saun hutchings

saun hutchings Jul 2015

He left

There once was a boy
Who looked at me with love
He was there by my side
But I blinked and he was gonna

No trace of him around
No words left in the echo
No clue as to where he's gone
No place to start a search.

A ghost leaves more behind
Than just a broken heart
The first love that could have been true
The right kind of guy just gone ****.

At least my memories are happy
Nothing bad to come
Except for the pain of remembering
That he's gone for good

No one to ask where he's gone
No words to cling to for comfort
No item to hold in case of depression
Just an impression that he was once there

saun hutchings Jul 2015

Me

I feel as though I'm not wanted.
Treated like I don't exist
Pushed to the side like a broken toy
To collect dust for years to come

The words I say fall to the ground
Blocked by that barrier that was placed around me
No one to say the words
That will shatter the glass

Nothing is more wanted by me
Than a person to hear me again
To see me here on the side
To listen to the words that I say

To see a person care that I'm here
Instead of to think I'm broken
A person to know my thought
Than to ignore my existence.

Where is that person
I most long for
To be seen once again
Would be my salvation

Sorry if some of the wording is weird. I hope you enjoy it and it makes enough sence.

saun hutchings Jul 2015

Lies

Every time I say a word to you it's a lie
Any time I think a thought it's a lie
No matter what I do or say it's a lie
To you everything is a lie

You have lied to me
But I don't hold it against you
I lie to you it's the end of the world

I let go of what you did
I move on and say 'what's done is done'
But you cling tight to the words that fled my mouth
You say 'stop lying to me'

How can I stop when I haven't even started
How can I show you that that isn't me
When will you see the truth
Will you ever be able to let go of that past you hold on to for dear life?

saun hutchings Apr 2015

Me

Smiles and sunshine
Always there for you
Undeniable loyalty and love
Never give up

Hello stranger
Evolves slowly
Evil in secret

Helping hand
Untold secrets
Trustworthy
Church child
Happy to see you
In secret sad
Never stop pretending
Getting tired
Something always expected of me

saun hutchings Sep 2014

Stare

We see every where we go
the looks from strangers near and far
oh how they stare at us
But why?

We see the glances from left and right
our eyes connect
they quickly turn their head
But why?

Can they see something that we can't
do they know something we don't
do they think we're someone else
But why?

No to all
no to you, to me, to our family
They just stare because they have nothing better to do
They turn to hide their disgust for us in their eyes

don't know what it's about but it can apply to anything

saun hutchings Sep 2014

messed up

From just 5-yrs-old
Nothing was right in life
There were thoughts of ending
There were thoughts of suffocating
Thoughts that shouldn't have been there

At 12-yrs-old things got better
But then they dropped drastically
From happy to, again, thoughts of ending
This time there were pills instead of suffocating

At 16-yrs-old Life flashed before the eyes
A car whooshes by so close an arm could break
Traumatic incident occurred no going back from that
to be left alone on a day like that with no one to talk to at all

At 18-yrs-old scrapes and scratches are used
To feel the pain to let the other one loose into the world
But nobody notices that anything is wrong through all those years
what could be wrong with that young, happy, christian girl that always
has a smile on

this one was personal.

saun hutchings Sep 2014

Alone

Everyone is leaving me yet again
Not physically but emotionally
It could just be in my head
But it seems so real

The distance is slowly growing
The ones that I considered to be family are falling away from me
Waiting for the dust just to settle
Only to be left standing alone

The way things go round and round makes my head a little dizzy
Maybe everyone is just meant to fall away
And the only one meant to be left standing
Is yourself

Is there a possible way to find the one you're meant to be with forever
OR is it just luck and hard work
Can you imagine just finding that special one
And they are already married

To be alone forever
Is nothing anyone wants
Yet many people are
How do we fix that?

i was just thinking of life again. so this may be a little depressing. sorry about that