How funny
I always thought about how lucky I was
That you loved me

But the truth was
You were the lucky one
To be loved like a girl like me

I think it's funny when people say
"People don't change"

Because I am so far from the person I used to be
Very little of the original me remains
These scars are proof of the growth I've done
The mountains I've climbed
The fires I walked through

People do change
You have no choice
When people burn you so you must raise from the ashes

In an weird way
I owe you a thank you
Because when you broke my heart
I realized that there are still parts of me
That are soft enough to be broken
And that is a gift not many can give me

You made me feel
Silly and
Stupid and
Ashamed,
That you
A simple boy
Was the thing that destroyed me

Not years of loneliness or mistreatment or trials

No
It was just a simple boy with a crooked smile
Who broke down all my walls
Who peeled back the hard layers of my heart
And gave breath to all the softness I forgot was there
It was just silly you
Making me fall in love with you
Only to make me watch you fall out of love with me

It was that, that destroyed the girl no one else could ****

It's just love
But oh,
Love is the most potent thing any human can go through

She was beautiful
And tasted like whiskey
She played coy
And told me I could ask her anything

"You're an open book."
I said. She smiled tauntingly.

*"But you're written in a lost language everyone's forgotten how to read."

I don't know how to explain the bizarre reality
That you went from being the person I spoke to
Everyday for years
To now,
A dead silence ringing in my ears