I am brutally honest
Raw
Untamable

And I'm not sorry if that makes you uncomfortable or not like me
Because I refuse to apologize for having the courage to be exactly who I am:

A mess of a lot beautiful and broken things all piled on top of each other

I never understood
When two people cared about each other
Why they weren't just simply together

And then you entered my life
With the worst **** timing
And I realized there's nothing simple about love

"Why is the ocean blue?"

I took in a salty breath before I replied.

*Well, wouldn't you be crying all the time if the world expected you to carry all its sadness?

There sat your hand
Craving to be intertwined with mine
There were your eyes
Looking away avoiding mine
There were your lips
Begging that the distance between them be ended forever

There was you
Sitting perfectly still and no clue how desperately I have fallen for you

I love you
I know I'm not supposed to
But dear lord
When I watch you listen to me talk
I almost can't keep my train of thought
Because I get lost in the depth of affection
You pour into my soul

I want so desperately to be a part of you
Connected to you
Experiencing you
But the universe would have to bend over backwards for that to happen
And I think they're feeling a bit lazy right now

I stood there
The midnight waves lapping against my bare chest
The black ocean
Sending waves over me
Taking with it every weary breathe
And pouring back into me salt and mystery

And though I could see nothing
I felt no fear
For if I died in the ocean
My soul would live forever with the one thing that always understood it

I just started running
The second I saw the ocean
I ran
I forgot I couldn't breathe
I forgot about every broken piece weighing down on my chest
I ripped off all my clothes and I ran
Into the middle of the ocean
In the middle of the night

Just the me, the moon and the sea