You made me feel
Silly and
Stupid and
Ashamed,
That you
A simple boy
Was the thing that destroyed me

Not years of loneliness or mistreatment or trials

No
It was just a simple boy with a crooked smile
Who broke down all my walls
Who peeled back the hard layers of my heart
And gave breath to all the softness I forgot was there
It was just silly you
Making me fall in love with you
Only to make me watch you fall out of love with me

It was that, that destroyed the girl no one else could ****

It's just love
But oh,
Love is the most potent thing any human can go through

She was beautiful
And tasted like whiskey
She played coy
And told me I could ask her anything

"You're an open book."
I said. She smiled tauntingly.

*"But you're written in a lost language everyone's forgotten how to read."

I don't know how to explain the bizarre reality
That you went from being the person I spoke to
Everyday for years
To now,
A dead silence ringing in my ears

My brain can not understand
That the man I knew is dead
And the one who killed him
Stands in front of me

Because the two
Inhibit the same body

In all my time loving
I have learned
That men
Need love
Just as much as women

I could kiss a million men
Or never let another touch my skin

But none of it changes the fact
That it's you
That it always has, always was and always is
You.