All our lives we move forward
Forward toward something we were promised
A better future that is bright and new

All our live we search for that connection
That connection to people
People that come and go

But what happens to our lives
when those people leave
or promises are broken

What becomes of us
when we never meet the people we have to
or when we don't go to the places we need to

What happens to our lives
To that promise
To those people.

Do we all end up being miserable
Do we meet eventually
or are we left to wonder "What if...?"

You say to show you that I’m responsible
But every time I do you look away
You say I can't have this till I'm grown up
But how old do I have to be

You are always telling me these things
Always shouting in my face
Always applying just a little bit more pressure
But when are you going to start seeing the things that you have been missing?

You have always told me to act like my siblings
But when I do you scold me for doing so
You tell me to act my age
But when I do You ground me

How much more of this topsy turvy world must I take
How much more do you need to tell me
How much more do I need to show you
Why can't you ever be happy with just me

I may not always be responsible
But I am when it counts
I may make mistakes
But thats what I'm supposed to do

Can't you see how much has changed
Can't you see that I'm still not 5
You are eventually going to miss everything
I wish you would catch up to the RESPONSIBLE ME

I was stupid to think that things could change
I was stupid to think that I could change
I don't know why I thought that things could be different
Why I thought I could be different

Nothing will change
Everyone is the same
Nobody cares about anyone much
Everybody thinks of themselves first

I thought you could be different
I thought that there was one person that I could count on
But you turned your back on me
You left me in the dark

Now that you are exactly who I feared you would be
I'm sitting in the dark, not knowing where to go
What will happen to me now
There is no light shining from you anymore

You left me with no warning
I guess it was stupid of me to think you wouldn't
I guess I was stupid to think that your light would keep me safe from the dark
But I guess I was stupid to think anything much of you

I guess I thought you were different
I guess that was the stupidest thing to think
I guess I'm alone once again
No more warmth that is emanating from a body

I guess I was stupid
To depend on you
I guess I was stupid
To think it would have been you

You told me not to feel
So I didn't
You told me to behave
So I did
But where has that gotten me?

You told me to use my manners
So I did
You told me that this is how it is supposed to be
So I believed you
But where has that brought me to?

You told me everything I know
That has shaped me
You made me who I am
That is what I am today
But now I know

I know that everything that you have told me is wrong
I know that there is nothing more wrong than what I used to be
When did I become the emotional punching bag?
Why didn't I realize that you have placed the scares on my heart?
It was you and your minions that made me this way

I hope that you're happy of who I am today.
Everything you did to help me hurt me
Everything you did to hurt me helped me
That helped me to become a stronger person
so that my heart doesn't get broken

All the pain that we feel inside
All the things we tried to hid
We all try to pretend that everything is perfect
But what comes of it?

We all see the pain in each others eyes
We see that there is no healing
We see that the cuts are deeper than what can be mended
But what are we doing?

All this time we put on these masks
All this time hiding because we're scared
All this time just waiting
But what are we waiting for?

We wait for tomorrow and hope the pain is gone
We wait for someone to take it away
We wait for time to eventually heal all wounds
But does it help?

It just keeps getting worse
It just keeps burning inside
It just doesn't get better
But it actually gets worse

To Me
To me everything is the same
Its boring and entertaining

To Me
I've seen all before
The guy gets the girl

To Me
You mustn't show emotion
Just a blank face is all you need.

This is Me
This the way I see things
This is the way the world was shown to me

To Me
This is what I saw was wrong
This is what needed to change

To Me
There was more than this
There was beauty and emotion in everything

Now I
See that the heart should lead
See that the brain should follow

Now I
Know that they were wrong
Know that I won't ever go back

THIS IS ME

Trust. It's a big thing.
To trust someone is a hard thing.
To know that they trust you is an important thing
Just make sure that you know you're trusted.

To trust.
I shall take a step toward trust with all of you.
But there is a lot to be told.
my trust isn't given to many.

but i know that my trust will never be broken.
That is what is important.
To know that your trust will never be broken
Forever.