They all warned me about you
Your charm is a legend to be reckoned with
But I said no way
He'll have no effect on me

But then you made me laugh
In a way I never had before
And you looked at me
In a way that made me weak
And at 4 am
With you nuzzled in my neck
I was absolutely helpless

In my most loneliest of moments
I wasn't alone

I hear your faint whisper
From in between these bed sheets
Taunting me always
With the memory of you

I liked to think we weren't fools
For believing it could've worked
But then again
This bed was too small
And my love was too big

And in a weird way
I owe you a thank you
Because in all the misery you caused
I found myself

I listed
Out loud
All the things I loved about you

And in return
All I got was your silence

I guess at the end of the day
What I really wanted
Was to be enough for someone
For a person to look at me and think
"Her? I couldn't live without her. If not for her; none of it would mean anything"

I guess I just wanted someone to love me
The way that I had loved them

No
It wasn't a boy
Or the envy of others
Or even the experience of success over failure

It was me
Alone
Next to the ocean
Completely undone
And stripped dry to the bones
That's where I discovered
Peace truly exists