Despite all my efforts I feel so fragile and weak
I journey for a treasure strength of many I seek

But always out of reach
Never can I hold in hand
I throw the punches but never do they land

Often in a crowded room I can hear my silent scream
It all seems so surreal
All just a bad dream

A fake laugh escape then a smile so untrue
I do it all for your sake I do it all for you

I know you would be sad if you understood how I feel
Yet you don't quite comprehend it's ok I will deal.

So I'll sit alone and silent try my best not to cry
Even tho a part of me is starting to wither and die

Like a plant unwatered
A neverplanted seed
A broken stem of a rose all it does is bleed.

So I keep on living just barely day by day
For now I really believe for me happy is not my way.

I am meant for missery lonelyiness and pain
A little bit of mental a small taste of insane

So look for me in the darkness it is where I lye
It is where I'm meant to be untill my last goodbye.

Life is hard here, I mess up a lot in my past.
But even through the lost and the mistakes.
Even through the Lonelyiness  and brokeness.
God reveal to me, that my life is not hopeless.
But that through him and his love for us all.
That when we put our faith in him alone here.
That we gain the Hope from him in this world .
As well as the very next world and life after death.
God is our Hope no one else nor nothing else.