Savannah Charlish

Savannah Charlish Nov 2015

I pulled out the story of us
And was shocked to see how much dust it had collected
Has it really been that long?
I reread every tear-stained page
Regretfully remembering the way you taste
I felt the lingering of your kiss on my neck
Oh, my body aches to feel it again
No ones ever been quite like you
And the pain never softens
No matter how much ***** I consume
To drown the memory of you

So just know that I am still yours
Even after all this time
And you may kiss me
Whenever you'd like
The way you did before

Savannah Charlish Nov 2015

Girls are Crazy

Boys taught me if I wasn't beautiful
Then I was nothing
They abused my emotions
Until I did whatever the hell it took
To become whatever attractive was
I've been told that I am now
But I could never explain to you why
They always mention my eyes?

Boys taught me if I wanted to get anywhere in life
Then I needed to manipulate their desires
So they'd fall into a trap
And feel things that could never be fulfilled
They trained me to walk and smile a certain way
So I could get what I needed
As they held it in their hands

Boys taught me that my body is the greatest feature I could ever offer
Bottle up any emotions
Because they'd rather not deal with mine
Because feeling is scary
And girls are supposed to be easy
They'd make me dependent
Without taking any responsibility for my mental well-being

Sure
Girls are insane
But wouldn't you be too
If you had the weight of man's world
Suffocating you?

Sure
Girls are crazy
But wouldn't you be too
If your whole life you were taught that you wouldn't be hurt
If you were beautiful
But when you become beautiful
It becomes their greatest form of abuse?

Savannah Charlish Nov 2015

Mind over Matter

What you feel is the greatest obstacle to what you know
But what you know is right much more often

Savannah Charlish Nov 2015

Wanderlust

I want to runaway
Start all over
Forget about all the people I love
Abandon the story I thought I wanted to write
And start a whole new one
With new people
New places
And a new me

I want to believe that I could disappear
And this life that I led for the last 19 years
Would disappear too
And no one would notice
So I could leave with no regrets
And not hear so many voices ringing in my ears

Savannah Charlish Nov 2015

Searching Where There are No Answers

I feel really lost right now
With no idea how to get my bearings
Or why I started feeling this way in the first place

Savannah Charlish Nov 2015

Fallacies

I think I need to let go
Of ever believing that someone will love me
With the same depth and intensity as I love
That they will recognize the weight
Of the words
"I love you"
And all the promises they make when they proclaim that to me

Savannah Charlish Nov 2015

Fight for Me

Romanticize me
Make me feel overwhelmed with love
Surprise me with all the different ways your love drives you to show me just how you feel
Shower me in words to express the depths of your affection
Pour kisses on more than just my skin
Touch me in my soul so I feel the power of love within you
Go places you never have before
Do things you'd never thought you do
Because even though you've already won me over
I still need to be reminded from time to time
That you can't believe you're lucky enough to call me yours