I don't feel like myself
I can't decide whether I have changed
Or everything around me has
I don't believe that it could be both

I feel my heart beating against my chest
My body trembles, terrified from the demons running wild in my head
My eyes are crying but i feel nothing at all
No breath enters my lungs
And I cling to the wall

I don't feel like myself
And to be honest
I haven't for awhile

I have all this energy
All this love
And no one to pour it into


                                         So why am I am unlovable?
            Because there is too much love inside of me.

I'm tired of writing about a boy who doesn't even remember he loved me

Was she there for you those nights
You cried for every reason why?
Was she there to listen
To all the darkness concealed within your soul?
Does she love you without boundaries?
With every inch of her being?
I did all that I could
My heart was put in the palm of your hand
And even when things were scary
I didn't ask for it back
I showed her how to love you
Because while you were loving her
I was loving you
So it seems like you're happy
And don't notice how you make me cringe
Years of friendship
Were thrown away
Because you're to self centered to see any
Of all the pain you cause me

You were the first to see
Every single piece of me
And for some reason you stayed
But she slowly dragged you away

So was she there for you?
Is she everything you dreamed?
I don't see how she could be
Because the second things are frightening
You find your way back to me

We judge girls for starving themselves
We call them ungrateful, insecure, and shameful

We judge girls for loving themselves
We call them conceited, slutty, and vain

We command girls to love themselves
But only as long as no one else can hear

Somewhere along the way
We let ourselves
Get in the way
Forgetting the words
That I needed you to say

So silence beats
Against empty sheets
Like waves against the sand
To remind us
Of what we once had

I couldn't have loved you more
I couldn't have been what you always wanted
I gave all I had to you
I don't know what else to do
Nothing makes sense without you
But nothing is right by your side
Anymore

And you'll look back
And wonder what we were
And I'll look back
And wonder where the years went
Written on our baby's face
All of the tears
All of the pain

So silence beats
Against empty sheets
Like waves against the sand
To remind us
Of what we once had

I couldn't have loved you more
I couldn't have been what you always wanted
I gave all I had to you
I don't know what else to do
Nothing makes sense without you
But nothing is right by your side Anymore

This marks the end
We can't pretend
That love is enough
To hold us together

So silence beats
Against empty sheets
Like waves against the sand
To remind us
Of what we once had

I know we made promises
I vowed my heart to you
Forever were words we said
But even forever
Has an end