It's not that I want to be alone
I just don't know how to not be this way

I just keep reminding myself that someday it'll get better

It has to get better

One day I'll be better

If we never talk about it
Then I won't have to realize my greatest fear that

*You don't love me anymore

Screaming in my head
Are words that repeat over and over again
"You are so worthless"
"You are meant to be alone"
"You are fool for thinking anyone could love you"
"You are so stupid for thinking it would have worked out"
"You are not meant for fairytales"
"Maybe if you were simple and less broken people would stick around"

And I grab onto my heart
Piercing through the skin on my chest
To hear the faintest whisper of exhausted hope
"You are what heroes are made of, you are strong enough to conquer this"

And through eyes blurred with tears
I lift my head up and remind all the voices pounding in my ears
*I am a warrior, I was born to fight

The hardest thing I ever did was leave you

I knew I had to
But to this day,
It's still the only time I've ever doubted my own strength

How do you know when it's over?
I've never been on this side before
I've never fallen out of love
I've never been the first to give up