPS DEAD, LAYING IN YOUR BED 2 SHOTS 2 THE HEAD, 6 FEET AN STILL SINKING, GOT SLAUGHTER? NO COST, COOKING WHAT YOU WONT, LIKE MY FIRST VERSE, SO MUCH WORK, GATHERING ALL THE FISH IN THE SEA, BUYING BANKS, END YA, TRILL YA, PAY YA, EVEN MAIL YA, THATS WHY I CALL YOU TRICK, BIG BUSINESS I GOT A EXOTIC MOUTH, SPEAKING THE TRUTH, WOMAN I GOT SKILLS, IF MY DOUGHS YOUR DOUGH, TALKING OFF WITH THAT DRESS, GET RID THEM HEELS, DONT BE FAKE WITH A FAKE *** NAME, NICE LIPS, MAKING ME SHOUT, NO LOSS, CATCHING YOU SLIPPING, OFF WITH THEIR HEADS, GET OUTTA MY BED, HALF IS MINE, HALF IS YOUR'S, GIVE ME MY  NATIONWIDE TOURS, WHEN I SAY GOODMORNING BABY MOMMA, GOT YOU TO STOP CRYING SO DONT WORRY, I AM SORRY, THEY DONT STOP DROPPING, BABY BABY DONT FORGET, YOURE ANGELIC, THIS LOVES WAR, YOUR LIGHT GUIDES ME THROUGH THIS DARKNESS, IM DONE APOLOGIZING, SO RISE, RISE AN SHINE BRIGHT, A WOMAN WITH YOU WILL HAVE NO DRAMA, IM SO EXCITED, I CANT THINK, I MIGHT HAVE A HEART ATTACK, JUST 1 DAY, HOW THE HELL DID YOU THINK ILL HANDLE BABY MOMMA DRAMA? I ASK THE LORD, IS IT ME OR THE OTHER BROTHERS DOWN THE STREET? ANOTHER DAY AWAY, I JUST CANT, IN A CASKET IS THE ONLY WAY, NOTHING WILL TURN MY SITUATION IN A DIFFERENT DIRECTION,THIS DEMOND I SEE IS ATTACKING MY LOGIC, I LOVE YOU, MARRIAGE BABY IN A CARRIAGE THINKING ABOUT US AS ONE BURIED, NEXT TO ME THIS IS AMAZING, COULDNT BE MORE HAPPY, THE HURT IS REAL, THE DISTRESS IS A SACRIFICE ITSELF, I CANT EAT I CANT THINK, THIS LOVE IS KILLING ME, I DO BELIEVE I WILL NEVER CHEAT OR ESCAPE, OR EVEN IMAGINE THINGS GETTING WORSE, REALIZING NOW THIS A WRITTEN 24 HOUR MOVIE, LEGAL SMOKE, SCRAP UNDER THE TABLE, WISH YOU DIDNT HAVE TOO, BUT NEVER BE LIKE ME EVER, LOW-KEY VERY IMPORTANT INDIVIDUAL, CANT BE STOPPED MUST BE BAUGHT, DONT STOP, MAC PLAYA ****, BEATS ON A LIST, SO BACK-UP, WARRANTS FROM ATTITUDE, GOING TO STAY PAYED, LET THE BEAT DROP, LIKE A DON, A AMBASSADOR, A KING, OR A GOD, LETHAL ASSASIN, MAKING A KILLING, WORSE VILLIAN, MOST POWERFUL HERO, MOST DISCRIMATED LIVING, LIFE OF A TRILLIONAIRE, CANT HANDLE ME, DONT GET SHOT, I DONT CARE WHAT YOURE WORTH, YOU AINT WORTH THE ***, YOURE SO FAR BEHIND GET YOUR *** STARTED, TRY AND CATCH UP IM SO FAR AHEAD I PAVED THE WAY, NOT ONE PERSON TILL THIS VERY MINUTE CAN COMPETE, SO GET OUT OF MY PATH, GO DIG YOUR SHALLOW BURIAL SPOT, SLAVE, SOON TO BE ENCASTED IN YOURE OWN ****, SO CLEAN UP THIS ACT, EXPLAINING MY SITUATION, LET IT BE KNOWN, POSESSION IS LUCIFER, FROM CONCRETE PRINTS FATHER CALLED DON, ENDING WORLD DOUBT, I AM ALIVE, WITH THIS I NEVER DIE, SECRET SOCIETY SPEAKS FROM MY SOUL, THE FORCE OF FREIGHT TRAINS WANNA PLAY GAMES, 1 GALLON A MILE FOR WEIGHT, TOP TO BOTTOM FILLED MAKING YOU FAKE, MY PEOPLE'S LOCKED, TONS OF KEYS TO CITIES, PULL ANY CHICK, PULL ONE, PULL TWO, PULL THREE OR FOUR, NOT SCARED ONE BIT, GET IN A LICK, LIKE SLICK RICK, SLICK RICHS BROUGHT BACK ZACKS FIFTH WAR, THE REAL STARS AN STRAPS, GUN TO MY DOME, GIVE UP BEFORE YOU TRY AN THE TRIGGER FINGERS NOT MINE, I PUT ON AN SHOUT OUT I GOT BIZZLES, LONGEVITY OUTTA UPTOWN ATTRACTING ANYONE FROM ANY COUNTRY, DEAD FROM SICKNESS OR IN PAIN HELLS WITNESS, I PRAY SOME VOODOO RIGHT NOW, TO RISE THE FORESAKEN, WITH THIS HEX BRING OUT THE DEVIL.........
Z-PAC

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