I found my happiness at Ala Moana
I found my happiness getting lost in the pines
I found my happiness with the trains in Pensacola
I found my happiness stepping rhythms in time
I found my happiness with the wind at 6,000 feet
I found my happiness with the grass as my seat
I found my happiness at the seventh bridge
I found my happiness in the music that I dream
I found my happiness and I let out a sigh
I found my happiness getting lost in her eyes
I found my happiness being encumbered with snow
I found my happiness just waiting to go
I found my happiness in the laugh of an infant
I found my happiness in the smiles of old
I found my happiness in a crowded room
I found my happiness simply thinking alone
I found my happiness standing on my head
I found my happiness as the sun sets red
I found my happiness in a broken heart
I found my happiness was here from the start
I found my happiness without an end
I found my happiness surrounded by friends
I found my happiness knowing I am love
I found my happiness knowing I am
I found my happiness through failure and triumph
I found my happiness with every jump
I found my happiness through arduous endeavors
I found my happiness just being a giver
I found my happiness at the thought of forever
I found my happiness floating down the river
I found my happiness with no reason or rhyme
I found my happiness kissing the sunshine
I found my happiness in the awe of the stars
Although sometimes, I forget where to find it
My happiness is there, wherever I go
I just look deep inside, and it is all that I know

Someday I found myself
with a flood of emotion
I found myself thinking I'm not enough,
I found myself thinking I can't do anything right
I found my head pounding, not a headache
I found my head with a train horn going off inside
I found myself with the feeling of the sound pulsating in my skull, resonating with bone

I found myself in a isolated room
I  found myself in a secluded corner
I found my knees to my chest on the floor
I found my face tear streaked
I found my body to seized up to wipe them away
I found myself too tired to sob

I found myself sitting
I found myself thinking
Thinking of writing the note
The single note that always I found myself too afraid to write
I found myself thinking of a quicker way
I found myself thinking of the shortcut

I found myself crying until my body gave up
I found my body stopping itself
I found my head resting against the wall
I found myself looking at the ceiling
I found myself thinking at a million miles an hour
I found my thoughts of why

I found my thoughts of why,
in all the universe, all that is or may be holy or divine, why?
Why I was put on this earth?
Why I was here?
I found myself with my thoughts
I found myself breaking down
Breaking down, into a pile of uselessness
Breaking down, into a pile of helplessness

I found myself disappearing
I found myself falling
I found myself fall, heavily, to sleep, empty