Please just don't love me.
Don't look past the flaws.
Don't tell me that I deserve better,
Or that you're not my past.
Don't tell me that you think I'm wonderful,
Or look at me with your intoxicating eyes.


Don't look past what I'm telling you.
Please don't see that I'm dying for you to love me.

Many men had whispered to her
That she was the kind of woman that men sat around wishing for
That she was the dream type

But as she opened her heart to the love they promised to fill her with
They realized that she didn't need them at all

I'm tired of writing about a boy who doesn't even remember he loved me

You* convinced me to give you a chance
That if I ever changed my mind you'd understand

I still remember the feeling of when you kissed me
I knew that whatever came next
You would be worth it

I felt that feeling every time we kissed
No matter what happened
All you had to do was kiss me and I would fall into the hopelessness of believing you were worth it  

But when I begged you to stay
To work things out
You asked me to accept that you had changed your mind
That our timing was no longer right

But if you kissed me right now
I would believe that you were worth it

*You have always been worth it

There's something about him
That catches my eye
I don't know what it is
That makes me think about his smile
Every time I close my eyes
But all these feelings
I felt them once before
I'm so used to being alone
I don't think I could remember how to love someone
They way that they deserve
He really is something special
And I hope that he finds someone who will love him truly
With no restraints on their heart
Because even though I love him
I would tear him apart

I miss the warmth of your embrace
The loving look upon your face
The tenderness in your eyes
I miss the nights
We stayed up until four am
All the sweet secrets
The two of us kept
I miss how at peace I felt
Lying in your arms
I miss your big, brown eyes
Your fingers entangled in my hair
I miss the feeling of knowing everything would be okay
Just because I had you
I miss having you to look forward to
I miss the way our hearts would pound
When the chance of getting caught was coming around the corner
I miss hearing you name
And finding a silly smile on my face
Trying to hide the hint of pink in my cheeks
I miss you kissing my forehead
And hearing you whisper
"You're beautiful"
I miss when you were all I needed
My best friend
You knew everything
I miss the way your eyes would light up when they saw me
The shy smile you tried to hide
I miss how you would run and pick me up
Those are still my favorite hugs
I miss when my legs were to tired to walk
You would lift me in your arms
And carry me wherever me feet wouldn't take me
I miss the way you'd sneak in
Surprising me with one last kiss
Which ended up taking us forever to part
But even forever wasn't long enough
Because life was only good in your arms
I miss the way my stomach turned
When my head was in your hands
Losing ourselves in each other's eyes
I miss the way your fingers laced with mine
No one would guess they would fit perfectly
I miss how we could talk for hours on end
I miss the way we would kiss
A taste I can't get out off my lips
I miss when trusting you was easy
I miss how my life was
Before you deceived me

Tonight
I held my pen
Like I once held you

And while I wept over the loss of you
A smile broke through my tears for all that my poetry had to gain