i used to be radiant, positive, and content.
i used to be happy over the littlest things.

i'm not anymore.

now,
i'm bitter.
i'm pessimistic. the littlest things make me sad.
i never let things go. i never understand why i deserved all this.

when i was all those good things before, i was taken for granted. and i never want to let anyone gets to feel who i was before. not even myself.

i wondered how many times a person can hurt someone until they're finally broken. now i know.

i used to think that love was texting 24/7,
      meeting each other everyday, having fun with each other, calling
              each other baby names, and posting each other on social
                     media.
but love.
      love is so much deeper than that. it's having difficult conversations together, forgiveness, understanding, tolerance, and patience.

i'm so glad you taught me real love.

you and i are like
heaven and earth
black and white
fire and water
east and west

so i'm learning to let you go, even if half of me is with you.

to this day i still don't understand why you left,
or why i forgave you for leaving.