and I'll stay asleep until I dream of you
or until you decide to
speak to me like you used to
I don't want to lose you
so I'll stay asleep until reality bends
and we'll make amends
among the clouds

I'll blame myself repeatedly
until you show me how to be
more like you
I'd like to be more like you

I'll hate myself for things I've done
but baby, believe me
you are the only one
the only one

I'll force myself to sleep all day
until the pain goes away
the sun and the moon interchange
not really, for me, it's all the same
everyday, everything's all the same
you made me complete
I tore us apart
I'll slip into darkness to fight my heart.

coming up with ways
for us to be close
finding little moments for us
to be alone
your nurturing care saves me early
you don't know my habits
I want to learn all your thoughts
that you won't leave me lonely
or drunken or cold
savoring happiness like we know
days like these don't last
and feelings like these
don't stand a chance.

slyly understating
affections for secrets kept
behind darkened doors

mask the inevitable
to increase the heartbeat of a girl
souls unsweetened
it gives me a rush, I'm unable to lie
and one feeling crushes her doubt

don't pour out her generous ways
to fill her with aspirations
the filthy kind
that beg for darkness

she'll deduce and uncover
much to your dismay
a need to discover another mistake

she helps those in need
by helping herself

                  angelic expressions
                                     hide brutal intentions.

There's a certain attractiveness in agony
To be drawn to something destructive
Like perpetual bliss within a simple discomfort

Whether your soul is old, or it's just learned wisdom
The distraction serves as a habitual nuance
Slowly pulling the strings of routine until each knot is loosened,
Each wall built up is cut into a thousand pieces

Please refrain from bestowing temptations upon me
For I am not strong
I lack critical mindful muscles, and in place are romantic fantasies
I haven't trained my posture to withstand it all,
So do me a favor, leave me untied, all broken up
If not, I shall succumb to a heartthrob personality
My body is fully unable to afford it

With words, a gentle mind is twisted
With a glance, the guiltless eye wanders
I have come to learn that, despite all attempts to repel emotional buckles, the severity of a sweet soul is far too powerful to overcome.
It seems as if I have no choice at all

I am feeling corrupted
Though you promise me ease
Teach me to have faith in your dismemberment
Simultaneous devotion to a psyche so unfamiliar to me
I'm wrapped up in chains, though you swear to me freedom

To where can I possibly turn?