Someone you want to get to know them more
When you tried once already?
When you saw their shy smile from afar
When you tried to talk to them just as you are now?
But once it died out what's to change now?
You wished for her happiness and now she's fallen low
How do you you tell her you just want hang out watch a movie and hold her in your arms and show her everything will be ok?
How do you tell someone you've liked them when they probably don't care?

You are even here yet
But the effects are already here
The broken crown slowly coming to
A King of Broken Hearts no more
The love of a child fixing and mending
A heart so use to hurt but no more
The love you bring is revealing what could of been all along
No Queen no soulmate no one else to heal
Only the heart of Charlotte Rose was needed

Don't ever underuse I love you
Especially to your friends who need it
Don't ever go to bed angry at someone
Work it out before so you both are on the same page the next day

When you look at life in rose colored glasses
The red flags sometimes look like flags
When one friend doesn't like someone
Out of everyone you know, listen
They may see something you don't

And the biggest life lesson of all?
Protect your heart over anyone else's
You only get one and your happiness
Is the must important

The pin dropped
The glass heart shattered
If you thought there was a happy ending
You haven't been paying attention

Once again minutes after coming home
I tell myself it's been a long day
Tell myself it's just a drink
But the bottom is deep as a well

Will this be the one that pushes me over
The edge that is narrower than a line

Will I spiral completely out of control,
Will I still have a relationship with my kids
Or will I become a distant memory
Of a parent who couldn't be there

I stare into the bottle two sides waging
A war over my future but which one will become mine?

Usually I do not care if anyone reads my poems
I know a few do and even if they lie and do not it doesn't bother me
But sometimes I want some to respond
To say something and talk to me

Do I need to be more blunt?
Do I need to call them out?
The blonde bestie, sista sista, sweetheart, my secret fan?
Or do I say nothing like always and simply drift to the back of readers minds

I used to be the friend who people went to
When they were scared, afraid
I was there to protect and shelter them
No one hurt them with me standing by their side

But when I'm on that end

What happens when you feel broke
When you feel scared and vulnerable
Like it's my fault I'm the problem
When happens when I can't look myself in the mirror without crying?
What happens now

What happens when the protector becomes broken?

Love can be like a gentle rain
Showing you the beauty that's around
It can also be a raging storm
Filled with destruction in it's path

Like nature love can change just as quick

Growing up it was always forgive
Those who hurt you, be the bigger man
Turn the other cheek and love them back
As my thoughts turn to what you did
Can I forgive you?
Should I forgive you for tearing apart my family?
Making me growing up at 12 years old thinking my dad might die
With you exiting my life to never return
Forgive you?
I can't forgive you and won't

When the good times were ending

When the love was getting cold

When friends were getting ready to leave

I wish I could tell when my happy days

Were becoming the past

I was sitting it the lounge waiting for class
Talking to my friends, half asleep
Barely focusing on anything
When my friend yelled hey and I looked around

He was walking towards us and I paused

He seemed to tower over everything
Exuding a confident but welcoming presence around him
Every step so sure in it's placement

He turned then I saw his eyes
As if the clay she walked on transported to his eyes
Until he stepped into the light
The clay disappeared leaving gold to rise to the surface

He smiled as he got closer
Showing a kindness and warmth to it
As if he was welcoming friends he haven't seen in years back home

He gave a couple hugs and greetings to my friends before turning towards me

Hey

I'm Sean

Every fight is a crack
Every argument expands
How much can a heart take
Before it breaks?

I wish life was more like a book
I can read the thoughts and feelings
Of those close to me
It would make it easier to know who
Would be there for me if everything came
Crashing down

It's hard not knowing who would be there
Who would catch you as you are falling
Because everyone says they would be
But not everyone will be there

After so many people who said they would be here forever
And forever being a short time how can you know?

It's hard for me to tell, when everyone likes you but no one cares about you

You hide in shadows
Always reading never speaking
Thinking I can't see you
But I see through the shadows
You can't hide from me
So just come out and face the light

Sincerely
King of broken hearts

But why do I still write about you?
You hacked and slashed me into pieces,
Taking a quick exit when you could
Leaving me alone in the aftermath

You haven't been apart of my life in years
But why does my head still tell me how
You are going to slither back into it to
Destroy me again

You don't have power over my life anymore but why do I still feel powerless

To the one who took me on field trips
To the one who picked me up from school
To the one who bought me video games when I broke my leg
To the one who called my nightmares
To the one who cared for me

To the one who tore my family apart
To the one who left my sister without a motherly figure
To the one who made me not trust anyone
To the one who made me question peoples motives
To the one who made me grow up while still a child

To the one who almost broke me

Putting the hurt behind her
Getting away from being in bad places
She cut away those who hurt her and
Finally realized the heart that needed healing
Was hers

She's finally happy
And you are part of the happy
You help make her happy
I see it in the way she looks at you
The way you open the door for her
In the looks when you aren't paying attention

She's finally happy
She's been through so much pain getting here both from me and others
Finally having the stars align

You are apart of the happiness
But should it turn to pain
Like others before
Heaven or hell

I will put you through more pain than she ever experienced

I'm always scared I annoy people
Especially my friends
I always reach out and send messages
And snap pictures through the day

I'm scared to be alone in my thoughts
When the one person I talk all day is busy
I'm alone and scared to be
So I reach out

But I feel like I'm harassing and annoying
Pushing people away from me
When I'm trying to just not be alone
So I'm sorry to annoy

But hello from the alone

Do my friends know I love them?
Do my soulmates know how much they mean to me?
Do those I lost touch with know I miss them?
Time in endless but passes so fast
I try to show it but I can only do so much
So to my friends I still love you
My soulmates make me whole
And those that got left in the past,
I'm sorry

I really want to show you my writings
Show you the pain the caused
All the scars you left behind
Blown up relationships
I wish you can read
And see what you done to me
But you don't care
So I'll write to an empty audience
In the mean time

What do you see in me?

Do you the sarcastic funny kid in class
Or the exhausted adult who barely sleeps
Do you see the romantic?
Or the heartbroken man who's not sure what love is anymore?
What do you see when you look into me?
I stare into the mirror
I'm not sure what I see anymore

To the ones who broke my heart
And left without a reason
To the ones I broke and almost broke myself
To the friends who drifted off
To the ones I miss the most
I wonder what I mean to you
To my haters, I don't give a **** about you

Kindest regards

At one with the outdoors, one would think she's Artemis
Animals adore her more than I
Tied hair back boots laced up she sets off
Finding peace among the trees
Enjoying nature as nature enjoys her presence
She appears as calm as the trees around her
Though a hurricane sits underneath to protect those she loves
The wilderness is one with her and her with nature
Many will call her different names but I call her love

I've hurt so many in the past
Broken hearts by the number
But one is finally happy
One is finally happy

So many have been hurt
One day they may heal
From the brokeness that I left them
They may all hate me

But hopefully they heal
Hopefully I heal eventually
As long as one is finally happy
Out of them all at the end of it

For one to be happy

I'm glad it's you

I could be read by one
Or millions
Win awards for my writings
Or have them ripped apart
But no matter I will still write
For that one who may need it
Or want it

It's hard to write at times
Sharing what I feel
Heartbreak comes easy to me
And I'm happy

Any uneasy feeling I keep bottled
Hoping it'll go away
Because I don't want to jinx
What makes me happy

But if it's one thing I know
Darkness always comes back
For it never leaves

The King of Broken Hearts

Born after a tumultuous year
A year like no other
Filled with uncertainty, anguish
Pain and heartbreak like no other

But a light is shining, CRC
A year reborn with a flame
Of hope to keep us going
Bringing light out of darkness

Will next year be better?
Will anything change?
It starts with you
A Phoenix lighting flames across the nation