Texting you one day
I noticed something was different
That you weren’t acting normal
And you wouldn't even listen
I tried and tried to get you
To open up and say
What was going on with you
On that very day
But you said you couldn’t tell me
And right then I was heartbroken
It was better that you didn’t tell me though
Because it would’ve left me hurtin’
Hurting more than not telling me
Is something really hard to do
But then again,
Telling hurts me too
Its one of those moments
You really have to think
And try to find the answer
Before your mind goes blank
Because I’m one of those people
That’s always gotta know
If you’re feeling okay
And if not then what is wrong
So don’t be afraid to open up to me
Even if you think it’s wrong
Because you’ll find it’s the right choice
And that doubting me was wrong
You can always trust me
As you should know
So tell me what’s bothering you
And I will help you though

Walking down the halls
I realised one day
That I haven't even noticed
That you have been going this way
You’ve been behind me
And I haven’t even cared
But I also didn’t know
That you’d been there
Now I keep walking
And with more knowledge
Blushing uncontrollably
And now on edge
Afraid you might talk to me
I start to walk faster
But wanting to talk to you
I walk slower
So I stay the same pace
And you don’t even notice
How I’ve started to worry
And that my face has gone crimson
Finally reaching my destination
I walk in and feel relieved
But also sad
Knowing that you just walked past
This emotion I feel
Is hard to explain
So I just sit down
And look plain
“Maybe next time”
I think to myself
“I’ll have enough courage
To walk up to him myself”
And with just those few words
My confidence goes wild
And for a few moments
I actually think I could do it
So when I see you again
I go up and say “hi”
And you don’t respond
I suddenly feel shattered
And fall endless
In that fall I realise
That my goals are to high
And I change them
To make them mine
You disappear from my thoughts
And I start to focus
But I see you again
And it all comes back again
All the emotion
And all the realisations
The emotions and lives
I had planned out
Just pop into my head
And don’t pop out
So you’ll always be there
In a special place in my heart
Tucked away forever
Where I can restart

When i saw you for the first time
I thought i would probably die
I fell for you instantly
Image floating through my head listlessly
You’re always there, but not how i want you to be
I want you to spend your life with me
Because i am afraid of what would happen otherwise
If you left me to my divise
If you left me, i wouldn’t be me
I would be someone with the shell of me
You’re my everything,
And i want to be your everything

You know that one song
That’s always playing
Never stops on the radio
And freaking drives you crazy?
I know how you feel
If you’re answering yes
But what I want to tell you
Is not to second guess
The people running the radio
Are just in it for the money
They know that different people are listening
Every part of the day
So if you think
Their just trying to drive you mad
Don’t forget to think about
What they could be doing instead
I’m sure they’d rather be doing
Something other than playing
Music for some unhappy people
On any given day
So don’t get mad at them
For playing the same song
Over and over again
All day long

I’ve written about love
And I've experienced it, too
But nothing like
How I feel about you
Too shy to speak up
Too confident to not talk
Do you’re constantly at war
And never going to talk
Unless it’s in your group
You’ll stay silent
Too afraid of embarrassing yourself
But not wanting to be quiet
I love people who aren’t
Afraid to use their voice
And you aren’t
To a degree
In class, you’re someone different
That who you are with your friends
I know this because
My love for you has no end
When you think that I don’t like you
It makes my heart cry
Because you should never doubt what I tell you
Especially if it’s my feelings inside
So just know this, my love
I’ll be there for you always
Never forget that fact
And we’ll be together for forever and a day

Staying somewhere
Is a luxury
Most people don’t understand
That their so lucky
Moving schools
Is like moving lives
Especially when you don’t stay somewhere
For more than a night
Never knowing
Where you’ll wake up tomorrow
Always drowning
In your sorrows
To stay somewhere
To not switch schools
Would be like asking for
10,000 jewels
It’s almost impossible
For you to think
Of a life
Where you don’t wonder
Each night
If you’ll be here tomorrow
Or be somewhere new
Trying to fit in
But always “the new girl”

Explicit


Seeing you on
Is like flipping a switch
You make me light up
When my days been a *****
Seeing you smile
Makes me smile
And then I think
And I think for a while
And I think of the times
We had together
And what we had
Pieced together
Lives planned
Promises promised
But then you moved
And I don’t know what happened
You saw other girls
You weren’t you
And I am still confused
About what happened to you
You were such a good person
Always kind, and thoughtful
But moving away from me
Turned you awful
You’d bully
You’d be mean
You’d even ignore me
And you still do not know
How much, to this day
Your words sit in my heart
And my soul withers away
You were my night and day
My story on a page
But now, you’re gone
And I don’t know what to do
Whats ******* wrong with me
What happened to my soul
I let you know things
No one else knows
And you don’t even care
That I cry myself to sleep
Thinking about the past
And what used to be you and me
So whatever you do
If you ever move away
Don't do this to your friends
And never, ever change

Have you ever wondered
What life would be like
If you had never thought
Of what you’ve left behind
Our world is
Made up of thoughts
Of the past and the future
The present we don't think of
Because we think it'll make us distraught
But the present will do us good
We should focus on it more
Because without it
Life would be a bore
Well, really, without it
Life wouldn’t even exist
We wouldn't be alive
We wouldn’t exist
Your thoughts make you
So don’t just shove them away
Because without them
There wouldn’t even be a day
There wouldn’t be time for you
To even try
To think about life
And the things we’ve left behind
Your thoughts are yours
You don't have to share them
Just know that you always
Have to think about them

What i feel when i'm near you
Is something unexplainable
When i see you coming  
My heart becomes unstable
You sit next to me
And my face goes crimson
But the funny thing is,
I never know the reason
My life revolves around
Me seeing you
And without that stability
The world in my head goes to
Another place entirely
Something about that place is
It always is you on a stage
You’re my night and day
And my story on a page
And without you
My life would have no meaning
My mind would go blank
And my heart would stop beating
So please,
My companion,
Friend,
Brother,
Stay.