poison coursing through my veins,
parting ways in my brain,
separating me from my own mind,
i flock to what’s left and she waits.
i can’t remember where she slipped in,
more so when she slid out,
and how it got to the point now
where my drink is flooding me
with anticipation.
some knowing, unknown in its right,
the idea wasn’t here just a night ago,
but now it won’t leave,
it waits, just as she does.
and once this moves into motion,
the ground will tremble.
with such force, such intensity,
and i will show her the way,
what i mean, how i pursue it myself,
as she does, as we had,
and now cannot.
i’ll show her the dead tissue,
hanging from my shoulders,
how i have to lug it around
and one day, will unload.