it is strange that, by simply not existing, i have completely unloved him, or so i tell myself

oh to fall asleep with you every night
and to wake up in your arms every morning

life is so much more real
more colorful
and lovely
with you in it

i can't help but smile
when i see you

if you're around
my laugh is genuine

your hands on my waist
my lips pressed in your neck

how do i keep you forever

i believe that all good things eventually come to an end
you were the one for me
or at least in another universe
a world so far from reality it is almost dreamlike
in this time i come with unpleasant news
it was difficult to deliver
especially since i tried so hard not to smile upon hearing your lovely voice
but i think i have lived a truly wonderful life

there's always a reason
behind your decisions.
i have no right to feel these emotions
     jealousy
     anger
     sadness
and when i say it's
          impossible
to feel this way right now,
i'm told that
          i'm possible
for anything that wants to achieve me.
because i'm not the type of person to accomplish much,
so i try my best to be the accomplished.
and i have, but it isn't a good thing.

I FELL IN LOVE WITH THE WAY SHE SMILED...
HAVEN'T SEEN THAT SMILE IN AWHILE...
WONDER IF IT'S STILL THE SAME...?

your legs stretch out
in front of you a little
to the side,
          too long, too long
to fit underneath
your desk,
like it's too small.
          to me, to me,
there is a giant
who sits behind me
carefree, careless, and
          so tall, so tall, so
     tall