I always thought the reason you left was because I wasn't good enough
That I didn't give you any reasons to stay
But that wasn't it all
You're just a coward
Too afraid to stand by what you believe in
And the person who loved you more than all the other cowards you surrounded yourself with

I could have it worse
I could wake up each morning as you
Going through the day knowing I am
Stupid and horribly obnoxious

Oh how you've humbled me
Before you I believed I was like Hercules
But now
I work desperately to forgive you
So I don't have to lose you
Even though you're the one killing me

I like this place
A secret where I can write all my hidden thoughts
I never have to speak my shameful burdens aloud
To those who know me best
Because I find comfort in knowing
That thousands of strangers
Are where these troubles rest

I am posed with the question
of what is worse
The hurt of being with you
Or the pain of being
Without you

I don't know if it's due to an unbelievable strength
Or just a irrefutable stubbornness that refuses to let me go
Maybe it's both

But try as hard as you might,
You will not be the reason I fall apart
You will not even have the privilege  of being mentioned when I tell my story