can't fight these harsh feelings
they fill my brain and envelop me
every time I see you,
my vision is blurred and I remember,
I start to remember the words you first said
I thought they were so stupid
but I laughed right along,
assuming the best of you.

I don't like to remember all the good times we had
for reality is far too painful to comprehend
without you, babe, I never even thought
I needed you
or someone like you . . .
it hurts to relive the glory days

I love to remember all the good times we had
for they fill me with hope that,
someday I'll be with someone even better
stronger, kinder, more honest, even
can you imagine? my head has a hard time
grasping an image of happier feelings
than the ones you were able to make me feel
every single waking second.

the emotions blow over,
as I am forced to ignore you
but remember love,
I was so ready to love you.

approach me with caution
a deadly edge
dreaming yet I'm weary
waiting for the end
could you show me?
could you maybe just dethrone me?
goodness, I think my soul is overflowing...
never miss a call
don't delay, get the story straight
fighting our downfall
just to stay, feeling far away

isn't it sweet living on your own feet
making your own decisions
and not having to answer to anyone?
except for the big man
when he asks of your income
and takes some away, as he pleases
but other than that, you're totally free!
isn't it great how the schools regulate
what you can and can't eat
because most other people
are addicted to sweets?
and in this all-inspiring jewel of a land
the less you have,
the more powerful you become
tracing our races all back to day one.
and the certainty of knowing
that you're living well-balanced
in a place where there are rules on the simplest of things.
it's a small price to pay for a life worth living,
and you'll never feel threatened
in this awing new world
no weapons, no lust, no verbal attacks
just you, and me, and the big man watching
in this utopia we succumbed to for personal gain

stay seated and quiet
all the babbling runs out
we're alone with another
evil man to convince
convicted and slaughtered like a ravenous pack
let's skip the routine
just for another day in these arms
armed with a band of weapons galore

wavelengths rehearse their dance for me
a meek and assuming afternoon
no lover has lost their remorse
and no mistress was ever dethroned
absorbed by the power and blindly submitting
so sing to me, let it be me for today
and each day after this
can be swiped from our grasp
but, honey, I'm still so obsessed!
as ashes emerge from a raging hot storm
I inhale and am deliberately consumed
she's no witch, but you'll burn
she's no god, but you won't be absolved
the screech of your voice takes me ten levels deep
love, I fear I can still sketch your face from my brain
each indent and curve, it's permanently burned
into a chamber of connection
a connection never experienced
break the ice, break a woman
lay all your affections to rest.

hellish disease
uproar and unease
unleashed like a ghost, a goblin, a girl
her short tempered pleas
one last time left to tease
and obnoxious, insane answered calls
in shock and she's desperate
debt unpaid, prayers unanswered
heartbeat left in pain
transforms into power
the power to hold, to stand tall, to scold
allow me a moment, we'll bribe to change minds
he dumps inner struggles
on her innocent heart
creating a victim from the early start
regret claims a soul and impurifies
but somehow, so blinded, she's still mystified
take back the night, glorified life
in change, in pursuit
but all out of love
and drained of her light