I HATE:
How You left me open
How you don't say hello or hi anymore
How you act as if we were never together
How you don't think of me
How you said you won't forget about me
How you ignore me
How you try to erase me from your memories
How you don't speak much of me
I hate how I broke my heart by breaking your heart
I hate how you make me feel
I hate how I think about you
I hate how I want to forget about you so much but can't
I hate how you left me all alone
I hate how we aren't close anymore
I hate how you turned out to be
I hate how you walk past me as if you don't even know me
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
But deep down I'm crying and still I LOVE YOU.

This has gone to far ,
I look up , the sky , it burns itself
The flowers bury themselves as i pass by...
If i touch you you'll turn to stone...
Is death around the corner or am i the one causing it?
The regret , The fear , The loneliness
The , anger , The sadness , The weakness
It all melts my skin like acid ,
Until my body decays...

How I miss your embrace
When we met in that crazy place
I miss your touch
But when you’re close I tremble
I broke your heart am sorry
Never was it my intention I swear
Someone broke my heart into a million pieces
I’m still putting it back together
Forgive me if I doubt you
I know you are not to blame
But I am broken, and
I’m not sure what you expect to gain
But just know that while you hold me and I am next to you
About the world I forget
It’s not your skin color or your race
it’s just that honestly I am afraid.
Scared to give you my all
And about me you will soon forget
I have no more tears to cry
So I’m taking a chance and giving you my heart
I just truly hope this is a decision I won’t regret.

I've lost it.
I'm tired of being the imperfect daughter.
I'm tired.
I'm sorry I can't be her.
I hate that I'm not smart like her.
That I'm not perfect like her.
But I hate that I don't have your more.
You have driven me to this point.
With all your insults.

My friend lives,
deluded,
in her own world.
*She's lost

I'm tired of all the drama.
I'm tired of faking a smile
I'm tired
I'm tired of saying I'm fine.
I'm tired of lying.
I'm tired
I'm tired of hearing your insults.
I'm tired of watching you gossip about me.
I'm tired
But most of all,
I'm tired of being tired.
*I'M TIRED

The door
Closes
And is locked
And sealed

I don't know
How I'm going to
Do this
But somehow
I should break off
Staunch these flames
That I restarted

Just like that
One-way window
You look through
And here I stand facing a mirror
I'm smiling
And I'm pretty sure
You can see it

But if it's distance 
You're gonna keep,
This distance it's gonna stay
No worries
I keep to lines drawn

And I need a reset
A reset of my principles
A reset of my rules
A reset of myself

i curse my nightmares
for stealing away precious moments
that could better be spent
     dreaming of you

I can feel the weight of your words crushing my rib cage,
shattering the already weak bones in tiny swords,
which stab into my lungs,
leaving me breathless,
into my heart,
leaving me broken,
and all my other internal organs,
leaving me,
well,
crushed.

The ghosts of my past,
they haunt me.
Like the thousands of voices in my head,
they cry and wail in agony.

Sometimes I falter,
under the pressure of living,
all I'm doing is giving,
every last bit of me I have to give.

I don't want to die,
but I kind of do, I guess.
It's kind of hard to tell,
when your mind's a mess.

Nightmares consume the night,
insomnia prevails.
I feel weak,
no wind in the sails.

Now I sit here,
silently,
mindlessly,
and wait for you.

This could take forever,
but I've already had to wait that long before,
so it shouldn't be that hard,
to wait that long once more.