I'm floating...on feelings...
Up, up and up toward the ceiling in the the sky.

The weightlessness began at cloud one.
A few hours spent in chatter.
Laughter and smiles from the earliest moments.

Cloud two swirling inside my head.
The movements and hues are varietal in their beauty.
Made of a language created by you and me.

The hope to cloud three occurred so easily.
Realizing your importance in the day to day.
Missing you felt natural.

Peace and calm quiet your inner voice.
All that was needed was a hand in mine.
How comfortable I am enveloped in cloud four.

Secrets exchanged and memories shared...
Create cloud five of trust, the listening ear, the voice of reason.
Deep breaths taken and ties strengthened.

The use of three words so often said too readily.
Love...you...for...being...exactly...you!
Cloud six can be described in one word...patience.

Cloud seven was a night of unexpected surprises.
The verbal return of feelings took my breath away.
Sweet nothings with a kiss or two gave it back.

Meditation and observation began while enjoying cloud eight.
Strong emotions of love, friendship, companionship, passion.
Knowing that losing you was no longer a necessary fear.

The fall of the walls built to protect.
Boundaries crossed and moments of shared pleasure.
Knowledge that all is well and will be well let to cloud nine.

Here I am...in the sky...
Always your friend...and completely in love...with you.

She is dripping 
With pretty hatred 
Her tears pour out 
Sinking her heart ship

No one notices
Her open mouth
Her need to cry out
No air 
Occupying her lungs 

Yet she jogs head first into 
The waves 
Not afraid to die young 

If only her love 
Could save her now

Her guy too mixed up
In worldly distractions 
Is no help to her,
Cause the fight she had left
He left on pause

Forever waiting...

No one knows your touch or how you’ve created me
Among cracked skin and bruised shins
With broken heart’s company
And blissful moment’s misery

You tied my wrists against your ribs
Pushing me to massage life
Into that hole you once called a heart
I noticed your flaws and know you’re flawless
Yet my hands kept searching inside your cavity

We’d pant and sweat and stare
At the glistening salty beads on the other’s body.
Eyes darting to find something, anything to hold
But you’ve slipped again unbeknownst to me
Leaving my hands inside your translucent skin

My fingers outspread to keep you near
I’m here
I’m here
I’ve always been here
Yearning for some sort of real

But all I remember is a glimpse of you
And your words, scribbled against rough pages
Against my own beating heart
The nights when we’d smile secretly
And the days that would pass us by

And all I remember is inspiring
To feel that one lovely feeling
To fill your hole.
To release my hold.
To love me, baby, sweetly love me

Woke up thinking about an old friend.
Along time ago,
This friend
Made me feel
So alive.
More alive than I have ever been.

My friend took me,
Shook me,
Like dr. pepper
As I exploded
With the sweet taste of cherries.

Now I dream of this old friend
More than he will ever know.
My dreams are sad,
On the cutting edge of love
And saying goodbye
Clinging to space
That no longer exists.
Vibrating on a frequency that only exists in
Old songs,
Old smells,
Old visions.
Of those times we once had
On the frost bitten ground
Outside of my car when we laid eyes on each other.
Or under the light where you told me you loved me
As we both pretended that we smoked.

Remember when I road in the ambulance with you?
Then, I was more complicated
And so were you.
But even then I knew
Still
So clearly
That I loved you.

Oh, friend

I would have done anything for you.
But now
You exist only in my dreams
And even in my dreams
You are running away.
I wish I could let you go.
But in my mind
In my heart
And in my dreams
you still remain.

Want to know the secret
To a long happy life?
Well it’s rather simple

First,
There’s this thing called
The Golden Rule.
If you don’t know what that is,
Then you’re a fool.
Get out of that rock you’ve been living under,
What it means is this:
Be a gentleman,
Hold the door open for others,
Because odds are,
At least five people will hold a door for you.
If you see a starving man,
Feed them.
Because odds are,
If you end up living in a box,
At least five people will feed you

Second,
Get Cultured.
Read a book or two.
Because odds are,
There’s a story about you.
Paint a Picture
Even if you’re color blind
Because odds are,
It’s art in someone’s eyes.
Broaden your horizons
The close minded are weak.
Learn a new language
Try a different way to speak
Or sign
Or write
Or even read

Third,
Learn to cook for others
Something people can at least chew
Because odds are,
At least five people have cooked for you.
Don’t be afraid to spice things up
Have a taste for something
Even if no one else craves it.
Let someone else lick the spoon
If they dare.

Fourth,
Listen to a new sound
Music that is true
Because odds are,
Someone is singing for you.
If your heart is broken,
There’s a song for that
If you’re just mellow
There’s a song for that too.
If you’re looking for a song with meaning
With words of a poet
Or you’re just wanting to feel inspired
Odds are,
Someone’s got you covered.

Five
Be brave
Choose the bolder thing to do
If glasses make you look smarter,
Then go ahead and wear them
Whether you need them to see or not
They may serve as a good luck charm
& help you pass that test you’ve cracked open book after book over
Or to help you understand that novel you’ve been reading
If you’re not too bold for red
Wear it proud
Either on a dress that flows to your rhythm
Or on your lips as you pucker up with pride.
If others have an opinion
You can pick & choose which ones matter
But I advise you not to choose any at all
Just smile & wave as if you’re saying
“Thanks anyway, but I’m fine.”
Because odds are,
At least five people have judged you
While five others have secretly admired you
& have even embraced your unique qualities

Finally
Embrace your roots as much as possible
As much as you’ve dreamed of city lights
& hated country living
The fact is that’s where you came from
& it has value.
Because it has made you partially who you are
But don’t forget that you are also your own person
Your soul is your own as well as your life
There are some things that only you can possess
You have lots of perks
As well as your quirks.
Maybe you have the ability to see through the dark
& notice the light in the most complicated things
& you have no fear as you venture your way to it
Maybe you’re brave enough to jump off a waterfall
Cannonballing into a strong current
One that goes a different direction than your used to
Maybe you’re the kid who makes a wish upon a star
Or upon the clock at 11:11
& even though it doesn’t come true you keep wishing
Maybe you’re the kid who thinks wishing is overrated
So you say a prayer instead
& you don’t just bow your head
Because that’s just a minor detail God doesn’t pay mind to
You know He just wants to hear you
At least someone does
Maybe you’re the one who takes action
& would more likely lead a protest for no reason
Than stand on the sidelines with a reason to
Maybe you’re the kind of man who is confused by art
While your children can only paint pictures to get a message to you
Maybe you’ll be a proud mother
Of another mother’s baby.
Maybe you’ll live the longest
Out of anyone on this planet.
Maybe you’ll cure cancer.

“Keep Calm & Carry On”
I see on everyone’s mugs
Maybe this whole thing is absurd
You can correct me if I’m wrong about it all
But I will stand for what I believe
& I will keep what is mine.
I expect everyone to do the same.

i keep things vague and blurry so you can't see past these walls.
but the chemistry brewing may demolish this, and the barriers will fall.
i dont know how to be when you're around and its painful to think about it so hard.
i watch everything so closely, analyze it to the core. for every second spent together i dream of a half a million more...

Just give me something, give me anything at all. I'll drop everything and i'll be here. All i want is to be here but i want to be wanted, it's all i can hope. Just give me something and i wont even think to go.